The Man Who Lost His Soul

By Jamell Crouthers

Joseph has never experienced love before. Until he meets Stephanie and she becomes the love of his life. The only problem is she's an abusive girlfriend and eventually wife. The signs had been given to Joseph but he disregarded them. Two kids and a house later, Joseph is fighting for his life daily while trying to protect his children and get out. Will he survive and get out before it's too late? Time will tell as he loses his soul slowly and progressively and fights to get it back.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jamell Crouthers
• Release date: Sep 4, 2020
• ISBN: 9781393801870

Jamell Crouthers

Jamell Crouthers started writing at the age of 13, it wasn't until his 30s where he realized he could impact others with his writing. Jamell was able to incorporate a prose format and social issues and be able to write books on what's going on in the world today. Writing about social issues is something that Jamell is very concerned about and his writing journey has allowed him to write books on various subjects. His goal is to change the world one book at a time.

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Introduction

Domestic violence does not only happen to women. Society never talks about the struggles men deal with in abusive relationships. Have we crafted this persona that a man has to be strong all of the time? Maybe it’s time we start changing the perception of what men are supposed to be and just be human beings...with emotions, feelings, struggles and fighting to live everyday….

Here

I’m laying in a hospital bed, bruised up and weak,

My right eye socket is shut and I can’t see.

By the looks of doctors, I don’t know if I’ll see out of it again,

Surgery is imminent for all of the injuries I sustained.

You're probably wondering how I got to this place,

I wonder about myself and how my life ended up this way.

I start to reflect on my life,

How I'm going to be perceived after all of this is done.

See, this is not an easy story to tell,

Because I'm a man, beaten, battered and broken.

My wife has been abusing me physically,

Along with mentally and emotionally for years.

I'm a victim of domestic violence and I'm a MAN,

The world discusses the women as victims in these cases.

I'm not here to take away from women who have been through this,

It's just nothing is ever discussed when it comes to men.

I guess it's because men are given the image of being strong (physically and mentally),

What are the chances they're dealing with any sort of abuse in their lives?

The perception is a man would fight back,

But I didn't, for years and I should've left.

I wasn't strong enough mentally to do it,

For numerous reasons as you will find out in this story.

My jaw is broken, lacerations on my head which are being patched up as I write this,

I'm quite sure I have other injuries as I'm in a lot of pain.

Waiting for this morphine to infiltrate my bloodstream,

As my vision from my left eye is all that I have.

My lip is busted as I'm listening to the doctors read the results from my x-rays,

My family members have arrived as I see tears in their eyes.

They were asking me all of these questions,

What happened, who did this to me, how did this happen.

I was in too much pain, anguish and embarrassed to tell the story,

Flashbacks of all that's happened the past few years.

How I hid my life from the whole world,

My family, friends, acquaintances, everyone.

There's one thing that I'm feeling and experiencing right now,

Lost…..

Lost

I don't know what's to come of all of this,

I can remember the horror in my kids eyes as my wife was beating me.

Pounding me with that bat and punching me,

As my kids screamed and called 911.

Watching my wife being arrested and taken away,

As I was rolled out of my house in a