First, Become Ashes
Written by K.M. Szpara
Narrated by Aaron Landon, Avi Roque, Briggon Snow and Graham Halstead
4/5
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About this audiobook
K. M. Szpara follows his explosive debut novel Docile with First, Become Ashes, a fantastic standalone adventure that explores self-discovery after trauma and outgrowing abusive origins over the course of an American road trip.
The Fellowship raised Lark to kill monsters.
His partner betrayed them to the Feds.
But Lark knows his magic is real, and he’ll do anything to complete his quest.
For thirty years, the Fellowship of the Anointed isolated its members, conditioning them to believe that pain is power. That magic is suffering. That the world beyond the fence has fallen prey to monsters. But when their leader is arrested, all her teachings come into question.
Those touched by the Fellowship face a choice: how will they adjust to the world they were taught to fear, and how will they relate to the cult's last crusader, Lark? For Kane, survival means rejecting the magic he and his lover suffered for. For Deryn, the cult's collapse is an opportunity to prove they are worth as much as their Anointed brother. For Calvin, lark is the alluring embodiment of the magic he's been seeking his entire life.
But for Lark, the Fellowship isn’t over. Before he can begin to discover himself and heal a lifetime of traumas, he has a monster to slay.
First, Become Ashes contains explicit sadomasochism and sexual content, as well as abuse and consent violations, including rape.
A Macmillan Audio production from Tor.com
K.M. Szpara
K.M. Szpara is a queer and trans author who lives in Baltimore, MD, with a small dog and long cat. He is the author of speculative novels such as FIRST, BECOME ASHES (2021), DOCILE (2020), and a novel that will follow up on his Hugo and Nebula nominated novelette, "Small Changes Over Long Periods of Time." They're about cults and trauma, consent and debt, and a horny trans vampire, respectively. His short fiction appears in Tor.com, Uncanny, Lightspeed, and more. You can find himme on the Internet at kmszpara.com and on Twitter and Instagram at @kmszpara.
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Reviews for First, Become Ashes
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This was good! I enjoyed the audiobook narrated by four voice actors for each of the pov.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/53.5 If I may. It’s a fascinating concept for sure. Their are 4 perspectives in the book, (from most frequented to least) Lark (the believer), Calvin (the enabler ), Kane (the disenchanted ), & Deryn (the forsaken).
I was pretty wrapped up into the mystery of what was going on and wanting the crew sans Calvin to get away for the circle of abuse. When one did and shook everything up I was pumped to see where things would go.
Even as a fan of magic and ritual, how they “recharge” is intense and defo didn’t feel like it was meant to get any rocks off. It was just sad for me.
Horray for ot3s… I guess. Is a sentence I never thought I’d say as most three way drama can be solved with that, but the literal love angle in the book is only connected at the top with the other sides as far away as possible, so seems like it will be mad awkward, but that’s their problem. I personally also didn’t like the new edition for many reasons, most being they are a donkey’s behind.
Is magic real? Maybe?