Silent Screams: Into and Out of Bulimia Through Poetry
By Lori Henry
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Lori Henry went through the roller coaster ride of bulimia from age 12 until she graduated from high school. This collection of poetry was written during that time and in the years of recovery that followed.
Delve into the mindset of someone in the throws of bulimia who holds nothing back. Experience her ups and downs, triumphs and setbacks, all mirroring the experiences of those who struggle with this illness.
Web: www.SilentScreamsBook.com.
“Gutsy new writing.”
– Gail Johnson, Health Editor of The Georgia Straight
“The poems provide valuable insights into the emotional journey one takes on the road to recovery.”
– Christine A. Hartline, M.A., Director of the Eating Disorder Referral and Information Centre
“Every piece is written with genuine expression, threaded together with a golden needle. The poems eloquently describe the unrelenting injustice of an eating disorder and the glorious magnificence of recovery. If you have ever wondered what it's really like, prepare yourself for this profound, courageous journey of one who' s saved her own life.”
– Shelley Jensen, eating disorders counsellor
Lori Henry
Lori Henry is a travel writer and voice actor based in Vancouver, Canada. Lori uses dance as an access point to learn about diverse cultures. Her fascination with the subject began with Polynesian dance lessons when she was two years old, learning how to chant in Hawaiian, sing and dance Maori kapa hakas, and shake her hips to Tahitian drums not long after she had learned to walk. She also trained in various other dance forms and played competitive ringette (similar to hockey). Lori has spent the last 10+ years working as a freelance writer focusing on travel and culture. Her work has been published all over the world in publications like Readers Digest, Air Canada's enRoute, WestJet's up! magazine, Western Living, British Columbia Magazine, Spa, FLARE, West, USAToday.com, and Fodor's, to name a few. Lori holds a master's degree in Dance Anthropology with distinction from Roehampton University (London, UK). She conducted her fieldwork with the Whirling Dervishes of West London and her dissertation was titled, "Towards a Non-Hegemonic Anthropology of Dance."
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Silent Screams - Lori Henry
Preface
This collection of poems was written during my battle with bulimia. Starting at 12 years old, I began a dangerous dance with an eating disorder that would take over my life for the next six years, and many more during my recovery. I was able to hide my behaviour better than anything else in my life and became the best liar I have ever known (until I met others who were also struggling and were just as deceitful as I was).
I took my first dance class when I was two years old and performed on stage only one lesson later. I fell in love with the exhilaration that performing brought and quickly got used to the fast-paced lifestyle that future dance classes demanded. I tried new disciplines shortly after and was soon in the studio almost every day of the week. My life became a whirlwind of activity as I tried to balance school, dance, sports, friends and my social life. The busier I became, the more I stifled my feelings until I had become completely numb. My relationship with food followed suit and I developed a strict routine that I thought would simplify it all: dieting. Obsessing over calories and an exercise regime funnelled the complications in my life into one simple formula: restrict my food intake and exercise excessively.
Instead of happiness, though, I was constantly fixated on numbers, dividing food and behaviour into good
or bad
and driving my perfectionist attitude to a fanatical extreme. Everyday was a battlefield within myself to try and lose weight faster. I was convinced that my teenage worries were trivial compared to the much more important
goal of being skinny.
Yet as the behaviour intensified, the toll on my body and mind throughout those years eventually became too great and I broke down one day from sheer exhaustion. I walked into my school counsellor’s office and could not stop the tears that gushed from my fragile body. Thus began my journey through recovery, relapses and eventual healing.
The years that followed were filled with doctors, therapists, nutritionists and councillors, all trying to shift my distorted beliefs into a more balanced state of mind. It took me many years to sort out the damage I had done to myself mentally, physically and spiritually. With my mind bent on self-destruction, health initially seemed like an impossible task.
After a trip to Paris when I was 19 years old, I realized that writing was the only thing that had kept me afloat during the countless times I wanted to give up. I began looking through all of the journals I had kept from grade six onwards and found some really powerful, if not rough, poetry. I decided to edit the poems into a full-length book, more for my own recovery than anything else. It turned into the first edition of Silent Screams, published in 2002.
The book was an amalgamation of all the things I could not say while bulimia had its grip on me. In time, I discovered that this writing could also help others who were caught in their own disordered eating web. I began doing talks about my experience in high schools, for youth groups, at seminars and at a dance convention. I found out