I ROCK A CONDOM ON MY HEART Because I Learned...

By Shatieka Ross

Poetry based on the true loves and true failures with love by Shatieka Ross.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Mar 15, 2017
• ISBN: 9780996223577

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BAH

THEY CAME TOO SOON

They came to me

Each one with a slightly different approach

But, they came to me

In wanting, in needing

In yearning and desiring for…me

So convinced that I was what they looked for

So convinced that I had the power

To be the reason for their monogamy

So convinced they all knew me

Before getting to…know me

I quickly threw the CONDOM ON MY HEART

Because, I didn't understand how

Someone could be so sure about a person

They don't know

Do I have I want to love someone

Written in my facial expressions?

Is my strut the kind that invites someone

Who craves for loving like me?

Does my serious yet neutral face

Speak the thoughts I had

When I was heartbroken for the last time?

Or, for the 1st time even?

Either way, each hurt feels fresh to me

Did they come to me to prove to themselves

That they can manipulate?

Did they come to me to prove to me

That the door to my heart can be re-opened?

With a certain persistence of…

Sweet promises to be different than the others

Better than the last ones

Could it be that they all had good intentions?

And, that bad circumstances got in the way…

Of our love?

2 broke people argue a lot

But, 2 people who are financially broke

And, spiritually broken

Equals the awaiting dead end road

But, 2 financially broke people and…

1 spiritually broken person

Equals STRENGTH

For, the weaker of the 2

Will have to want to change for the better

In an effort to be spiritually sound

Wanting love to work for the person themselves

And, for the relationship

Either way, broken or put together…

They came to me

Wanting to fix me after finding out

That some pieces of me were out of place

At times, I wish that…

No one EVER did come to me

Because, they came to me too soon

They came to me sooner

Than I came to myself.

I SHOULD'VE NEVER…

Chest pains and heartaches is the feeling

That I…

Tend to go through when thinking of you

And, had I…

Been patient through your whole bid

I would've never cheated on you

Now, you're probably thinking

Like, I should've never let this broad

Get a taste of my love

But, you…

Opened up to me, I wanted no one but you

Knew you only 9 days before you went away

A part of me was like…

I should'nt have did the bid anyway

Putting myself in a position

That I never went through

Got lonely and did some shit

That I never meant to

You didn't have to find out

I was honest with you

Now, all I have is old letters

But, not you

Collect calls, old visits and your letters

Are all I have to remember.

Dumped Thoughts

In need of dumping the weight of my thoughts

Flashbacks of us and the way that we fought

You threw out love as bait

And, I easily got caught

Everything I looked for

Without asking you, you brought

I'm in love with a man

Who understood me before having me explain

You have no problem in showing me

You love having me remain

And, like you, I feel the same.

EVERYTIME…

Every time I dig a dude

And, I tell him how I feel

There's nothing I exclude

Everything I say is real

Knowing he may want to see me nude

After the meal

I tell him that I know he wants it

He ain't gotta conceal

And, all I want is me a man

Who'll tell it like it is

Me and him will understand

How we do is what it is

I like shit simple

I don't really like it complicated

But, I'm an Aries, so at times…

I like to dominate it

If I'm with you, to hold you down

I'm feeling obligated

If you not putting your foot down

I'll wear the pants

Bump hitting up the strip joint

I'm gonna dance

Bump ordering out I got the kitchen locked

You mess with my heart

You'll get your shit rocked

It's not a threat, it's a promise

I'll bet you'll be astonished

All I'm trying to say is

Dudes think I'm stupid

But, I really know the biz

And, I met cupid.

OVERLOOKING YOUR POEM…

Overlooking your poem you wrote to me

Called 'Inside Your Mind'

Sudden quivers and shivers

Rushed right through me

And, the word I can't find

To describe how you described

The way you feel

Made me feel like it's more than

The sex appeal

It's like the mental conversations

We have verbally speaking

Captures me into your soul

And, then…my whole body weakens

Visions of you and I

Older and grayer

You come tired, sit down to eat

But, 1st we say our prayers

That the kingdom e are starting to build

Makes me no longer want or need

To play the field

Feeling your arms and it's embrace

When we make-love

The expressions on your face

Opens me up into a world

That I never yet imagined dreaming

Baby, to make a long story short…

I'm fiending.

YOU GOT ME

I believe that this is the 1st time

That I have no clue of how

To make love to the line

Because, I've found someone

A person

Who can substitute for paper

Yes, I've found my soul mate

His words and sense of humor

Is molded upon my brain

Molded not upon

But, to the RIGHT of SHATIEKA

Of course, shall be his last name

I can strip to the core

Showing him my broken spirit

And, any weight or burden too heavy for me

He'll rush to me to bear it

He broadens my horizons

His love thinks outside the box

Without effort

He doesn't know

That he knocks off my socks!!!

I KNOW YOU KNOW ME

When we were 1st together

I never wanted to say bye

Broke up and when reunited

I didn't know how to say hi

Saw you again…

There was love in the flesh

I saw from within

That for me, you were the best

You have your situation

And, I have my issues

But, one of my constant problems

Is that I always miss you

How to love one that loves me back

I need for you to show me

Able to