Finished!: The Untold Story of a Woman Being Crossed and Driven to Exile

By Shell Matlock

When you read this book open your heart and mind to change your way of thinking because you can say you know someone but do you really? If somebody is trying to change don't keep bringing up their pass trying to goat them into a argument because really you need help if you doing that! Judge not, God is the only one who can judge and we all have to face him one day.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 19, 2020
• ISBN: 9781796086836

Shell Matlock

I am a woman who has been through the storm, granted there are people out there who believe I haven't because of my age. Just because I am 27 years old and younger than you doesn't mean a thing. If you are on the outside looking in on anybody's situation then you shouldn't speak on it. Everybody has a story to tell and here is mine!

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Since my last book a lot has happened and enough to feel the way I feel right now. The way I feel is that I have no intention of being in a relationship. I have no intention of opening my heart to these losers ever again. I even make sure these men know I am not playing they games anymore even when they try to give me a sob story. I wish they knew and understood how much pain they cost to real good women. Than again they do understand they are just heartless and full of it. They rather live with trash then be with a real woman. I made the mistake of not letting a man pay for the mistakes of somebody I had before him and then he turn around and do the same, so now I am tired of the shit they do. I have gotten my heart broken in the pass but this last time was different, this time I went through a lot of emotions. I went through heartbreak, self- hate and now I am at the point where I don’t give a damn. I am at the point now that there is nothing a man can do for me but bring me down. I don’t mean to male bash but I am just speaking the truth. I know some of you will say I just haven’t ran into the right one yet but I’ve heard all of that before, everything that another man can possibly say I’ve heard it and I’m not going. No man has shown me that they aren’t all cut from the same cloth and right now they never will. I just wish they would learn how to take no for a answer but it’s OK I know how to not answer my phone. I mean this last breakup changed me, it changed me in a way where I don’t and can’t put myself in a position to be in a relationship anymore. I don’t trust the opposite sex to be real men instead of little ass boys. Before I go any further let me set the record straight, I am not now nor have I ever been a lesbian I am just living single. Right now I believe all the real men are either married or dead and the only way to change my mind is God sending me my enchanted Love. Yes I said it! I am waiting on God, no matter how long it takes. I don’t just think about my relationship with Nico, I think about all the other fools that came before him also. Nowadays they will force you to have sex when you don’t want too, put they hands on you, treat you and make you feel like you’re worthless. The icing on the cake if you have a child, they will treat them bad. I really believed stupidly that men who have daughters would know better and treat they woman the way they would want their daughters to be treated but apparently that is not the case. Basically they’re saying, I am going to treat you like shit but nobody better not treat my daughter like that. Guess what, we are somebody daughter too. I wish for a month a man can walk in our shoes and they can see how it feels to be used, abused and just totally disrespected. Well maybe one day they will grow up and take their mouth off their mom’s breast, we can only hope and pray. The fact of the matter is life is one big game to them but when they dealing with a real woman they want to cheat and lie. They don’t want real women, they want whores and girls that really don’t know what they want. It is sad but it is true. Someone once told me when I get really tired I would know, well I finally got tired of the games men play and don’t look at them the same. What else is sad, when another man try to be with you and use the same lines the person you broke up with used. HEARD IT ALL BEFORE! They lies aren’t working now I am on to their games. I have so much animosity towards men and to tell you the truth I don’t know when or if it will ever change. I was told if I keep doing this I will miss my blessing, I get blessed every day when I wake up in the morning, I was bless yesterday when I celebrated 30 years of life and most importantly I am blessed to be a mother. I said it before and I’ll say it again, a man is a addition not a completion, from my experience a painful addition. I have been lied to and used for the last time, the biggest lie you can tell someone is I LOVE YOU, that’s my opinion. I’ve been told that lie so many times to where I don’t want to hear it anymore. I am numb, I am all cried out. I really can’t believe how some people act or how some people can tell you to get over it like your feelings aren’t real or valid but when it comes

to them you have to listen and respect their feelings. People don’t realize I didn’t come back the same person, I honestly don’t show emotion anymore, why should I? I should let people keep hurting me? I don’t think so because HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED! This book is for every woman who has been beat, raped, called out her name believe it or not I’vebeen called everything but a child of God. This book is dedicated to you. I am here to tell you walking away doesn’t mean you’re weak, it doesn’t classify you as a little girl it makes you strong. It will make you go through a lot of emotions but you will get through it. I mean men think I’m being mean because I won’t give them the time of day but the truth of the matter is I am tired, I am extremely tired of the lies they tell. If you can’t be real with me I have no use for you, I can do bad by myself. I don’t need any help so if you not serious about life and you want to act like you still in high school or pampers move around because I refuse to do your mother’s job. They don’t actually grow up, they’re still living with that childlike mentality that make me want to slap the dog shit out of them I am not lying. This question I am about to ask is for all the males 25 and up, my question is why? Why do you act the way you do towards women especially since your mother is a woman to? Why is it so hard for you to act like a man? Excuse me a real man? Don’t you know that if you acted right we would gladly give you the Love and respect that you desperately want and we deserve, but Since you want to act like little boys what are we supposed to do? See real men don’t lie, real men don’t cheat, real men don’t put their hands on their women. A real man, cater to his woman, a real man keeps it 100, a real man makes sure no harm come to his woman and a real man take care of his business. Do you got it now or are you just so comfortable with what you do that change is not a option? If that is the case no real woman is going to put up with you but then again I don’t believe you can handle a real woman.

Now to my sisters black and white, I understand we sometimes put up with the mess out of love but sometime we have to let love die and walk away. If that man is not giving you love in return it’s time to let it go. If he only show you love on certain days like Nico did me, it’s time to let it go. Most importantly, if he can’t care for your child rather it’s his or not LET IT GO!!! I’m telling you once you learn how to be by yourself with no man in sight you will feel so much better. Once you learn how to love yourself, you will never let any man treat you any kind of way. It took some time for me but I am slowly but surely getting there. I am going back to church and studying the word. I put my son back in the children church choir, I am looking for a job in the medical field, Most of all I am back where I belong. Sometime I do still think about what I should have said or did to him before I left and wish I did do something at least something to make him wish he was dead, but then I think what was left unsaid and left undid is the way it should have been. Sometimes I wish I would have at least made him feel like he was lower than dirt before I disappeared out of his life, then again he is lower than dirt because maybe if I would have beat him I probably would have knocked out what brain cells he had left. Nico was the Anti Christ in every way, he was a demon he will give the kind of look like he was ready to attack. He put me through hell and