Hello, I Know It's Me

By Johnny Vandal

This follow up book to “Hello, I think it’s me” deals with my journey from my suicide attempt to finally meeting myself for the first time. The emotional short pieces in this book pieces my personal journey of self-acceptance. This book deals with trusting myself again, forgiveness of myself and others, the reality of my anxiety and the belief of being connected to the universe in my own unique way.
I was in the ditch of despair; I have seen the darkness and have faced some of my demons. I am still facing them and I am working and ever growing with myself. The written pieces in this book are raw and honest. I open up myself in the hope that this can help people realise their self-worth and beauty. We are all alive and connected in our own special and exceptional way.
As with “Hello, I think it’s me” I have linked each written piece with music lyrics which I feel connects with the theme of the individual written piece. This should give the reader a full emersion experience into my journey to guide them on their own path.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris NZ
• Release date: Jun 23, 2021
• ISBN: 9781543497373

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Rev. date: 06/16/2021

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This song is not for the living

This song is for the dead

With my face against the floor

I can’t see who knocked me out of the way

I don’t want to get back up

But I have to, so it might as well be today

Nothing appeals to me, no one feels like me

I’m too busy being calm to disappear

I’m in no shape to be alone

Contrary to the shit that you might hear

So walk with me, walk with me

Don’t let this symbolism kill your heart

Walk with me, walk with me

Just like we should have done right from the start

Walk with me, walk with me

Don’t let this fucking world tear you apart

Slipknot – XIX

CONTENTS

Here I Am

My Past Is True, But Done

I Am Victim

Own World

Father And Son

My Lost Brother

I Am Here, You Are Safe

Exist

I Can Feel

Poison Veins

Why So Quiet?

Miss Me

A (R) Mature For Life

Time To Move On

Finally Awake

The Failing Actor

My Missing Puzzle Piece

This War Is Ending

Trust Yourself

Forgive

Shining Light

Living The Dream

Thank You

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It was 14 June 2020, a Sunday that would change my life