21 Days to Letting Go With Inspiraional Quotes "Kira's Story"

By Carmen Alicea

Learning to let go of toxic relationships or situations. Accepting that it is time to move on with your life. That the treatment of others towards you is not a reflection of you, but an insecurity within them. Identifing the need for change and focusing on becomeing a better and more powerful you through selfreflection and journal entry. A measure that allows to see your growth and development as you learn to let go of toxic relationship and move on with your life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Dec 11, 2018
• ISBN: 9780359087310

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21 Days to Letting Go With Inspiraional Quotes "Kira's Story"

21 Days to Letting Go: Kira’s Story

Carmen Alicea

Copyright © 2018 by Carmen Alicea

All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review or scholarly journal.

First Printing: 2018

ISBN 978-0-359-08731-0

Maria Del Carmen Ocasio-Alicea

P.O. Box 46751, Tampa Fl 33646

Dedication

I dedicate this book to my mother. Who though late in life, got the opportunity to break free and live her life the way she wanted. I also dedicated this first book, to my soul twin, my encourager and motivator. His belief in me, gave me the necessary armor to cross the road and acknowledge the me who was waiting to be set free. I am forever humbled and grateful.

Acknowledgements

I want to take the opportunity and recognize a few people who believe in my craft and always encouraged me to fulfill my dreams. They read many of my writings and provided constructed feedback. They were my first cheerleaders and fans.

For the breath that I breathe and the gift to weave words together, I first thank God for this blessing. To my harshest critic, my daughter Briana A. Sanchez. I thank you for your brutal honesty, I wouldn’t want it any other way. To my favorite photographer and writer friend: Ronald Slaton, who would not allow me to add a picture he did not believe capture my spirit and spent countless hours swapping stories with me and proof reading my work.

Lastly, to one of my best friends, my champion and forever supporter: Lydell Birch, you know you ignite the fire within my soul that allows me to create magic. Without you, I would not have gotten on this boat that’s been patiently waiting for me. Thank you all for believing in me. God bless Always.

Preface

This book is dedicated to all the broken hearts; the forgotten dreams, loss of confidence and faith many may have experienced at the hands of toxic relationship and /or situations. Through life experiences, I have seen people close to me rise to these trying circumstances, that kept them from living life as they should have. Regretfully, I have also seen love ones consumed by these toxics relationships and never opened the gates to their freedom and self-worth.

Though Kira is a fictional character in this book, she can very well be you. When writing this journal, I took some personal experiences and combined them with Kira’s to bring to life the feeling of hopelessness, heartbreak, betrayal we feel when we are in a relationship and don’t understand the actions of our partner or the reason why they are acting that way.

As humans, we were created to enjoy honest companionship and communication. Without these basic elements, we are bound to start questioning and doubt our ability to rationalize and think coherently because of a lack of essential nourishment. To succeed any relationship needs to have a defined communication of what is acceptable and what is not. Without this clarity, you are leaving room for miscommunication and misunderstanding that could have easily being avoided.

Yet, that being said; there are times when you need to break away and let go. The intent of this journal is to give you a foundation as to where you can start. It is not easy to start something different. You must practice discipline, while being tenacious and dedicated to your goal. Be it breaking away from a toxic relationship, motivating yourself to start working out, etc. Whatever it may be, know that the power to succeed is inside of you. If you want it, you can do it. Reach for the heavens with your prayers and trust that your request will be answered.

Carmen Alicea

September 2018

Introduction

Just because I'm hurt by your actions doesn't give me the right to be spiteful. It's not part of my character, so I won't start now. You blindsided me with your actions. I think it would have hurt me less if you had handled your intentions in a more mature manner. I expected that from you based on your character.

You always pride yourself on being a good man. You told me you would never hurt me, but I guess the anger you quietly hid from me couldn't resist making you want to retaliate for something I have no idea I did wrong.

No matter how many times I go over the last few days together, I can't see what I did wrong. Other than the fact that to you don't like how I drive. That I let my son sleep with me when he's not feeling well (which you understood that he sleeps with me all the time) and no matter how I tried to explain it, you believed what you wanted.

You show me you really love me at moments than you would shut down on me. It was as if you were torn. I guess when you thought I broke up with you the week before, you put yourself back in the market. Was it easy to forget a woman you professed to love?

I hope it gets easier for me too. Crazy just like you wind whirl your way into my heart, you exit it too. Total shock to my senses. I guess that explains why I start to cry when I least expect it. I put too much faith in you. You introduced me to people wanting to make sure I knew you were a good man. Yet, your parting actions were not that of the man I thought I knew.

Through your imperfections I loved you and never questioned your loyalty. A lesson for me to learn and question everything going forward. I am thankful for the opportunity to learn to live and find joy again even if for a short time. Thank you for that.

Thank you for expanding my knowledge and making me laugh again. Thank you for showing me to love again. Thank you for teaching me to let go even when I didn't want to. You made your choice. I wish you all the happiness and joy you can get in this world. I pray success and much love to you and your children. I only want the best for you. I will start a new chapter in my life focusing on me. I'm not the type of woman to cause scenes when things don't go their way. I'm not going to be posting pictures with guys and going to clubs just to show you I can have a life without you. I don't play those games.

I told you from the start, I am a good woman. I live life one day at a time. I give my love with no regrets. I love true and deep. I will never hate anyone no matter how much they hurt me or make me mad. I'm analytical, not petty as you called me. I'm a good mother, friend, sister and was a good girlfriend to you. You left me feeling like I wasn't enough. The truth is I was too much for you and you couldn't handle it. Even though I tried to help you.

People are right. Long distance relationships don't work. Too much distance and not enough time to really get to know each other. Many distractions especially if you can't express yourself.  No other woman will ever be like me. I'm not perfect but I am real woman. There are no surprises with my intentions or feelings. I can never stay mad long and even when you hurt me my feelings don't change. Once I've loved you, I will always love you.

Only two men have had the honor of having my love. The first one I realized never loved me, he just loved what I could do to him. He broke my heart. I though he was my first love but in fact it was more of a toxic affair. We couldn't get enough of each other, but he was never there.

The second man to steel my heart was you. For a moment there you were all I needed and wanted. You help heal my heart. You brought light into my existence. You made me hope again. You gave me dreams. You helped bring the sparkle I had in life back to its radiant glory. You had me building and weaving our lives into a new story that gave us a goal. A destination. A journey. Our future. Why did you share these dreams If I wasn't the one you intended to end your life with? Your future wife like you kept telling me.

You crushed me. I'm honest about my feelings and emotions. I don't hide what I feel. I've always been upfront about that. I'm not writing this to