The Battled Christian, Dead At The Cross: The Journey Of The Suicidal Woman Of God
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The battled Christian, dead at the cross: the journey of the suicidal Woman of God is a compelling continuation of author Marisa McClinton’s first best seller The Suicidal Christian: the battle is the mind. This literary journey includes her discovery, her battle, and her victory with depressive disorder and suicidal tendency while walking in the eyes of the Lord Jesus Christ and the works of the church. She writes from a firsthand account about the battle with depression and suicide while grooming and growing closer with the Lord. She is a saved and sanctified woman of God who has served on many ministries and has developed a strong sense of awareness to the purpose and works concerning the Lord. This book dives deeper into the topic of depression in the church and the correlation between the mental disorder and demon possession
Marisa McClinton
As a native of Highland, New York, Marisa McClinton is well on her way to becoming one of the country’s top authors. This dynamic mother of two has defied all odds by pursuing her dream of becoming a published author and a published columnist. Ms. McClinton has had her pen to paper since the age of twelve, and with her strong faith in Christ, she has authored two books illustrating her journey through a lifetime of depression and salvation. This book is a continuation of her first literary work, The Suicidal Christian: the battle is the mind, and goes into greater detail of the struggle she endured and the will of the spirit to persevere with Christ to the end. While this series is dedicated to all struggling believers to help raise awareness of the battles that many are presented with today; God has also allowed her to discover a place within herself that brings her great joy and fulfillment in encouraging others through her writings.
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The Battled Christian, Dead At The Cross - Marisa McClinton
THE BATTLED CHRISTIAN, DEAD AT THE CROSS:
THE JOURNEY OF THE SUICIDAL WOMAN OF GOD
By Marisa McClinton
Published by Marisa McClinton at Smashwords
Copyright 2014 Marisa McClinton
Unless otherwise indicated, all Scripture quotations are taken from the Holy Bible, New Living Translation, copyright © 1996, 2004, 2007 by Tyndale House Foundation. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., Carol Stream, Illinois 60188. Used by permission. All rights reserved.
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or any matter, electronic of mechanical, including photocopying, recording or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from author/publisher/ Please direct all inquiries to blessedbella82@gmail.com.
ISBN 13-9780615946115
This book is dedicated to the all-powerful and forever gracious Lord Jesus Christ, for without him I would have accomplished nothing.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Authors Note
Chapter One: Where I end and God begins
Chapter Two: Know your enemy: The demon part II
Chapter Three: The daily battle
Chapter Four: And yet the world says
Chapter Five: When enough is enough
Chapter Six: There's no I
in recovery
Chapter Seven: Encouragement
Chapter Eight: What the Bible says about Depression
Chapter Nine: What the Bible says about Suicide
References
Author's Note
Depression is an occurrence that many struggle through on a daily basis. I struggled with it since I was a teenager and still feel the effects in my adulthood. My purpose for this book is to show those who are also suffering the effects, that what we go through isn't shameful or dishonorable to God. There are many trials in this life and while many of us process some of them as learning experiences; there are others who have become afraid and held back in their daily walk because of them. I have suffered many traumatic and many hurtful experiences and while they have stunted my growth at times, I was able to, ultimately, be saved by the love and grace of the kingdom. I felt a desperate need to be free and to accept all that God had purposed for me. When I encourage others who are going through difficult times, I remind them that when God made them, he wasn't mistaken about the call he put on his/ her walk, hence why the enemy encourages the amount of trials he does. I learned that not all my troubles were from the enemy, but were results of destructive behaviors and mindsets brought about from the bondage of my inability to let go and trust God to heal the hurts and afflictions of those who hurt me. My afflictions grew into hindrances which snowballed into manifestations of greater obstacles. My goal with this book is to encourage those who are struggling to see that there is hope for what they are feeling and going through and that what they may be experiencing does have a source and a name. While the world may not understand all that goes into the diagnosis of depression and the causes of suicide; there is hope that there is a creator that is willing and able to reveal to us our pain and assist us through the valley towards wholeness and healing. With surrender and trust, there is healing, freedom, and joy. I urge you, reader, to trust the process, believe in yourself, and do not lose hope because you have a purpose, you have meaning, and you have the strength to make it through this storm. And if you are reading this to assist somebody else, please do not lose patience with them. Be brave for his or her sake and trust God with your words and your efforts; because if it wasn't for the people who tarried with me night and day, these words would have never been born. Remember, with God, ALL things are possible; he's able.
Chapter one
Where I end and God begins
Proverbs 3:5-6
New Living Translation (NLT)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
Do not depend on your own understanding.
6 Seek his will in all you do,
And he will show you which path to take.
There was me, the small town girl, who grew up in such a small world that even I couldn't figure out why I was feeling the way I was feeling. A child isn't born depressed, a child is born uninhibited of pain and of thought; it's the world that casts down the innocence of a child with its expectations and its empty promises of a life of promise and excellence. My first season of conscience thought of depression came with my teenage years. The doctors called it a chemical imbalance
but to me, it was a dark room of thoughts, emotions, and questions as to why I was alone in a world full of people. I asked myself how could a car drive past me and not see me standing here?
I didn't understand what part of this dark season was meant for my good until I reached the ripe age of 30. Could you imagine being 16 years old and having no clue that I wouldn't understand what is going on with me until I was 30 years old? I look back on that girl and feel so much remorse for her because she would have to suffer and pang for the next 14 years. When I read the Bible, I saw many people suffer and cry out to the Lord for decades, centuries and even millenniums; but the only issue is, I wasn't a girl who was crying out to God, at least I didn't think I was.
An excerpt from my book The Suicidal Christian: The battle is the mind
"As searing pain ran through my body I looked around and seen that there was nobody there to help me. I wanted to scream in pain but my environment wouldn't let me. I felt like I was drowning in my soul and choking on my own spirit. The stench of failure surrounded me as I remembered all of the rotten things I have done since I was an infant. I thought of my father and how the only thing he could have done to tolerate me was leave and never look back. I've seen my mother and remembered every single time I looked into her eyes and seen nothing. The fear of a death so dishonorable to God that I would be held in a special section of hell for all eternity, but a death that seemed to be the only recourse in the face of a storm so painful that only Jesus knew what it felt like. Persecution, dishonesty, shame, embarrassment, all the feelings of a life that never went the path God ordained it to. Questions with no answers and visions with no sound seemed to be my reality. The water that filled my lungs tasted of sulfur and brine. My eyes burned with tears of rocks and my ear rang of all the mistakes I have ever