The Waiting Room
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Imagine a future plunged in darkness. Those who fight oppression find themselves in a spiritual emergency room. A soul comes fresh off the battlefield in need of repair. Generations have passed through destined to accept their diagnosis.
What happens when you spend a lifetime in repair? When those in power seek to control your very soul? The Waiting Room explores the spiritual quest we all face when we are armed with what is deep inside of us.
Jasmine Willis is an inspiring author who wrote a deeply personal spiritual journey on what it means to follow your path. The Waiting Room is a raw and honest look inside ourselves.
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The Waiting Room - Jasmine Willis
The Waiting Room
Jasmine Willis
Copyright © 2022 by Jasmine Willis
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To my grandmother, Verna Jean Willis, for being a bright light on this journey.
Acknowledgments
This journey would not have been possible without my spiritual leaders, Leah and Nick Lincoln. I would like to thank them both for encouraging me to share my story with the world and help guide me on this path.
I would like to thank the following people who with love and support made this book possible, Verna Jean Willis, Lisa Willis, Myra Razik, and all those who believed in me along the way.
I would like to thank my publication specialist, Karen Franz; editors; and all those who have worked to bring this story to others. You have all loved and cared for these characters as much as me.
1
A vision of a spiritual emergency room keeps visiting me over and over. In it, there are doctors and nurses working around the clock to repair souls. There are the administrators at the desks signing people in and asking them to take a seat in the waiting room. Yes, even the spiritual emergency room has a waiting room.
This vision comes to me mostly at night when everything is shut down from the day and I am left with the worry of tomorrow. I am left wondering what kind of future I will have and if it will be what I always dreamed of. My despair and depression are on high alert until the light starts to peek through the windows, and eventually, my mind shuts down too and I sleep.
Once asleep, I am plagued with the stress and anxiety of what-ifs. What if I don’t get that job? What if I can’t find my place? What if I don’t get married and have a family? What if I don’t become a success story? What if no one cares about anything I have done? What if I wasted my life?
Often, I turn to music in these moments, and it is what helps me get through. It is a really great thing that music was invented. It can speak to you when nothing else will. It has a direct phone line to your heart. More often than not, my heart will only answer to music.
So here we are in our spiritual emergency room. We have a huge need to see the doctor because our soul is in need of surgery. We have been diagnosed with some horrible disease like lack of faith or lack of trust or teetering on the edge of suicidal thoughts.
This is where we come to be in repair. When you have depression, you come here all the time. The administration knows who I am. I am in the system as one of the usual cases who refuse to believe I can be saved. I am in code red on the charts that say I am at higher risk, and I need to be evaluated as soon as the doctor can see me.
Sometimes, I get tired of the endless exams, forms, and questions of my state of mind; but I know they are just doing their job. This is a spiritual quest, and it has to be perfect. It has to follow all of the rules and guidelines. I look around and notice a line behind me. This isn’t anything new because every time I have been here, there is a long line. I know it’s going to be another long night in the spiritual emergency room.
After all my information is tallied and I am deemed fit to sit down and fill out the updated forms, I grab a pen and go to work. I am sent to the ever-crowded waiting room. It is here where I will spend a lot of time. I will be made to focus on what I have done, where I am heading, and what I could do differently.
My comfort is that among the endless thoughts that torture my already troubled mind is the soothing familiar sounds of my heart music. I find this to be the only part of the waiting room that brings me peace. That and my observation of the souls around me. They all have their own horrible diagnosis. They are all here for their own reasons. The doctor will evaluate them too. They are filling out forms and wondering why it needs to be updated every time they come here. Some of them hate the waiting room too.
As I sit here listening to the songs pumping through the sound system, I know that they are speaking to me in a very real way. I know that the message is coming through loud and clear. At times, the waiting room is used to get that message home. It is here we are forced to be alone with our thoughts, to reflect on our past, and to think about the present and wonder about the future. The waiting room offers more spiritual healing than the actual exam itself. I think that is why we are left there waiting for so long.
The others don’t tend to share my feelings on the waiting room. There is a tension stirring as some diagnoses are worse than my own. Some souls are damaged more than mine. Those are the ones that often sit with their heads down. They don’t bother filling out the forms. They don’t hear the Christian music familiar to them pumping through the speaker. It is too hard to feel or hear something familiar. They just focus on the damage, and they refuse to fill out the forms. They will let the doctor lecture them about the forms during the evaluation.
I feel a sense of compassion for these diagnosed souls since I have been them more often than I care to admit. I give them a kindred glance, and sometimes, I try to speak to them. I will go over and sit by them and offer some kind encouraging words. Since I was them, I know that is not what any of them wants. They want to sit in the waiting room with their heads down, and they want to drown out the familiar songs coming from the speakers.
Once my forms are done, I am glancing at the clock, waiting to be seen by the ever-faithful doctors. I take a deep breath and look around. This is prime soul-watching time. This is when we get to see people for who they really are when the masks are off. You can’t hide in the waiting room of the spiritual emergency room. You have to look around at each soul and truly see them for the first time. Some of them are regulars like me, and we have our own language in the waiting room. We know what is coming next.
Some are newbies and have no idea what is happening. Those are the ones who are in serious denial of their spiritual quests and, more importantly, diagnosis. I can tell the newbies right away. They are the ones making it very obvious to blend in. They get up and dance to the music on the speakers and have the forms filled out really fast like they have all the answers memorized. They are the ones who act like they are here for some spa treatment instead of a major spiritual surgery.
I have to admit I prefer the downright depressing ones who keep their heads down and refuse to fill out the forms. At least they are honest. They know they are damaged and here for a reason that is beyond anything they can control. They refuse to go by the rules of the waiting room, and more importantly, they don’t skip around like they are just here on some job retreat.
The time has come for me to leave the waiting room and go to the doctor. The nurse, who always wears bright white and has a positive smile no matter what your diagnosis is, lets you through sturdy wooden doors.
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You know this part from any hospital you ever been in. They make you sit there and answer a bunch of awkward questions as you wait another lifetime for the doctor. The spiritual emergency room is no different. Once you go through all of your symptoms and hand the forms that have been updated to the nurse, the second waiting room begins. The waiting room in the exam room. The waiting of the doctor to grace you with his faith and wisdom for brighter days ahead.
You take time to examine your surroundings and notice all the carefully placed images on the walls. In a real hospital, this consists of gory what-your-body-looks-like-with-cancer photos, hang-in-there kitten posters, and some glamorous antismoking images. In the spiritual exam room, you have Jesus with his lamb, Jesus walking on water, Jesus with the Sermon on the Mount, and Jesus healing the sick. These images tell you—the one who has been a regular damaged soul for eons—that, in fact, Jesus can heal your brokenness too.
Eventually, the doctor comes in, and he is the kind of doctor you would expect in a spiritual emergency room. He is filled with self-righteous purpose. He knows his hands have healed millions of tortured souls through Jesus. He got his degree in the spiritual medicine of Harvard spiritual medicines. He can’t wait to go through your forms and tell you all the ways you have disappointed the big guy. Don’t feel bad if you want to hit him in his smug face. We all do.
The doctor has bad news for me. I already knew that before I came in. I know I need spiritual surgery. He gives me the rundown on what the surgery will do for my longevity and what I need to do to prepare myself. I don’t want to wait anymore. I let the doctor know I am ready to do the surgery now. The time comes in everyone’s life when they need to come to terms with spiritual surgery. When you have been in the waiting room as many times as I have, you just want to get it over with.
The preparation doesn’t take that long, and I am pleasantly surprised. The bright-light nurses are all humming familiar Christian songs as they prepare my soul for what is to come. I am told this will take a long time since my soul has been in serious need of repair for eons. I agree that I have put it off for some time.
I know this is going to hurt, but it has to be done. I just lay there now and pray. I pray in silence since I don’t want the doctors or nurses to assist me in their version of prayer. I want to be one on one with God. I want God to know that I am ready for the surgery. I am ready for Him to come in via His doctors and nurses to do whatever it takes to create in me a new soul. It is time to say goodbye to the severely damaged and broken one.
However, it is not as easy as you would imagine. We are in such pain carrying around all our despair, depression, damage, brokenness, and feeling of loss. Yet once we are on that spiritual surgical table about to be cut open, we panic. We panic since we have lived with this tortured soul for so long, and in a way, it is all we know.
It has been our best friend in dark times because it is the only thing that understands the dark times. It has been the shoulder to cry on in the dark room when we are lost in our broken thoughts. It has sustained us through all the hard times. How are we going to survive with some clean soul that doesn’t know anything about suffering? How is this surgery going to make us any better?
Yes, we all find ourselves in the spiritual emergency room with some horrible diagnosis. Those of us who are honest will admit we are regular visitors. We have been in the waiting room with familiar songs in our head for comfort. We know all the faces and what those faces have to tell us. We know all the unending questions on the forms and have updated them time and time again.
However, it is often in the times we need