Twenty-One Traumas

By L. D. Ellis

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Twenty-One Traumas
Research has shown that childhood induced trauma will inevitably effect an individual throughout their entire life. Our world has become a complex place, with complex people and the implications of these complexities is constant trauma. In this book, the narrator documents her traumatic life experiences in chronological order from childhood to middle adulthood. She shares her thoughts, feelings, and actions as she experiences unspeakable traumas. Through her confessions of trauma, the reader will see how certain themes consistently present in her life. In this book, the girl narrates the details of twenty-one traumas she experienced.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Apr 1, 2020
• ISBN: 9781098308773

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ISBN 978-1-09830-876-6 eBook 978-1-09830-877-3

Thank you to my children (Moomoo and Pookie), who has and continue to serve as the wind beneath my wings. In Loving Memory of my parents. Thank you to my Almighty God for all He has done for me.

Special Note: This book was completed during the COVID-19 outbreak. Due to mandatory quarantine, I was inspired to finish this book. Life is too short.

Contents

Preface

Trauma One: How I got here

Trauma 2: Left to Burn; Asthma, PTSD, Abandonment,

Incest, Mistrust

Trauma 3: Human Vacuum; OCD, Low Self-Esteem, Premature Sexual Arousal

Trauma 4: Rocky Creek; Trauma, Paranoia, Physical Abuse, Abandonment, Absent Father

Trauma 5: Blended; Poor Family Dynamics and Dysfunction

Trauma 6: Caught; Family Secrecy, Avoidance, Incest,

Lack of Parental Control, Embarrassment

Trauma 7: Three’s a Crowd; Personal Space,

Jealousy, Favoritism

Trauma 8: Cracked Ribs; Physical Abuse,

Domestic Violence, Dysfunction

Trauma 9: Motherly Duties; Missed Childhood, Obesity, Mental Abuse, Low Self-Esteem, Depression, Military Family Issues

Trauma 10: Tingling Sensation; Promiscuity,

Hypersexuality, Lack of Self-Respect

Trauma 11: Not My Home; Displacement,

Homelessness, Chaotic Environment

Trauma 12: Lost Reality; Violence, Irritation, Anger, Crime, Impulsivity, Mania

Trauma 13: Gone Crazy; Disorderly Conduct, Truancy, School Suspension, Prison Pipeline, Attracting Pedophiles, Teen Pregnancy, Unsafe Sex Practices

Trauma 14: Never Scared; Identity Issues, Confrontational, Homicidal

Trauma 15: Too Good to be True; Gangbanging, Acceptance, Unsafe Sex, STD’s

Trauma 16: Not the Father; Teen Pregnancy, Paternity Issues, Alcoholism

Trauma 17: Twenty-One; Homicide/Suicide, Domestic Violence, Loss and Grief

Trauma 18: Not the Father; Paternity, Separation, Single-Parenthood, Depression

Trauma 19: Stabbed; Attempted Homicide, Underage Drinking, Alcoholism, PTSD

Trauma 20: Too Good to Be True?; Stalker, Control,

Dating Multiple Partners, Interracial Relationship,

Lies and Deceit, Narcissism

Trauma 20: Boomerang; Eviction, Homelessness, Control, Toxic Relationships, Narcissism

Trauma 21: Crashed; Depression, PTSD,

Near Death Experience, Loss

Preface

It’s truly a phenomenal concept regarding how childhood traumas continue to reveal its ugly head through adolescence and well into adulthood. Certain themes continuously show up in relationships, work, and play throughout the traumatized victim’s life. It is almost seeming as though once you are exposed to one tragic event, you are somehow prone to it until death. That’s if you are even fortunate enough to survive these events without succumbing to drugs, alcohol, crime, or suicide. In this book, traumas are told from the individual’s standpoint. The subtitles present as common labels referred in the DSM 5 and other literature used to describe symptoms or outcomes related to traumas. Those labels serve as a mean of communicating a host of symptomatic behaviors displayed as a response to stressful situations. Throughout the girl’s life, she encounters numerous challenges in which she has endured and ultimately overcame. The young girl grew up believing her family was cursed and that she was no exception. The traumas are revealed in chronological order from birth to middle adulthood. The next book will similarly be in chronological order; however, it will tell the other side of her journey, highlighting corresponding positive events that eventually helped keep the girl alive. I will not prematurely expose you to those experience as that is a ways from now. It is helpful to know this author used evidence-based research to rationalize the labels identified for each scenario and these real-life scenarios can be used as clinical study vignettes. We all have stories to tell. As you indulge yourself into this girl’s life experiences, I’d like you to ponder these questions: how much do you think one person can endure before calling the quits? What makes one person more resilient than another?

Trauma One:

How I got here

I came from a line of strong black women who faced every challenge humanly known, including sexual, alcohol and drug abuse, domestic violence, and most commonly, mental illness. And I was certainly no exception. I really do believe my family was and remains cursed to this day. My maternal grandmother was fourteen when she gave birth to my mother and my momma was seventeen when she gave birth to me. My mother was such a beautiful lady, her skin tone was a bright yellow like the color of corn on the cob. Her hair was long, thick, dark, and curly, eyes as dark as the black hole, and cheek bones high like a mountain. I was told by my father that he had the privilege of naming me. Lydia Nicole Langley, Liddie for short, was what he said he’d called me when I was a small infant. It’s a darn shame I don’t have much of a recollection of him being in my life during my younger years. Except for some random memories of us going skating and playing tennis. There is this one vague memory of him bouncing me up