Pillow Talk

By Jeanette H Korbel

A collection of poems that you can feel. A wild ride of experience, love, loss, self-discovery, and hope. A chance to share emotion and strength with others who feel the same. I hope this book gets inside your mind and inspires you to be yourself.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jeanette Helen Korbel
• Release date: Mar 4, 2023
• ISBN: 9781087939131

Book preview

1

Human Brain

The Human Brain

Is strange

2

Amnesia

I forget,

Sometimes I forget a lot.

The days fade away.

Time becomes another memory,

That we hold on to.

I just want to hold on to you.

Some things,

I’ll never forget.

3

Paranoia

Some days,

I just don’t want to leave the house.

Some days,

I get sad and I don’t want to be around.

I’m not good at small talks.

Silent walks,

Late night emotional breakdowns.

Some days,

I wish I could be like everybody else.

Some days,

I get lost inside myself.

4

PTSD

I’m sick of shouting, sick of pouting.

I’m sick of putting my hands on you.

I want to hit you when you start talking.

Sick of losing my voice, sick of you in my head.

Sick of trying to make you understand.

We just keep hurting each-other like it’s normal.

They say opposites attract but all we do is clash.

Words so fast, we crash and implode.

I just want to leave, please let me go.

Black eye now I can’t leave the house.

How would your mother feel if she figured this out?

Misscommunication the misinterpretation

Constant endangerment.

Crying until it makes me sick.

Leave the war that I put myself in,

PTSD

5

Anxiety

Proud of what I overcame.

I hid inside my head with shame.

I used to hate myself so much more.

I used to be too scared to say a word.

Constantly looking in the mirror.

I was so built up with fear.

So self-conscious,

I couldn’t think clear.

I thought all the thoughts someone’s probably ever thought about.

For some reason, I couldn’t figure out,

That I should have just spoke out.

Not spoken when spoken to,

Not speaking very much at all.

I was so trapped inside myself that I couldn’t build the courage to do anything.

Without having to overthink so many other things.

I blew up one day eventually.

Then numbness took ahold.

The power that I acquired from not thinking so much of who I was but, who I could be.

I set myself free.

Thousands of days I didn’t speak up.

A million things I never got the chance to say.

A-n-x-i-e-t-y

6

Claustrophobia

Who would have known,

These four walls would be closing in.

I start by taking deep,

deep breaths.

The thoughts build up,

inside my head.

Escape is what I really need,

Thoughts when I can barely see.

Same thoughts that never let me sleep.

I try to fight the contemplation.

Start to feel more impatient.

Pressure all around me.

Things start surrounding.

It all over comes me,

I start moving frantically.

These walls are caving in,

I’m sinking to the bottom,

Suffocation.

7

Depression

Hello there, are you listening?

These words may seem crazy, but I am feeling incomplete.

My mind is lost with words,

To tell you how I feel,

I sit here in silence,

Just trying to heal.

Every sound that I hear makes me cringe with confusion.

And every compliment I listen to takes