Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts

By Dr. Minnie B. Washington

Have you ever reached the point of brokenness that everything within you hurts and there is nothing left to hurt, but your hurt? Dr. Minnie B. Washington’s biblically inspired book, “Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts,” is that healing miracle you've been waiting for. This is an awesome vehicle that the Holy Spirit is using to deliver His people from something so personally devastating that it effects you, mentally, physically, socially, and emotionally. It’s that point when your pain becomes so crippling that there is nothing left inside of you but to cry out, “Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts.”

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• Release date: Jan 6, 2015
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Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts

Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts

Dr. Minnie B. Washington

Foreword by: Elder Minnie A. Riddick

Published by:

Tabernacle of Prayer Media Ministries

2015

Copyright

Copyright © 2015 by Dr. Minnie B. Washington

All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review or scholarly journal.

First Printing: 2015

ISBN: 978-1-312-81179-9

Published by Tabernacle of Prayer Media Ministries

Tabernacle of Prayer Media Ministries is a subsidiary of:

Tabernacle of Prayer Church

PO Box 9773, Virginia Beach, VA 23450-9773

www.drmb-topc.org

Dedications:

I dedicate this book to my children: Steven, Bobby, Cheryl, Geryl, Kip, Caroline, Minnie and Bernard, Jr., Grand and Great Grand Children.  I praise God for giving me the most precious gift in each one of you.  You are God’s expression of His love to me.  I am blessed beyond words.

I also dedicate this book to my spiritual family.  I want to thank you, and tell you I love you very much because of your willingness to join God in what He is doing in my life and ministry.  To God be all the glory for the love relationship that He has given us as pastor and people.  So with all my heart, I dedicate this book to you, my spiritual family called The Tabernacle of Prayer Church (TOPC) of Virginia Beach, Virginia.

Foreword:

By: Elder Minnie A. Riddick

I count it a privilege and an honor to write the foreword of this book. Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts, is a crucial message of momentous proportions, designed and purposed to deliver hurting people across the globe. I have known such a great, endearing woman of God in Dr. Minnie B. Washington all of my life. As my biological mother, pastor and overseer, I’ve witnessed her ministry unfold firsthand. Combined years of hurt, struggles, suffering, and healing with decades of wisdom and biblical principles have brought forth an anointed healing to reach a hurting world.

I can look back on my childhood, as the youngest of seven children, and see how God has been developing this book from the beginning. Every time life brought pain into our lives, my mother's response would always be, One day I am going to write a book about it. Periodically, I would ask her when are you going to write this book? Her response would always be the same. The Spirit has not released me. To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven, (Ecclesiastes 3:1 King James Version).

After much prayer, fasting, counsel and meditation her season came in July 2013, when she was finally delivered and set free from a great hurt and pain. Following forty-six years of struggling, God finally set her free. And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free, (John 8:32).  The truth has also set me free through the compassionate and inspired writings of Dr. Washington.   I will always recall the Word of Knowledge God delivered to me when I was going through my most difficult hurts and struggles.  It came directly out of one of her writings, no matter what you may go through in life the key is to learn to persevere daughter and you shall make it through every trial and every test, you must always remember the Scripture, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end," (Jeremiah 29:11).

God supplied deliverance and healing to my mother and is now using her to bring healing to thousands of His people. Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts is a spiritual atomic bomb of Holy Spirit inspired power. God is using Dr. Minnie B. Washington to deliver a revelation on how to light this fuse. I urge you to prayerfully read, and then prayerfully apply, and I know, that I know, that you will never be the same, again.

-Elder Minnie Alisa Riddick

Introduction:

Have you ever reached a point of brokenness that all you could do was cry out, Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts? Then you are reading the right book at just the right time in your life. Regardless of whether you are a man, woman, child or an adult, this literary experience will change your life in this season of hurt. To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven, (Ecclesiastes 3:1 King James Version).

From my earliest childhood memories until present tribulations, I have found myself hurt (or should I say allowed myself to be hurt) because of various people, situations or things beyond my control (and some things in my control). I have constantly cried out these five words, (Lord Help, My Hurt, Hurts) when I felt like I just could not go on any more. Symbolically, the number five means Grace (God's unmerited favor). Therefore, I was really crying out for God's grace upon my life. 

At times it seemed as though my past and I were one. I began to accept the myths that people would tell me. When hearing that I was a product of my environment, it became difficult to differentiate between my former experiences and the

Woman of God I am today. If you can identify with me, you might also be having a hard time getting beyond that damaging mind-set. I encourage you to read this book because you are not your past.  Just to clarify, you are changed and shaped by past experiences. God uses your past to mold you into greatness. Regardless of your circumstances, I can still testify that who you were yesterday does not control the person you have the potential to become tomorrow.

It is because of the vast amount of hurt, pain, wounds and healing, I have been empowered by the Spirit to share with others my testimony of what to do when your hurt, hurts. I have held several workshops and through the empowering workshops, I was able to begin sharing my hurt as a blessing to others instead of a curse. Personal hurt can easily become the avenue of deflecting negativity on others. That’s why, hurt people hurt people. Through my personal walk of sanctification, God has showed me how to turn this around and become one of the hurt people that help people.

Perhaps you are asking yourself what does it mean for my hurt to hurt or how can I say my hurt, hurts?  Hurt is defined as, to cause physical harm or suffering to; injure; to cause mental or emotional suffering to; wound; offend (Webster Illustrated Contemporary Dictionary, 1987). It should be noted; hurt is past tense (It hurt when it happened). Hurts is present tense (It hurts now).  In other words, my past hurt; presently hurts. They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death, (Revelation 12:11).

Interestingly, my testimony is placed on the same equal level as the blood of the Lamb.  Through writing this book, Lord Help! My Hurt, Hurts, not only was I able to obtain my victory, but I am allowing others to experience and reproduce victory in their own lives. I pray that this seed of my testimony can produce a harvest of deliverance in your life. I believe that God is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us (Ephesians 3:20).  Stay focused and receptive while reading this book. Allow the Holy Spirit to have His way in your life and enjoy your journey to deliverance. 

Chapter 1: When Your Hurt, Hurts

We all hurt from time to time. Life knocks us off balance, lays us low, and renders us weak and incapacitated. Sometimes it is through no fault of our own and sometimes we did it to ourselves. In our inner most being, we want nothing more than to let the hurt go, but we can’t find the freedom to act on our decision to change. There are many hurts, pains, disappointments, trials, and tribulations. However, God says, in spite of everything that we have been through, are going through, and have experienced, I want to put you back together again. When you then look back and evaluate your strategic struggling, you will realize that God was right there in the midst, strategically planning your life.

Has something so painful and overwhelming happened to you that it has affected every area of your life? Every time you kneel to pray, does your mind go back to painful experiences of someone breaking your heart and wounding your spirit? Have you experienced something so personally devastating that you can't discuss it with anyone? Do you find it difficult to trust people and you don't know where to turn? You may feel as if everyone is grading you and evaluating your progress, meanwhile you are actually your own harshest judge. You know you should be further along in life. You feel like someone or some circumstance has crippled your future. Your hopes and dreams were never fulfilled. You feel like a failure.

Maybe, you acknowledge that you should have finished school, by now. You know you should have been a teacher or a musician, by now. Society standards encourages you to have already been married and have children. In most cases, it’s more actually married and divorced, by now. Maybe, it’s your career that should be further along or that you should have started that business venture you have been dreaming about.

Your dreams and your goals should have been fulfilled years ago, but you've been crippled. You may actually be going through a separation or divorce. You may be experiencing low self-esteem, bad relationships, rejection, loneliness, depression, frustration, physical or verbal abuse, bad relationships with a parent or parents, relatives or significant others. You might have been a victim of child abuse, rape, insecurity, fear, doubt, or anger. Maybe you recently lost a loved one. It could be your personal guilt, illness, or many, many other hurts in your life right now.

Don't give up! There is hope and healing for your past and present hurts. God has a way of taking people who have been forsaken by man and restoring them. In fact, God tends to prefer such individuals because when they get into a place of power, they are not as arrogant as those who think they deserve the promotion. Humility goes a long way in the Kingdom of God. Broken individuals (such as me) tend to be less self-righteous. They tend to be a little warmer and more loving and compassionate. They focus more on reaching out to embrace others without the fear of rejection. They understand that if it had not been for the Lord on their side, they wouldn't be who they are today. They realize that if it had not been for God's grace and mercy, they would have never survived.

Many times in my life, I struggled with my past and failed to walk in my potential future. However, I would like to make a profound statement; your past has nothing to do with what God can do for your future. "Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth onto those things which are before, I press toward the mark of the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus (Philippians 3:12-13 King James Version).

Most of us are hurting and usually ashamed to admit it. No one wants to publicly acknowledge that they are currently or had experienced problems. We feel lost and do not know what to do or who to talk to. Most of the time, we talk to the wrong people, which cause us to do the wrong thing. Some hurt people will hurt you! We are children of God and must be determined to deal with our problems God's way!!!  If we focus on who we are and to whom we belong, we can begin living toward the potential God has designed for us. This will determine the destiny and plan God has designed for us.

Hurt is defined as: to cause physical pain or injury to one; to harm or damage in some way; be bad for; to cause mental distress or pain to; offend (Webster's New World Dictionary, 2004). I believe that the Holy Spirit has defined hurt, hurts as: to hurt mentally, physically, socially, emotionally; when everything within you hurts and there is nothing left to hurt, but your hurt, (Definition received through personal spiritual incite).

What causes someone to hurt? Have you ever experienced such a devastating, dramatic and life-changing hurt that you have fallen away from God and forsaken the love of the Father? Are you one of us who were once consumed by doing God's will and only His will? Were you once preoccupied with spending long hours in conversation with the Lord, but now you find yourself unable to even read His Word? Were you once consumed with the very essence of praise and worship to the Father and now you choose to live without praise, except for those times of great need? There is no physical cure when your hurt, hurts. No person on earth can shut out your innermost fears and deepest agonies. Your best friends will never really understand the battle you are going through and the wounds inflicted on you.

Only God can shut out the waves of depression and feelings of loneliness and failure, which come over you. Faith in God's love alone can salvage the hurt within you. The bruised and broken heart that suffers in silence can be healed only by a supernatural work of the Holy Spirit and nothing short of divine intervention really works. God has to step in and take over. He has to intercept our lives at the breaking point. He has stretched forth his loving arms, and has brought your hurting body and mind under His protection and care. God must come forth as a caring father and demonstrate that He is there, making things turn around for your good. He must, by His own power, dispel the storm clouds, chase away the despairing gloom, wipe away the tears, and replace the sorrow with peace of mind.

Why does life sometimes become so painful? And why must we lose the things that mean the most to us? The Holy Spirit doesn't just put a band-aid on our problems to do His work in our shallowest parts, our feelings. He comes to bring forth His deepest work, in our deepest part, our will. His entire sanctification process is to bring our will in submission to God’s will for our life. Many times, this difficult work involves losing the things we hold most dear. Things like success, support systems, strength, self, intimacy, love ones, youth, and His presence.

Why me Lord? When your hurt hurts, you know your love for God is strong, yet you can't seem to understand what He's trying to bring together in your life. If you’ve had a cold and bitter relationship with Him, then you could easily understand why your prayers went unanswered. If you were dodging and running from God, you could probably understand why the testing and severe trials kept on coming. If you were lost, broken, and sinful and despised the things of God, you could bring yourself to believing that you deserve to be hurt badly. But you're not running; you're not rejecting Him in anyway. You want to do His perfect will. You yearn to please God and want only to serve Him with everything that is within you. That is why your hurt is so debilitating. It makes you feel like something is terribly wrong within you. You question your spiritual death, and you might even question your sanity. From somewhere deep inside you, a voice whispers, maybe I'm defective. Maybe I'm being hurt so deeply because God can't see any good in me, anymore. I must be so far out of His will that He is disciplining me to make me obedient.

Psalm 66 says, For thou, O God, hast proved us: thou hast tried us, as silver is tried. Thou broughtest us into the net; thou laidst affliction upon our loins. Thou hast caused men to ride over our heads; we went through fire and through water: but thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place, (Psalm 66:10-12). He caused men to ride over our heads. Interesting phrase isn't it? I felt like that a few times. People were riding over my head, crushing me, hurting me and being cruel. And where was God? I couldn’t see Him. I couldn’t feel Him. I couldn’t hear Him. Was he just sitting back watching people walk all over me, trampling me beneath their feet? No, He was there the whole time. When He finished allowing the excruciating process, He lovingly gathered all the broken pieces and put me back together again. This time I became a different person. I was a stronger person. I was a better person. I'm grateful for His faithfulness. Occasionally, our supports are taken from us gently, one by one, as God girds us with His strength. In contrast, our support system that raises the bridges of our lives seem to collapse simultaneously. Everything seems to fall apart so quickly that we are left defenseless. We are grasping for anything left of our old lives that we can still hold on to. Often we are unaware of the dependence we have on these supports until they fall. This is when God shows up in our lives. This is when God becomes our support system. In Psalms 62, it tells us that Truly my soul waiteth upon God: from him cometh my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defence; I shall not be greatly moved. My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him, (Psalm 62:1-2, 5).

Subsequently, we have to find the distinction in what He is saying. We are too busy saying, my soul finds rest in an understanding husband, in good health, in financial security, in people who appreciate me, and in a fulfilling work situation. We go on and on with a never ending list of supports that we find peace in. If you look at how we act, that would be common knowledge that our expectations are in a number