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The Keeper of Light - Timothy Brown
Copyright © 2021 by Timothy Brown.
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Rev. date: 02/02/2021
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CONTENTS
Prologue
Why Write?
I want
Finding My Voice
Rhyming’s Legacy
The Immortal Life
The Storm
A Liberating Death
I Stand Before You a Man (Part 1)
Belief Isn’t Enough
I’ve Lost Myself
Depressive Thoughts
I Lay Before You Lost and Broken (Part 2)
What Lies Behind My Conscious Mind?
Memory’s Mystery
Left with a choice
Blood is Thicker Than Water
I Stand Before You With Love (Part 3)
Clearing of the Skies
City Of Ghosts
Pain of a Soldier
The American Facade
Open Your Eyes
Bleached equity
Responsibilities of a White Man
We Are Waking Up Now
The Open Night Sky
Among the Stars
The Monster in my Pocket
A Rebel’s Cause
Free Your Mind
The Power of Curiosity
Building The Lighthouse
Choice
Talking To Myself
Which Reality Do I claim?
A Dream’s Escape
The Nature of Reality
The Rhyme and Rhythm of Life
My Precious Teacher
A Word’s Influence
Motivation Made Known
Born of Love
Legacy
The Devil’s Gatekeeper
Power
Fear
Smile
Happiness
Pain is the Catalyst to Growth
Surviving The Night
The Binding Rhythm
The Power of the Sky
Colors of Life
Mary Jane
The Quiet of Snow
The Rain Drop’s Touch
Wisdom of the Trees
Lotus
The Touch Of Light
Will You Take My Hand?
I Touch
The Purity of your Imperfection
Always and Forever
Epilogue
The Ember That Saved a Heart
I See My Art In Your Eyes
I’m stranded on a raft lost in an ocean of my PTSD,
Depression,
And anxiety.
I drift farther away from a society that doesn’t understand or value me.
The Farther i drift out
The more I’m overcome by these waves of doubt.
The waves transform into a full blown storm as I grip my raft,
Trying to keep it together as it begins to deform.
The wind picks up and starts howling at me.
It tells me how the sea has corrupted everyone’s memory of me.
Then there’s a lightning strike,
Illuminating the sky with memories so lifelike.
I see my grandfather looking at me through a camera lense.
I stand there as a child,
Exposed,
With no defense.
The lightning strikes once more
Kicking open the door
To memories that now downpour.
As they wash over me I see my father ashamed of what came to be.
What came to light tainted his memory of me.
The wind whispers in my ear,
"No one would mind if you’d disappear.
Just let go and drown here."
I’m desperate to stay afloat,
Grabbing at what’s left of my raft as water floods my throat.
I fall below the surface,
My cries for helped silenced by the ocean,
Making me wordless.
Suddenly I see a light and something reach down.
As it pulls me up I realize something profound.
As I feel that first breath of air I experience life at its most bare.
The flood of emotion hurts at first
But it’s followed with relief.
As I look up,
I see I was wrong in my belief.
I lay rescued on the boat floor
Surrounded by friends and family
Because I’m someone they care for.
As soon as they saw me float out
They followed on a rescue boat worried about
What that isolation might sprout.
I wasn’t escaping a society that didn’t value me,
I was running deeper into myself,
getting lost in my PTSD, depression, and anxiety.
It’s here that i realize i need outside help.
If I was left to myself I’d be lying motionless with the kelp.
They bring me back ashore and I feel more loved and wanted than ever before.
I follow their lead
And proceed to get the help I so desperately need.
I’m determined to not let my PTSD,
Depression,
And anxiety
Mislead and impede me from living the life I want to lead.
I learn healthy ways to cope
And no longer feel like my mental illness is trying to strangle me with a rope.
For the first time in a long time I’m filled with hope.
A couple years go by and I find myself at the place I almost died.
I look out to the ocean
And with a sigh,
Wonder why.
Why I withdrew from everyone I knew.
Why I isolated myself