Almost Human

By Berrocal

A book of poetry about the LGBT community, faith, and other aspects of life for a cat therian in their early twenties. These poems are also about a breakup, and longing for people, things, and situations that you can't have. This book is also about recovery from a difficult adolescence.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Alexandra Berrocal
• Release date: Jun 7, 2023
• ISBN: 9781088159002

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Almost Human

ALMOST HUMAN

(a collection of mostly free verse poems and essays)

By

Alexandra Berrocal

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Thank you Dave Hardenbrook

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The Ocean

The ocean is the fountain of life, the one true goddess, creating all. The sea is as deadly as it is creative. Rip tides can drag you out to sea. Undertows can drown you. Tsunamis visit disasters on unlucky domiciles every year, all around the world. Yet the ocean is a giant city, populated by all manner of porpoises as well as sea urchins and sea horses. The sea is vulnerable. Climate change warms waters and bleaches once-vibrant coral reefs. And plastics cause all kinds of problems to Her creatures.

Blessings.

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Breakup

"You unfriend me yet

You continue to send me

Clouds. I’m so confused,"

My ex-girlfriend said to me

Unorthodox reaction

When I broke up with Lilith, there was a time when I would send her random emoticons, for absolutely no reason. What I mean is that the emoticons had no rhyme or reason to them. I would send her clouds, leaves, stuff like that. I guess it was my way of keeping in touch? I don’t really remember why I did this. It annoyed her greatly, though, and I do remember that I liked that a lot. I think this was before she started hitting on me for sex again, and before I found out that she had sexually harassed my friend Tea.

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Questioning

I’ve had first woman

And first man love. Am I bi?

I don’t really care.

Quite different from each other

Both special in their own way

I guess what I mean by this is that I have been in love with both sexes. When I was younger, I fell in love with a girl named Rose. I was about 12 at the time. She was about 12 at the time, too. I have never been so devoutly in love since. I mean, i’ve fallen for men with love that was about that same intensity. However, it hasn’t been the same sort of love. What I felt for Rose was very romantic and very sexual. The love I have felt for men, although some might call it romantic, isn’t sexual at all. Some would say something is missing. But I am still a complete person without this element of how I fall for people.

These days, I am mostly straight too. It has been a long, long, time since I have felt anything for a woman beyond simply enjoying her company. Also, I don’t attach to women the way I do with men. I mean, if i’m friends with a man...I think of him when he’s not around. With women, I don’t really think of them when they’re not around. I don’t really miss them when they’re gone. It doesn’t mean I don’t care. And I can still enjoy cuddles and snuggles. The attachment just isn’t there.

So I don’t feel justified calling myself bi, because by and large I do not really love women anymore. Straight feels more honest to me.

Spring isn’t something

I care about, but