The Nd: Why Try You May Die in the End

By Olive Jameson

Finding yourself in the middle of a life changing situation can be humbling and dangerous. Pointing the finger at someone else and claiming they are the problem is easy to do when you can’t look in the mirror and see your own insecurities. Your identity changes as you grow from your problems. Running from them only exasperates the circumstances. Why try you may die in the end. Like the snake shedding its constricting skin, death can be the most beautiful beginning.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Balboa Press
• Release date: May 24, 2022
• ISBN: 9798765229088

Olive Jameson

Olive has lived in many places she likes to call them all home. She currently lives on an island with her family. Home is where the heart is. She enjoys traveling, playing with her kids and all things islandy.

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Balboa Press rev. date: 05/24/2022

Contents

Introduction

Part 1

1 Meet and Greet

2 The Role You Must Play

3 Adaptations

4 Creating the Perfectly Fake Life

5 The Rules You May Never Know

6 Keeping in Line

7 Cracks in the Image

8 Shattered Mirror, Shattered Dreams

9 The Escape Plan

10 Staying in the Light

Part 2

11 Our Lives Apart Yet Still Intertwined

12 New Life

13 The End Is Not the End

14 Circle Back to the Middle of the Beginning

15 The Empath Is Trapped

16 She Wakes Up

17 The Shaman

Introduction

He doesn’t love you. He is only in love with the idea that you love him.

I sit here in the beautiful place I call home, in a bubble of having absolutely everything I could possibly need, have, or want. It’s perfect in the grand scheme of things. I design my life, my challenges, my goals, my plan—exactly the way I need, learning along the way. It works out in the end; yes, I know this to be true. There will be bumps in the road, twists and turns I would rather not take part in. But the underlying choice is here. I can decide the distance to my end goal by the simple choices I make along the path to my chosen destiny.

But how the fuck did I end up here on a beautiful island in a beautiful home with the biggest choice of my life sitting across the table from me, and it’s so out of reach I can’t get through? He stares at me—no, he stares right through me. With so much tension and hatred, you could physically cut it with a knife. He does not see me anymore, he never really did. He only ever sees himself.

Men like him, it’s what they all do; it’s how they are. It’s a self preservation skill he developed as a child. It’s eerily similar to looking at the TV and being so engrossed in a show that you aren’t even aware of your surroundings. You get lost in the life of the characters, and you begin to think it’s normal to live amidst so much hatred, so much so that when you turn the TV off, you still carry the energy from the show around with you. And then you start integrating the characters’ lives into your own story. That’s exactly how he operates. He believes you are only here in his world because he turned the TV on. He can turn it off just like that. Only this time it won’t turn off, and he’s scrambling to find every way he can to delete you from his program.

The minute I try a tactic that’s off-script, he losses it. He can’t deal. He shuts down, and it’s all my fault. And that, my friend, is the life of the Empath and the Narcissist.

PART 1

1

Meet and Greet

H ow does it work? Why do we attract each other? When a Narcissist sees an Empath, he knows he will be forever loved, forever longed for, even if he stays slightly aloof and keeps the Empath guessing and wondering, and always taking the blame. He feels he has provided for everything, but in reality, he supplies the Empath with basic needs for survival. It isn’t love. It’s a life of hidden lies and feelings of being trapped in a TV-land jail.

It’s not as easy as you think. It’s actually very calculated and disturbing: how the Narcissistic personality will seek out an Empath, only to rip apart and destroy everything they hold dear, only to blame them for the deterioration of their own lives. They don’t fall in love ever—it’s rule number one of the Narcissistic characteristic. They don’t fall In Love because that would be beneath them and their standards. You see people only falling in love with them, not the other way around. And this is why they need to be bigger, better, and bolder than those around them. If they are not the biggest prick in the room, then the room does not exist.

There are times when the Narcissist appears to be small by hanging onto the outskirts of