Control Burn
By Darby Taylor
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Get up off of your bruised knees
and remember what you were built for
In her debut collection, poet Darby Taylor takes us through the pains of transformation. With inspired imagery, startling honesty, and an affinity for the hauntology of southern Americana, Taylor arrives with a bang. Control Burn begins with the hurt of Part I: Lightning Strike, purges and reflects in Part II: Wildfire, then finds redemption and triumph in Part III: Ashfall. Never sacrificing clarity, this collection sets itself apart in its willingness not to say the simple thing strangely, but to say the strange thing simply. This is a story of pain turned to power told by a poet interested in telling nothing but the truth, no matter how uncomfortable.
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Control Burn - Darby Taylor
CONTROL BURN
a book of poetry
By
Darby Taylor
Copyright © 2022 Darby Taylor
All rights reserved. No portion of this book may be reproduced in any form without permission from the publisher, except as permitted by U.S. copyright law.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
PART I: LIGHTNING STRIKE
WELCOME HOME
GAS STATION BARBIE
FIRST HOUSEGUEST
SHAVINGS
PANTHER
TIGRESS
LYNX
HARD LEARNED
FIRST DATE
PRECIPICE
EXCISION
RESURRECTION
HIGH PLAINS
SCARLET FLAGS
BRAND NEW ISSUES
BLUE BLOOD
HARD FEELINGS
GUNSLINGER
MARROW
COMBUSTION
GOEBBEL’S GARTER BELT
BLOODBATH PHASE I: An Arrival
BLOODBATH PHASE II: The Nurse
BLOODBATH PHASE III: The Mobile
BLOODBATH PHASE IV: The Doctor Is In
BLOODBATH PHASE V: Aftercare
SHOESHINE GIRL
QUICKSAND
LOOK MA, NO SHAME
MOSCOW
AND THE CRADLE WILL ROT
TRACE EVIDENCE
CANYON OFFERINGS
PART II: WILDFIRE
OZONE
SIDEWINDER
THE BALLAD OF BARBARA JEAN
FOLD, CAESAR
ROAD RASH
DIRGE
BARROOM BARON
HYPNAGOGIA
FRESH FOG, OLD MORNING
BADLANDS
MOCKINGBIRD
HAND OVER FIST
NO RETURN
STARLIGHT
SLICE
BOTTOM OUT
SEVENTEEN
PONTIUS
HALF LIFE
APPALOOSA
GRINDSTONE TURN
INEPTITUDE IN GRAY, A SUITE FOR FAILURE IN APT. 3B
NIGHT DRIVES
DOWN AT THE AUTO SWAP MEET
COMEBACK, KID
HAIRCUT
PSALM 151
SACRAMENT
FUMBLE
LETTER OPENER
ASPIRATED ASPIRATIONS
LESSONS LEARNED
SEASONAL SABBATICAL
PART III: ASHFALL
LILITH
SANGUINE
NEW NOTEBOOK
CHEKOV’S GUN
NOMINATIVE DETERMINISM
THE BALLAD OF THE KINGSNAKE
STEADY
SNOWDRIFT
TRUDGE
VIDERI, TANDEM
STARLET
HALTING
27 KARAT
SENSORY SPECTRE
INTELLIGENT DESIGN
HARVEST
WARM WATERS
PUNCTURE WOUNDS
BAPTISM
THE GOOD SHEPHERD
LIGATURES
VOLUNTATEM DEI
MONTANA AMERICANA
CONTROL BURN
ANIMA
A BURNING
Acknowledgements
About the Author
To Nancy Mathis
for teaching me how to sing
but mostly for teaching me how to live.
PART I:
LIGHTNING STRIKE
WELCOME HOME
I’m standing in front of the house I grew up in
and neither my three cats
nor my broad back
have any idea
what we’re doing here.
The prodigal daughter
has made her storied return,
come to collect
on the bricks
that built her.
I’m standing alone
on the stoop
where I spent my childhood summers
eating popsicles
in a muggy barefoot bliss.
Now somewhere there’s a piece of cardstock
with a shining gold seal
and my little name
that to God and country proclaim
this place more mine than ever,
the mortgage a mere reminder.
I’ve come home
reeking of failures
worse than this.
Besides,
this time I’ve got the keys.
If this is rock bottom,
it’s cushier than I deserve
but more desolate
than I guessed.
But hey,
my key fits in the lock.
That’s at least
a good place to start–
to start at the beginning, again.
GAS STATION BARBIE
A nearly empty cardboard pack,
reeking of yellow stains on windows
and the potential of pitch
in the lower lobes of the lungs.
I light the last soldier,
the white paper man
left standing
in this arena.
I watch him be consumed,
drawn in and quartered
by breath.
The poor soft pumice
of his better minutes
lost in the wind
disintegrated to less than ash.
It is
what it is,
I think.
At the gas station, americana lingers–
the saloon spirit still simmers.
The attendant that knows my name
seems to also know what I’ve done.
He greets me like Hester,
scorns the acquaintance now Jezebel.
"It is
what it is,"
reads the bumper sticker
for sale by the register.
I stand on the curb
exactly where a ghost,
anniversary of three years ago,
occupies the space–
a spectre slipping her tongue
into the pallid mouth of a man
that would gut her
without a thought
just a little down the line.
"It is
what it is,"
reads the bumper sticker
visible through the window.
My old neon soda pop palace
now harbors memories
and enemies.
I wouldn’t come back,
but I can’t kick
the cancer sticks.
FIRST HOUSEGUEST
Had my first houseguest,
a gentleman caller come a’calling.
He brought a housewarming gift,
a necklace of bruises.
Something I don’t have to worry about returning
because it isn’t my taste.
The best thing he brought
was an unintentional linen spray of sweat–
so now if the sheets stink,
at least they smell of someone
I haven’t wronged.
His kisses are soggy
from being bitten back too long
(but so are mine).
I let myself get swept up
in his teenage-flavored eagerness.
Midday he leaves
to present
the final papers
to his (now) ex-wife,
parts with a peck
on the cheek.
Me, well,
I just cry in the kitchen
wearing my collar
of broken blood vessels
and the garter bruise
on my inner thigh.
Guilt rises
like bile
borne of old failures,
the acid familiar.
The cats creep forth
and sit around my feet,
troubled.
I pick up the little weird one
and sob into his back.
He looks at me a little strange,
but allows it.
I am gonna be okay,
I refuse to be anything else–
I am gonna gnash my teeth,
I am gonna fight–
I have come too far
and lost too