Yeah I'm F?#king Angry: Poetry, Art and Musings on being 40, Black and Pregnant

By LK White

In March 2020, I scored a new job, turned forty, and the world shut down. I was out of work for about six weeks. About a month or so after returning to work, I learned that I was twelve weeks pregnant! While yes, the pregnancy was blissful, my job made existing while pregnant pretty damn difficult. In the midst of fighting for respect and a better position in the company, I started writing poems while commuting to and from work on the train. Later on, I started writing little musings to go along with the poems. These writings (and soon art pieces) continued after I resigned from that company to work for another who turned out to not be that much better about me being a new mother to a tiny baby. The little one was born by the completion of these pieces, but the anger that accompanied the treatment I received remained. The result is this collection.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Fulton Books, Inc.
• Release date: Jan 8, 2024
• ISBN: 9798889824664

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Table of Contents

Title

Copyright

The Poems

Part 1: Yeah, I'm Fucking Angry!

Weight Lifting (1)

On Leaving

Shadow Work

Safe

Unmasked (1)

Unmasked (2)

The Uprising

Dearly Beloved

The Magic, the Myth, the Melanated

Always on the Mend

Part 2: Remember to Breathe

(Untitled)

Weight Lifting (2)

Remembering to Breathe

Good Morning

Worship Is Weird

The Middle (Aged)

Part 3: The Musings

The Tower, the Hanged Man, and Michelle Obama: Musings on Motherhood

The Crown Is Sacred: Musings on Being a Black Daughter and the Mother of a Black Daughter

The Magic of Being Rozzi Marie's Mom: A Love Letter to Our Bond

Musings on Dads

I Seem to Have Lost Count of My Blessings

About the Author

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Yeah I'm F?#king Angry

Poetry, Art and Musings on being 40, Black and Pregnant

LK White

Copyright © 2023 LK White

All rights reserved

First Edition

Fulton Books

Meadville, PA

Published by Fulton Books 2023

ISBN 979-8-88982-465-7 (paperback)

ISBN 979-8-88982-466-4 (digital)

Printed in the United States of America

The Poems

Part 1

Yeah, I'm Fucking Angry!

I speak myself into existence.

—Message from tarot reading I did on myself

Weight Lifting (1)

Dedicated to Angela and Mommy

It's complicated

My relationship with you.

Even with you gone

The

Rose colored memories

Sipping

Acrid tinged tea

With the darker ones

Fake grins and

Awkward silences and

Sugarcoated confusion

Sticking it all together.

And then there's the sadness

The forced emptyness in your wake.

Mourning you

Sometimes angers me

And it feels unfair

To you

To me

To him, especially.

There was someone before you

Maybe you two have met

Made peace

You both brought him light.

Actually, me too…

At times.

My love for you

Was always there

I just

Could never tell