Apple of My I: the Four Practices of Self-Love: Tools for Authentic Living in a Chaotic World
By Yudit Maros
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“An exquisitely simple and elegant method that distills the profound complexities of the human soul.”
Christine Farber, Ph.D.
“A deeply sincere, generous and valuable contribution to our self-help literature.”
Ilona Sakalauskas, LCSW, RN
In Apple of My I: The Four Practices of Self-Love, sought-after psychotherapist Yudit Maros reveals the true—and practical—meaning of the age-old wisdom: “The answers are within you.” The self-help tool called Authenticity Method may well be the equivalent of years’ worth of psychotherapy. It works by translating the body’s messages into healthy actions. Through detailed instructions, a rich array of self-help exercises, case examples, and a thorough understanding of what makes us humans tick, you will learn how to:
- love and accept your true self
- find out how you feel and what you need to be well
- relax yourself
- assert yourself to those around you
- help those you love to feel better and be more open and healthy
- improve your emotional and physical heath
- heal your relationships
- understand the recurring patterns in your life.
Self-help has never been more accessible, and even entertaining - while this book is a leading-edge, comprehensive guide to emotional health. With a wealth of over two decades of experience as a psychotherapist, and the disciplined mind of a scientist, Yudit Maros distills the best practices in psychotherapy into a state-of-the-art self-help tool. Mental-health professionals and the layperson alike will benefit from learning how the artesian well of the body provides an incessant flow of information about our true feelings and needs, and guidance for what to do next to feel better.
Yudit Maros
Yudit Maros, a holistic psychotherapist in private practice in Ridgefield, Connecticut, is a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, Certified Hypnotherapist. She is founding president of the Association of Authenticity Therapy in Hungary and Europe and is an international trainer of psychotherapists. When not in session, writing, traveling, or teaching, she enjoys meditation, yoga, hiking, sculpting, and, above all, spending time with her grandbaby. Ms. Maros’ website is www.YuditMaros.com.
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Apple of My I - Yudit Maros
Apple of My I
The Four Practices of Self-Love
Tools for authentic living in a chaotic world
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Learn to love yourself for a happy, joyful and sober life!
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Contents
Acknowledgements
Introduction
My Story
The Authenticity Method
PART ONE: What Is Self-Love?
Love Is Spelled A-B-C-D
What’s In Your Head?
Am I Worth It?
You: Your Greatest Ally
Your Body, Your Truth
Stress As Information
The Language Of The Body
Can I Always Trust My Body?
PART TWO: Disconnection
The Disconnect Dis-Ease
Why Do We Disconnect?
The Shabby Childhood
Abuse And Neglect: The Evil Twins
Socialization
Paralyzing Messages
Feeling Selfish?
Pain And Discomfort
Necessary Pain – Tolerate It!
Unnecessary Pain (Or Suffering) – Do Not Tolerate It!
Your Inner Vigilante
Your Baseline Of Discomfort
Depression – Disconnect Central
PART THREE: Connection
Connection Is Health
Feelings: Hug Them? Kick Them?
Is Feeling Bad Negativity?
Needs: The Free Radicals
Do You Want What You Need? - Needs Vs Wants
Addictions
Reactivity: Abuse Or Neglect
Reactivity Quiz
Responsiveness: An Authentic Connection
Spiral Up, Or Spiral Down
Reactivity Vs Responsiveness
Your Inner Child
PART FOUR: Connecting Through Self-Parenting
Safety In Intimacy
Alignment
Internal Focus: Looking At Your Blind Spot
Relationships As Mirrors
Your Self-Parenting Style
Parenting Styles
Self-Parenting Questionnaire
PART FIVE: Your Steps To Self-Parenting With Love
How To Use The A-B-C-D Exercises
Preparing The Foundation: Meet Your Inner Child
FIRST STEP: A: Attention, Acceptance
Exercise 1. Breathing
Exercise 2. : Switching Off The Mind
Exercise 4. Grounding
Exercise 5. Body Scanning
Authenticity Process Sheet
Acceptance
Exercise 6: Accepting Self-Talk
SECOND STEP: B: Breathe, Be Present
Calming The Body
Exercise 1: Slow Breathing
Exercise 2: Progressive Muscle Relaxation
Quieting The Mind
Exercise 1: Positive Self-Talk
Exercise 2: Positive Imagery
Exercise 3: Rampages Of Appreciation
Exercise 4: Affirmations
Negative Thinking: The Stress Generator
The Organ Of Negativity – The Unchecked Mind
Exercise 3. Building In A Mind Monitor
THIRD STEP: C: Communication
Communication With Your Self
Feelings’ Chart
Exercise 1. Eliciting Feelings
Exercise 2. Eliciting Needs
Constant Communication: Tethering Your Inner Child
Attachment
Communication With Others: Assertiveness
No!
: Your Best Friend
The Three Styles Of Communication
The Aggressive Style Of Communication: Rambo (Reactive, Aggressive, Mean, Blaming Others)
The Passive Style Of Communication: Bambi (Busy, Absent, Muffled, Barely Involved)
The Assertive Style Of Communication: Care (Clear, Attentive, Responsive, Empathic)
When Should I Be Assertive?
…And How?
The Basic Rules Of Healthy Communication
Taking Things Personally: Boundaries
FOURTH STEP: D: Your Do’s And Don’ts
Undoing Obstacles
Exercise 1: Homework
Exercise 2: Vision Board
Summary Of The Abcd Exercises
CONCLUSION: Take It With You
Shrinkster: A Therapist In Your Pocket
Joy: Living From The Overflow
Appendix
Recommended Readings
Bibliography
This book will affect the lives of millions in a profound, private and lasting way. Yudit Maros shares a great gift: a life changer upon first read, her book becomes a daily guide with repeated openings of its pages. These steps toward wholeness are helpful for yogis to bring their practice off the mat, voyagers and the laypeople alike. Apple of My I will help you to find your way back to yourself, guaranteed!
Tiffany Chion, Owner, Yoga Universe
Yudit Maros has created an amazing healing resource. This book is FANTASTIC! I am getting a copy for everyone I love.
Beverly Stantial, Life Coach
After reading this book, for the first time in my life I can be sad and not feel like I am suffering. That’s a distinction I never understood before. Everything isn’t perfect, but with the help of this method I feel more and more grounded every day. I’m making very different choices than I have in the past, choices that reflect better self-respect and self-care. I feel more in control and am confident that I have a happy future ahead.
Julie Revaz, LCSW
Yudit Maros has written a personal, heartfelt and reader-friendly guide to healing. She guides us gently along a path she has walked herself and now invites us to join her in our search for ourselves.
Gabor Maté M.D.
Author of When The Body Says No: Exploring The Stress-Disease Connection
To my parents Verus and Gyuri, who loved me well.
Acknowledgements
It took the vision, wisdom and skill of a lot of people in two different countries for this book to come to fruition. Here, I want to thank them all for their contribution and good will, hoping to include everyone.
Christine (Farber), you gave me the initial validation and encouragement when you took an interest in this work in its germinal stages: you were instrumental in opening the door to the wider professional audiences. Thank you Cathy (DePorte) for your friendship and consistent faith in me and my inquiries. Where would I be without you and your inspiration? Roxy (Furman), your linguistic skills saved the day when I tried to tackle this complex material in my fourth language.
Your undying generosity of spirit, Nancy (Gordon-Green), helped me through many a hurdle in the decade it took to accomplish this work. Many thanks to you, Tom (Levine) for your insights about how to frame my ideas, and to you, Ilona (Sakalauskas) for suggesting helpful ways to bring the message home.
Aniko (Kocsis), my friend and translator, I so appreciate your experience infused with open heartedness; and I thank you, Feri (Vicsek) for your expert advice along the way. Warren (Grossman), your seemingly stern initial feedback opened my eyes to the virtues of simple delivery – thank you!
My gratitude goes out to all my clinician friends who took my workshops and game me invaluable feedback as well as validation. You were – and are – the mirror and the open forum where this new approach has been allowed to flourish and spread. A heartfelt thanks also to the Hungarian clinicians who created the Association for Authenticity Therapy, and who are at the forefront of this new psychology.
I am eternally grateful to my clients over the decades; none of this work would have been possible without the gift of their on-going trust and candidness.
I do not know where I would be without my family: Peter, my husband, and Julia, Peter, and Beanie. You refill my love-tank each day for the energy I need to work, and to be joyful.
Introduction
37488.pngIf I am not for myself, who will be for me?
And if I am only for myself, what am I?
If not now, when?
Hillel
37486.pngBe true to yourself
– too bad the old adage does not come with a user’s manual. Yet, modern psychology corroborates the truth of popular wisdom: we are happiest and healthiest when we follow our inner guidance. It is not easy however to do something when you don’t know how. I wrote this book to offer up just that: a user-friendly manual to living an authentic life, one true to who you really are. Experience shows that when you live this way inner peace and happy relationships follow closely.
Authenticity has a prerequisite, however: accepting and loving one’s Self. Indeed, why would you follow your inner guidance if it came from someone you don’t trust, or care about?
If there is one thing I learned in over two decades of practicing psychotherapy it is this: the way we feel about and treat ourselves is the blueprint beneath all of what we experience – and create – in our lives. While assisting people go from pain to well-being, from suffering to peace, I came to realize that nothing impacts our lives more than the level to which we accept and love our own Selves. Every segment, every layer of our existence is a direct extension of that underlying relationship, a mirror image of it. I now firmly believe that the only way to be well and good to others is to love one’s Self.
What is love? Common perception would equate it with kindness, compassion and care. Love is most promptly observable in the way parents relate to their children in a healthy family. What we see is a rich complexity of stances, actions and behaviors that run the gamut from positive attention, acceptance, compassion, soothing, to listening, expressing affection, setting limits, being available to help, guidance, advocacy, and in general doing what it takes for the child to be well. Clearly, love is a lot more than a good, warm feeling.
I see my job as a therapist as helping my clients to learn to love and help themselves, and to give themselves all that a good parent would offer. I do this by guiding them back to their own selves, to their inner guidance: the body’s wisdom. Here, on these pages I will show you how you too can learn to make peace within, between what you think, and how you feel. As you learn to synchronize your mind with your body you will be ready to commit to parent yourself with love and acceptance, which truly is the ultimate goal of a life well lived.
A life built on inner guidance, i.e. an authentic life requires self-love. Consider for a moment how you would treat someone you truly love: that is the way you must learn to treat yourself in words, actions and attitudes. When you look at it this way, you can see that self-love has nothing to do with narcissism, grandiosity, or selfishness, just like you would not judge a child for needing love. As a mature and healthy person you must be both the giver and the receiver of such love, from you to you.
This inner connection is what enables us to be happy and healthy. We could not recognize love, acceptance, and care from others, even if it was staring us in the face, if we did not first create this within. Every aspect of our lives – relationships, work, and circumstances - is an extension of how we relate to our Selves, a mirror image of the way we treat ourselves.
I will introduce you to the Authenticity Process: a guide to create or deepen a positive, loving connection with your inner Self, so that you may manifest and generate health and wellbeing for you and for others. This is the practice of self-love. As we shall see, it is steeped in an understanding that the body speaks the truth, and nothing but the truth. The process consists of four steps that enable us to listen to the body and translate its messages without any alterations.
Focusing primarily on your body means calling on the carrier of the only person you can truly know and help: You. During this process you may get a lot of insight as to the how’s and why’s of what you see manifesting in your life. Chances are, old patterns will become clear, and connected with what is happening to you today.
Is this book for you? I believe it is for everyone. Who could not use more self-love, more harmony within? Still, you will especially benefit from reading and using the four-step Authenticity Process if you often feel frustrated, tired, powerless, sad, lonely, empty or anxious, perhaps because of repeating old, destructive patterns in your life. It will also help if you suffer from low self-esteem, low self-confidence, lack of joy or energy, emotional numbness, or if you are often critical or judgmental of yourself. This approach will also be helpful if you have a tendency to doubt your feelings or struggle to make decisions. Feeling stressed, overwhelmed, angry, desperate, or burned out? Suffering from physical aches and pains? In short, if you feel at odds or out-of-synch with yourself in any way read on!
Another way to see how well this book is suited for you is determining the degree to which you generally experience inner peace and happiness: if it is, say, a 6 or less on a scale from 0 (none) to 10 (all), read on. Chance are, here you will find ways to tweak it up to 8 or more. The point is: always reach for better! Even if you would never go to a doctor or a psychotherapist, you do not have to lead a lackluster existence.
There is help!
Life can be a lot better, as long as you know what you can do to help yourself.
In the first half of this book you will find the answers to why you should love and accept yourself, and we shall debunk some sturdy, old myths and beliefs that may stand in the way of your self-care.
Part One is an introduction to the basic elements of an authentic, i.e. healthy life.
Part Two will address and clarify any misconceptions, correct any beliefs that might be in your way – and hopefully, talk you out of them! As a result, you will be ready to fully commit to accepting your own feelings as your best guidance, your true north
, and thus, to make the four steps a way of life.
In Part Three, we will explore the main principles of positive self-parenting and you will be able to identify your current self-parenting style.
Finally, in Part Four, you will find a detailed explanation of the four fundamental practices of self-love, along with the skills necessary to perform them. These four practices are the ABCD’s of health: Attention, Breath, Communication, and Delivery, which, performed consistently constitute what is both necessary and sufficient to live in alignment with one’s inner truths. As these practices become your automatic pilot you will be parenting yourself with love, a prerequisite for mental and physical health that leads to safe and close relationships.
Toward the end of the book, you will meet Shrinkster
, a quick technique that can serve as your personal emotional health assistant. Like a shrink in your pocket
Shrinkster is a shortened version of the four practices that will always be there to help you feel better in a pinch. But please, do not jump to Shrinkster hoping to find a quick fix
. It is a distilled version of a complex self-parenting method, and you must give yourself time to hone the skills involved in it. In order to ensure that this quick version of self-help will truly deliver, it must be built on a good month’s period of daily practice of the exercises involved in the full four-step process.
I welcome you on this journey. This may be your most amazing ride; it carries the potential to transform your life, bringing you joy and peace. With the help of these practices you will feel better and better – as you can see, I am giving it to you in writing. Your chalice will be filled up, day in and day out with positive energy, and radiance. Then, you will be able to pour it onto the people in your life in a way that is sustainable. In truth, we can only transcend what we have inhabited once, and thus, the road to selflessness leads through embracing the Self.
My Story
Love yourself? Trust your body? Deplorably, and despite my profession, this was outside of even my peripheral vision. Always busy and distracted, I, like many others, had been living in a profound disconnect from, and mistrust of myself, my own feelings – and did not even know it! There was always so much to do: I was immersed in creating a new life in a new country, while also raising a family. This must have gone on for about a decade – and then, while on vacation in Maine, when the freight train of my life came to a temporary halt - my heart literally began to shoot pain signals, and in a frighteningly quick succession. Needless to say, that got my attention! My mother died of a heart attack at 62, and I was not going to go down that path. That is when I started to listen to my body.
I knew this was big. I asked my husband to leave me there, on the seashore; I felt an irresistible urge to be alone and tune inwards. As I paid attention to the pain, I was flooded with reprimands from my inner self: You never listen to me! I am tired! I feel lonely! I need more friends! I need to have more fun! Get me a hobby! Where is my community?
It was shocking, and humbling how my body knew, while I did not have a clue about the many ways I had been deprived. This experience set the stage for some well overdue changes.
Being yelled at by myself happened on the tail end of a long, painful burnout, where I felt exhausted and despondent most of the time. I had a thriving private practice, and the word on the street was that I was successful at helping my clients. I was oblivious to the sad fact that by then for a while work was all I could muster energy for. I got used to living like an empty satchel, a giver who never received. This run-in with myself in Maine was what brought it all home to me. It taught me the long-overdue lesson that I must begin to pay attention to my body and give myself what I need. I had to start loving myself better (and I thought I did!). When my heart was shooting pain signals, exasperating as it felt I came to realize that it actually saved my life. How? By getting my attention.
I have to add that sometime before this, another thing hit me over the head. One day, over lunch, a colleague asked me about my angle
in therapy - and I was dumbfounded. For the life of me, I could not articulate it! I don’t know…but it works!
– I stuttered. Later that day I began to feel a slow simmer of shame: how come I didn’t know exactly what happened in my therapy sessions that was helpful? That did not sit right with me; I am not an amateur, this is inadmissible! Two titans of emotions clashed in me: the pride I took in being a