The Diary of a Deadbeat Dad: It’s Not What You Think …

By Vito LaGuido

If getting emotional is something you don't want to happen then reading this book is something you don't want to do because an emotional rollercoaster will be a direct understatement of what you will experience as your heart rattles and the words jump from the page in this real life diary. If you think what you have to give is too much for this book so will be what is written inside. It will be too much for you!
Forbidden from book clubs and anyone under the age of 18 without permission from their parents to read, this may be your only opportunity to divulge in it. So if you are thinking about waiting to read this you are not thinking at all. It's currently not available in brick and mortar stores because it would be too expensive to plastic wrap each book to keep every ones lustful eyes off of the secrets within these pages.
If you are looking for a book with proper grammar and excellent spelling you have come to the wrong place as the Author once received an F in English class. So if you are looking to read words from a literary genius you might as well go back in time because this modern day mock up won't make the cut!
If there is anything I CAN promise you, it is that it won't be anything like you are thinking. There is only one way not to find out...that is by not reading it! So keep your money and don't get the book because I don't need your money and you don't need the book...or do you? But I will stop there because it's not my job to convince you to read this, in fact, I don't even have a job.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Archway Publishing
• Release date: Sep 8, 2020
• ISBN: 9781480893054

Vito LaGuido

Born into a lower middle class Irish and Italian family in the early 1980s in the south suburbs of Chicago I never felt qualified to write a book nor did I ever intend to. In fact I even failed English classes growing up. It all started while I was keeping a Diary to cope with my new reality of having to become a dad in the most untraditional ways. I am not sure I will ever write another book in the future or if I will ever be successful with my current book "The Diary of a Deadbeat Dad" but I certainly thought that after everything that was written I couldn't keep it to myself, so the secret is out... P.S. I have written this book under a pen name because I like to live a humble life and I am not doing this to gain recognition or fame so if you figure out who I am or know who I am please keep this to yourself.

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dedicate this book to my daughter. It is meant to give her the truth about her existence and provide her with the wisdom she needs to survive in this life. It is intended to help her find her true calling and to live out her purpose that God has placed her here for. She is not to read this book until she is an adult. I don’t want to risk her not having me around to tell her, so I will do the same thing that God did and leave her a book about what I think she needs to know when she is older. How could I leave my beautiful daughter without the wisdom she needs if something were to happen to me before she was old enough to know me?

I also want to dedicate this book in the name of the Lord. I hope that this book can bring as many people closer to God as possible, for he who wins souls is wise.

The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life; and he that winneth souls is wise. (Proverbs 11:30 Berean Study Bible)

I kindly ask that people who read this book keep its content to themselves and do not gossip about it. If you feel the need, you can tell your friends about the book and tell them to get it wherever you want, but don’t disclose its content. You can leave reviews on Amazon if you like, but please don’t share any details. My daughter and I will appreciate your cooperation. You are now sworn to secrecy.

CONTENTS

Chapter 1 The Diary

Chapter 2 The Face of Love

Chapter 3 The Harsh Truth about Stepdads

Chapter 4 It’s Not Always What You Think

Chapter 5 Fear or Fearless

Chapter 6 Procrastination

Chapter 7 Words of Wisdom

Chapter 8 Abnormal Diet

Chapter 9 What He Wants Us to Do

Chapter 10 Money or Master

Chapter 11 What I Will Do if You Try To Harm My Daughter or Her Mom

Chapter 12 A Letter to My Ex

Chapter 13 Go to Hell

Postgame Comments of the Author

Disclaimer

Chapter 1

THE DIARY

I never thought I would become an author, but for me to guarantee you what you need to know in this life, I had to write this book.

My son or daughter, I am not yet sure who you are, but the thought of you completely melts my heart. You are certainly a miracle since my doctor told me that I might not be able to have kids because I have varicocele.

A varicocele is an abnormal enlargement of the pampiniform venous plexus in the scrotum. This plexus of veins drain the testicles. The testicular blood vessels originate in the abdomen and course down through the inguinal canal as part of the spermatic cord on their way to the testis. Small one-way valves that prevent backflow ensures the upward flow of blood in the veins. Defective valves, or compression of the vein by a nearby structure, can cause dilatation of the testicular veins near the testis, leading to the formation of a varicocele. Varicocele is known as one of the leading causes for male infertility and can be treated by surgery or addressed by nonsurgical means.¹

Your mom would always accuse me of cheating on her with a girl who was just a friend of mine, nothing more. Well, because of this, I got upset and decided to see if your mother was active on the dating website where we met. I grabbed her iPad and clicked on her dating account. I saw that she had been responding to other guys’ emails. One of the emails was from a guy sent December 1, 2015, and another from another guy sometime in late September 2015.

I got completely upset and started yelling at your mother, asking her, Why in the hell are you on a dating site when you are five months’ pregnant with my kid? What the fuck is wrong with you?

She says, He’s just a friend. I was just talking to a friend. And while I may believe her about one of the guys, she certainly wasn’t just friends with the other guy.

The messages didn’t go that far, but it doesn’t matter; you talk to your friends on the phone, through text messages, or on social media. You don’t talk to your friends on a dating site. I was extremely pissed off, and I told her I never wanted to see her again. I didn’t mean it, but the thought of her possibly cheating hurt me, as you could imagine.

Before this whole event, we would argue quite a bit, mostly about dumb stuff, which I am sure you will argue with her about, like keeping the heat at 59 degrees. But you will deal with it most of your life, so you’ll be used to it.

Your grandma and grandpa on my side would keep the heat at almost 80 degrees. That’s how I grew up, but I keep mine around 68, which you will find out. She would yell at me for wasting water when I would throw a tissue in the toilet and flush it after blowing my nose. It was always just entirely dumb things, which shouldn’t even provoke any argument.

She would also get furious at me if I even pressed one beer to my lips. I will admit, I am not perfect and occasionally have one too many. Most of our arguments about me getting mean when I would drink, as she would say, would be because she would badger me about drinking the whole time I was drinking.

The biggest argument we would have was about your last name. She told me she was going to give you her last name. I got upset and started yelling at her when she said this. When I brought her home, I told her to get out of the car. I never felt so disrespected in my entire life.

Sorry, I just paused for a minute; by the way, it is January 10, 2016. I sent your mom a text message to see if she wanted to go to breakfast.

She responded, I have to work today.

I said, That’s at noon; it’s 8:30 now.

She just replied, It’s 8:47 now.

She is just completely rude to me. I am trying so hard to make this work between us because I want to stay together as a family. We could be so happy together, just the three of us. And then maybe give you another brother or sister, maybe two. I just wish she would realize this. I pray to God every night for this. I want to make sure I get to see you every day. I don’t want her to take you away from me like I think she is going to try to do.

Back to the name thing; it is a complete disgrace for a woman to give her child her own last name. She used the excuse that we were not married. I want to marry your mom, but if she doesn’t want you to have my last name, it’s pretty clear she doesn’t want it, either. This is driving me crazy.

You are my blood and will be my first-born child. I will love and care for you as long as I live. I believe you should have my last name to carry on the legacy of the name and pass it down from generation to generation. You should never back down if you are a boy and someone does this to you. Also, make sure your kids do the same. It is a name to be proud of.

If you are reading this, whether I am dead or alive, if she won the battle and you still have your mother’s last name, I would appreciate it if you would change it to mine to honor me, your grandpa, great-grandpas, and also to honor your children. Listen to the song by Dierks Bentley, My Last Name; it’s a great song. Because of you, it has a new meaning to me.

Update: While I was writing this, your mom asked me what I had planned for the day.

I told her, Just breakfast and church; why?

She said, Just wondering.

I said, Oh, I thought maybe you might want to go to church and go to dinner with me after.

She said, Won’t she be there? She, meaning the girl who is my friend, the friend I told you about earlier. I don’t know why she is like this. I have never done anything with her or anyone while your mom and I have been together.

I am not telling all of this to you for you to get mad at your mother. I am telling you this because I fear if I don’t write this, you may never find out the truth. You better not ever disrespect your mother. You are only given one, and she will be there for you, no matter what. I know she will.

Speaking of mothers, while all of this is going on, my mother, your grandmother, is very sick with emphysema; she also has COPD and a nodule in her lung. I am not sure how much longer she will be around, but I hope she gets to meet you. And hopefully, you can get to a point where you can talk because she is a great lady. I could not have asked for a better mother. She would do anything for me without question, as I am sure yours will do for you.

I am getting very sad just at the mere thought of all of this. Just know that I don’t ever want to try to take you from your mother. But if I ever had to, I would let you see her as much as you want. You need her just as much as you need me. If we end up in a custody battle for you, I will only try for joint custody because it is the only thing that seems fair. I will never deprive you of your mother because I know how much I need mine. I love your mother too. She gave me the greatest gift I could ever have: you.

Your grandpa LaGuido is a hard worker; all he does is work. I wish one day the man would retire and relax, but I am not sure that will happen. You should be able to meet him.

Your grandma, grandpa, and everyone else on your mom’s side of the family don’t know very much about me. They won’t be able to tell you much about me if something should happen to me before you get to know me. They didn’t know the real reasons your mother and I aren’t on the best terms, because I am sure your mother didn’t tell them the whole story. The little I know about them, though, I like. I like your grandparents and your aunt and uncle. I loved seeing their son. He was always fun to see when your mom and I would babysit. Your great-aunts and uncles were all friendly people as well, but I admired your great-uncle. He made me feel like I was part of the family when I didn’t know anyone. He was my favorite. If you are anything like me, he will probably be your favorite too. I also really liked your mom’s cousin and his wife; your mom and I went out with them a few times. They were cool.

I am going to stop writing this for now, but I want to add a couple of things, just in case I don’t get the chance to finish.

Always keep these thoughts close in your mind:

Always put God first in your life, above all else, because if you put him last, you will be back to him anyway. Your life will be much easier and one thousand times better if you put him first. Trust me and trust him.

Make sure you pray every day. Ask Jesus to come into your heart to save you from all of your sins. Believe that he came in the flesh, died for your sins, and rose from the dead on the third day, and whoever believes in him shall have eternal life.

Keep in mind that hell is real, and people do go there if they are not saved. Hell is believed to be located in the center of the earth.

Don’t give in to peer pressure; only do what you want to do and not what everyone else thinks you should do.

Stay away from drugs and people who do them. You can drink but only a few. Don’t drink too much or do shots; you will not only regret it because you will be sick, but you will also do things you wouldn’t usually do if you were sober. It can lead to trouble, and you don’t want that.

If you should ever get into trouble with the law, don’t speak a word to any law enforcement officer. Tell them you would like to talk to an attorney and then remain silent. Always remember that anything you say can and will be used against you. I will say they are mostly there because they want to help, and you should be respectful to them, but don’t trust them, no matter what; they will lie and try to trick you to get you to say what they want you to say. Any law enforcement officer would