What The Hell: Unraveling from a Life of Deception

By Lynette Abraham

Shame has become the enemy's weapon of mass destruction. In a society filled with mental health issues, suicide and unforgiveness lives are being destroyed at a rapid rate. This Book gives a raw, bold account of secrets that everyday people find themselves keeping. Sexual abuse, alcoholism, manipulation, unhealthy relationships, and scandals within the church all these things have become the norm of repeated toxic behaviors. This book will shed light on the ways believers are failing the world and the need for repentance. If you have found yourself losing hope in humanity and faith in God this book is for you. This is a story of forgiveness and overcoming some of life's tragedies. The author gives hard truths shedding light on the extreme measures the enemy used to keep her off track. The author will use her story to expose the lies she believed in hopes of saving another from making the same mistakes. Some of the situations in this book took courage to share and may be hard to believe. There is a dark spiritual world that is manifesting right before our eyes. Generational curses are in operation and individuals are held captive by past mistakes. This book is a testimony that there is freedom life is not over no matter how long it has been bad for you. God is looking for Bold individuals to walk in their truth no matter how many lies you fell for.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Feb 26, 2024
• ISBN: 9798885407496

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What The Hell

Unraveling from a Life of Deception

Lynette Abraham

ISBN 979-8-88540-748-9 (paperback)

ISBN 979-8-88540-749-6 (digital)

Copyright © 2023 by Lynette Abraham

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Table of Contents

If you are reading this your curiosity probably has you wondering what is this book all about. If I had to describe my life in three words, it would definitely be What The Hell?

Foreword

Preface

Prayer

Closing Prayer

About the Author

If you are reading this your curiosity probably has you wondering what is this book all about. If I had to describe my life in three words, it would definitely be What The Hell?

Foreword

Giving, touching others' lives, expanding the circle of our concern to include others, always being authentic, and always being open to receive as well as give—this is how I would describe the author of this book. This is a good description of one of the most amazing people that I may have encountered. While many may read this book that live and work in different countries and in different fields, the things in this book happen all over the world every day. This book captures the chilling effect of something that is more than a fable, a parable, or a pipe dream. It's a real-life journey that many people go through in their daily lives. While many people won't want to believe this book and the contents in it, these things happen to good church-going people all over the world. This book will focus on the deception that alludes the discernment of the saints and what goes on every day when we are ignorant of Satan's devices. The author does not present to you just nice goals, but she will present to you a new way of life. A life that can lead to a full, rich, and fulfilling experience in Jesus Christ. I ask you not to focus on these incidents as just stories or listen to that internal voice that will tell you this can't be happening. I ask you to read this book with an open mind, an open heart, and an open spirit so that you will see that light always triumphs over darkness and good will always triumph over evil. I know that as you read this story, you will be filled with hope that there shall be a better end for all those that are in bondage. As you move toward the end, realize that she has just led you to the feet of Jesus, a place where hope that has been differed will be fulfilled. Lynette is a woman that has overcome adversity, loss, and severe pain, but she has never ever stopped seeking truth, the truth that brought her to the feet of Jesus. I hope the truth in this book brings you there also.

Dr. Jedidiah E. Jahaziel

Preface

The sole purpose of this book is to glorify my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I have omitted the real names and locations of the individuals mentioned to protect their identity. This book tells my story and does not intend to bring condemnation or judgment. Since the release of this book, there have been several situations of reconciliation among individuals mentioned. I pray that as you read this, it will shed light on the dangers of deception and lack of reverence and fear of the Lord.

I spent the first years of my life bound in a cloud of deception. I did not understand the situations that I allowed myself to be placed in. I was bound with fear, anger resentment, and self-hatred masked with religion. I was taken advantage of both spiritually and physically for most of my life and sadly by the hands of people of God. I didn't know God, so often I rejected his love and the sacrifice of salvation. I believed I was saved, but spiritually I was already dead. The years of pain being overshadowed by shame had me numb to reality. So often we see everyday people who have learned how to function in dysfunctional situations. I was always referred to as being evil and angry, but sadly no one tried to understand why. There is usually some form of trauma that causes an individual to lash out and act out of character.

To overcome the tricks of the devil takes more than being an active church member; it takes relationships and learning the ways and the things of God. I had to change my way of thinking so my heart would change. I had to relinquish control of what I thought was best for me. You can live in this world and be right and yet absolutely wrong. The fear of being judged and the opinions of others would keep me bound for years. I had to surrender my right to keep my offenders hostage with my unforgiveness. I had to forgive myself for not knowing, and in some cases knowing but still doing what I wanted to do. The enemy had me believing I had run so far from God that redemption wasn't possible. I want the world to know how God saved me and how he delivered me. The enemy went to great lengths to attempt to take my life both physically and spiritually. I am forever grateful for the patience of God that he saw my end before it even began. I want the world to know my redeemer, that every possible thing we can do or have done to us there is forgiveness for that. Jesus gave his life for all whether they receive him or not. Jesus is the only answer for whatever has you bound.

Prayer

Father God in the name of Jesus, I cover every reader of this memoir with the blood of Jesus. I pray this book will not be diminished as just a story but a testament to your goodness. May the reader continue with an open mind and may scabs of deception be removed from blinded eyes. May all intellect be removed so that they will see beyond what they may believe. May this bring Glory to you and you alone. May this book bring revelation and knowledge of the need for forgiveness, deliverance (salvation), and healing amongst the Body of Christ.

Amen!

As you continue in this book, I pray that my experiences will bring revelation and knowledge to the depths the enemy will go through to keep the people of God in a state of deception. This isn't some new tactic satan has devised to attempt to destroy God's creative plan for mankind, the same delivery repackaged. The devil is the master of manipulation by perverting our self-perception and the things of God. If he can get you to a place of emotional compromise, there opens a door for him to enter. Once he has access, he will allude to subtle distorted thoughts that will lead to actions for which he will later use to condemn you.

Imagine being 12 years old and having what would seem like the most life-changing moment. I witnessed a man being baptized on a stretcher and at that moment I thought if he can do it and he is unable to walk then why am I still sitting here? I boldly walked to the front of the church and confessed that I wanted to be baptized. The sad part about this was the fact no one had explained that it was more than being dipped in water. I needed to be saved, repent, confess my sins accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and live a different lifestyle. Now don't get me wrong some people were saved at a younger age. My situation didn't quite go that way because of my lack of understanding it was an act conducted by emotions. I believe this was the beginning of my woes of deception. Three decades later living under the once saved always saved facade behind a mask of religion the reality finally manifested that I was never really saved at all.

One of the saddest memories I can recall about being what I thought was saved was the amount of mockery and ridicule I endured. Deep down inside no one sets out to spend eternity in hell, yet living a saved life seemed to be looked at as a secret society. I was made to feel like my life was over I had to conform to long dresses, no fun just a boring structured life being monitored by an all-seeing God whose ultimate plan was to get you. The generation we were raised under did not present God in a way that seemed loving, merciful, and full of Grace. God was used as a fear tactic to control and keep your children from making choices that weren't conducive to the image we attempted to portray. This is by no means to judge just to further expose the lie of the enemy and the dangers of lack of knowledge. In those days there was not a mass amount of materials to help one understand the bible, there weren't all the versions, apps, and the many things that we are privileged to have access to today. The era I grew up in was do as I say not as I do and Whatever goes on in this house stays in this house. If only we could understand the dangers of secrecy and the power of exposing it.

Have you ever heard the saying If these walls could talk? What would our future generations look like if we would sit down and be honest about the mistakes we made, instead of presenting a standard of life that leaves them confused and struggling to be something that they have not obtained? What if we used it as an opportunity to expose every trap we slipped into to stop the spread of generational curses and return to a predestined life of Blessings? It's easy to condemn a young girl when she has a baby out of wedlock when we would use forced marriages to cover up the fact that it's nothing more than a repeated cycle. I had children in a covenant marriage and out of wedlock so there is no judgment however keeping things a secret will never allow the next generation to learn from your mistakes. Be open with how it was and how it affects you mentally, spiritually, and physically. Until recently I never understood the true ramifications of falling into the perverted trap of having children in a manner that was outside of God's plan. The enemy causes us to see it as another form of controlling our will and it's okay you can repent; the world will shower you with gifts, and here is someone that will love you unconditionally. What happens when it doesn't end in marriage when the man walks away, now you are raising a child alone feeling rejected, and shame, and passing that down to a child who never asked to be here. The even sadder part of this lie is it's okay girl take him to court get your child support the state will feed you give you insurance and help with your rent. This may be fine and dandy until anger sets in and resentment and you are tired and before you know it you are keeping the baby away from their father removing the opportunity for the child to be loved and validated. I know in some cases some men choose to neglect their responsibility; however, this all goes back