Until the End of Time

By Mbali Dlamini

The book tells a story of a girl who was in love but she ended up losing everything. Her family was complicated. She lost her parents in the game of love but she never gave up on herself.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Partridge Publishing Singapore
• Release date: Oct 18, 2019
• ISBN: 9781543747652

Mbali Dlamini

Mbali Dlamini has been a University of Swaziland student. She received a bachelor of nursing science degree. She has faced a lot of problems when growing up and lost her father at a very young age losing her parents inspired her to write the book.

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Copyright © 2019 by Mbali Dlamini.

Library of Congress Control Number:    2019915780

ISBN:       Softcover       978-1-5437-4766-9

                 eBook            978-1-5437-4765-2

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Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

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Chapter 1

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T he most important and satisfying human action and feeling that can will be present forever or never die, is love. No one has to explain how or how much he loves someone his\her actions should explain itself. The actions should not be questionable but should be satisfying and aim to sooth the heart. There is a thin line between presence and real actions, we should be cautious not to hurt our feelings. Those are words my mother used to tell me, every time I disappear from home to meet the love of my life. I promised to love him with my whole life, till the end of time.

Everything we do is motivated by true, unconditional love and our passion to pursue individual paths. In everything I was doing I was motivated by the desire to understand my self and the world. My mother used to say I’m a confused soul, because, I didn’t know how I wanted my carrier path to look like, I wanted to do chemical engineering, then I changed to commerce, I then realized I liked mechanical engineering. My mother gave me advice, that I should make a carrier plan. She said I should ask myself these questions, What do I want to do, and why, what does my dream job look like and am I going to enjoy it, How does this job fit in my life, am I not going to regret one day and does the job fit to the way I want my life to be. Eventually I decided to be biomedical engineer.

If I were to describe the best moments of my life, I might have told you about every second I spent with the love of my life. He loved me so perfectly, and gave me everything that you can expect from a human being. I couldn’t get him off my mind, I dreamt about him every day. He was beyond being perfect. If I were to write the good things about him, I would have spent my whole life trying to finish that book. He was a special gift from the heavens. His smile warms my heart and his presence made me whole. I promised myself to love and cherish every second of our lives and forever! We had planned with the love of my life to meet at our usual place. It was at Mbundu area, which was five kilometers from my home, it was next to Mila River. We enjoyed going to that place because the view over the valley were very nice. We enjoyed spotting beautiful birds, and the goats climbing around on cliffs. That place offered us a unique experience for watching wild life. He fetched Dater forex leaves and placed them on the ground, he ordered me to sit there. I wanted to enjoy every second of my life, I wanted to be happy, I achieved that by living my own life and I made sure I find the right person, I loved to be with him all the time. He inspired me, support me and helped me to grow into beautiful, confident, happiest, strongest, wisest self.

Baby you seem to be quiet, what’s wrong love? I asked. No reply Cob love, why are you quiet, what happened I wonder? Every promise made because of love become true, but to be able to trust those promises, you need to know more about the extent of your own feelings. He said. Babe you sound like you groaning in pain "I croaked. We had planned to meet but he found me very busy, my mother asked me to prepare them Mandwandwa and porridge before I leave, I delayed him an hour. He took a deep breath and expressed Baby I was dying to see you, I missed you. You know your love is essential for me, and I cannot live without you. My love stop it, you know I love you more than my heart beat. I said.

He pulled down my hair, and smelt it repeatedly and said, My success depends upon your presence; yes it is only possible only because of you. I was worried that maybe you didn’t want to see me! I stared into his eyes for few seconds and replied with a soft voice. Calm down my king, its kills me to see you like this, just put a smile on that face. I was very happy love that I was going to see you, my mom was amaze by the way I was so energetic and enthusiastic, in my mind I knew that I was going to see your smile, which melt my heart and make me to spend every second with you. He face down and kept quiet for some few seconds and declared with a deep voice I feel like I don’t deserve you, but you have chosen me, thank you for giving me this opportunity to be a happy soul. I feel blessed to have you. I will love you till my heart stops beating. Now I am so strong, I can face anything. He held my hands and squeezed them smoothly. In a nutshell you make me happy.

Baby you beautiful. Thank you love, but I haven’t put any make up on. I said I like the real you, my love. He said. He put his hands on his pockets, and take out an Oak ring box. I took a deep breath and look at him for a moment I was puzzled. I deduced that he was going to propose tonight. Oh God its happening He gave me the box and said I have brought you something, open it. What is it love Oh my God it’s beautiful. He gave me an infinity diamond pendant neckless, which was white gold and I loved it. Baby you want me to die of heart attack, you the best love. I ran shorts of words I didn’t know what to say. The gift was beautiful and it suited me perfectly. He simper and said I bought it when I was 11 years old on a vacation with my parents in South Korea. I kept it, so that I can give it to my other soul, my yonkinto. I was visibly moved, I spoke with a brittle voice and said baby you my everything I’m blessed to have you. He held me close to him and comforted me. The love I have for him was beyond everything. Baby, did you notice, we wearing matching outfit, this adds my personal touch, black and white, and we should take a selfie. I pointed out. He stood up and said I know you obsessed with the camera love, let’s take photos. We took a lot of photos. He then opened his music. He liked house music. Baby please teach me gwaragwara dance moves, ill teach you Vosho. I said so while dancing to the music. I only know walk yephara, look I’m killing it. He said so while dancing to the music. We spent two hours there.

We were preparing to walk back home. Nono, my friend came with two guys, one of them was my crush, when I was still at the university. Hey guys hope you both fine. Bestie you sweating She greeted us. We were surprised on how they had located us, because we never told anyone where we were going. Chomie, what are you doing here? I asked. I went to your place and they told me you were gone with your boyfriend, so I decided to come here, because you once told me this was your favorite place. She explained. We were heading back to her house, can you please give us a lift there, she is fragile and I guess she must be tired. We left my car at her home. Cobo requested. They offered to give us a lift home. We were quiet in the car. Chomie, I forgot to introduce my friends, its Mandi, your crush at school and his friend Percy. She said in a loud voice. It was unfair to Cobo, she shouldn’t have mentioned all those details. I left them waiting for me at the gate, I accompany Cobo to his car, I spent twenty minutes there, hoping Nono and her friends would leave. You should go to your friend love, they probably waiting for you. Said Cobo. I don’t understand, what my friend was trying to do, why she came with those guys. I wondered. Baby I’ll see you, same place same time, I love you always. He start the ignition and left, even though it was very difficult to let him go, but I had to.

I held Nono’s hands and pulled her aside and made her aware that what she did was wrong. I then explained to her that I had to get inside the house because my mother ordered me to do something before I left the house. She just simply said. They gave me a bell, and asked me that they needed a favor from you, so I offered to accompany them. Not that I was up to something, I am sorry for everything, I will tell them to leave you alone. I felt bad and answered. Don’t be like that love, I’ll talk to them, I’m sorry for overreacting. I went straight to them and smiled. I thanked them for coming to see me. We then talked about the university, everything was flowing. I’m hosting a party at home, I just wanted to invite your personal, its start at 5.30 pm this coming Saturday. Said Mandi. I’ll think about it, Nono will give you my numb. I replied without even thinking. They left and I went to the house.

I took the responsibility of taking my mother to the farm, when she wanted to go there, Gift, Pino and Deli my siblings didn’t want to take her to the farm because she usually want to spend the whole day there. Going with her there was a huge responsibility, she was using a wheel chair, and I was supposed to take her in and out of the car. I took her to the farm the following day, as usual and to the company which was owned by my father. He owned the Swaziland NUTRIFOODS which dealt with Fresh Vegetables, pineapples, Litchi Fruit, Processed Vegetables, at Khosetjeni. He also owned the Asisizane Company, which also dealt with sugar cane, and banana at Malunge. My mother was the owner of the Sandla Investments Pty Ltd, which had maize, maize and meal. They also owned plots in various places in the country. We came back in the evening. We found my father, not back from collecting his rent from his plots, from those who didn’t deposit their payment in his account at Mgoza.

I’m hungry, My mother whined. I’ll see what I can get you Then she went to her bed room. I made her mustard, strong tea, and made bread and butter. When I get to her bed room I was surprised to find her off her wheel chair on her bed without my help and I gave her the food and sat next to her. No one can defeat your beauty my love, you remind me, of myself when I was your age, every men in the village wanted to marry me. She said while giving me a sullen look. I answered her, not even knowing where was the topic going I don’t want to be beautiful only mom, I want to be a women of substance, a role model to every young person in the whole world. My dad came in. I’m starving darling, what we have in the kitchen? Asked my father. The maid had prepared, something for dinner. We came back late from the farm. Said my mother. I went to the kitchen to prepare the table. My mother had the tea, she stayed in her room and watched Skeem Sam, and she liked watching soapies and documentaries. I ate the dinner with my father, I then went to my room.

The next day was a Saturday. I usually do my laundry on a Saturdays. Cobo had invited me to attend a party in his friend place, I went to the party, and it was boring. 75% of the people who were invited were drunk and high. People think they enjoy more when they drunk, but I think you enjoy when you like and feel what you doing. I came back around 3pm I found my mother sitting in the house knitting a bag. Mom you must be bored. I said. What would you expect, I can’t push my own agendas without being helped, and I have been sitting on this chair the whole day. She said. I sat next to her and said mom don’t be like that, what’s bothering you? She sighed You know what, I had been hiding something from you, I’m not sure if I was hiding it or you already know about it, you just waiting for me to disclose. You are an Identical twin, you had a twin sister. She was beautiful and smart like you. She said. I was shocked, to hear that I had a twin sister, at the same time I was happy. Where is she? I asked her. She said she died when we were toddlers. That was very sad, I asked her what happened. She was hesitating to tell me the details, she kept quiet for few seconds and said. We were attending a wedding, one of your father’s friends, Mbeke were getting married. We left you two, with other kids Mbeke’s house. We had our nanny to look after the two of you. We received a call from the nanny, she told us Betsabile fainted and she was not working up but she had a pulse. We left everything we were doing and went there, it was already late, she has passed away.

That was very sad, I couldn’t stop crying. Having a twin sister was going to be the best thing that had ever happened to me. She would have comforted me when I’m sad, be my shelter when things get tough. She would have mocked me if I did silly mistakes, she would have given me hope when I feel hopeless. To have sister, is a blessing, and that was taken away from me. Why didn’t you tell me about it mom? I asked. Sindy was four years old, she knew about it, but she was too young to pay attention towards it, she used to ask me about her, but I told her, the angels took her. I made sure that every body forget about her, I knew the pain I was going to put you through if we did mentioned it to you. Twins acts like two hands, they help each other, and the other one cannot function without the other one. She said.

I was indignant, I felt like my mother was not giving me enough reasons why she kept it from me. I wondered how she succeeded in keeping this from me all this years. I had preeclampsia, but the doctor denied me caesarean section, because he said my hemoglobin level was too low, so I had to give birth naturally. After delivery I almost died, they revived me at the ICU department. They said you two were pressing on my vital organs. She said mournfully. I then realized that our mother went through a lot just for us. I told her I had planned to prepare her, her favorite meal, we were going to sit together at the dinner table. I also wanted to go to the gym, but then I decided to stay.

Mom, we have your Ligusha in the refrigerator, are you still going to eat it? I’m dying to have it now. I asked her. I had to repeat what I was saying. She was reading something on her phone. Mom don’t tell me you cheating my dad now. I shouted. She laughed and said don’t you think your father, could the one who is cheating on me, someone on his face book, commented and addressed him, she said he was love, she looked familiar, she looked like our neighbor Mrs. Makhubu, the widow. It was the first time I heard my mother complaining about my father’s actions. I could read the jealousy on her face. I’m flattered, adults can also be in secured and jealousy, stop being like that mom, on Facebook people are free to post anything, I guess she was just expressing herself, but in a wrong way." She looked convinced about what I said She said she wanted to take a nap, she requested that I should wake up, when its dinner time.

I went to my late sister’s place Sindi, her husband Bonga asked me to pick her kids up. Bonga said he was attending a funeral service in South Africa, he asked us to look after their kid Owe and Ben. Aunt! they screamed running toward me, I gave them a hug. We need to pack your things, we going to your grandma’s house I said. Yes! screamed Ben. Mommy please let’s go to Sipho’s home, he took my jersey, and my father is going to kill me if he found out that the New Jersey is not with me. Requested Ben. It was far, it was fifteen kilometer away from their home. I took them there. When we arrived home we found the table was already set. I had directed the house helpers on how to prepare everything. We found my father home. My mother slept for two hours, when she woke up she complained of hunger, I told her food was ready. Pino my younger brother was back from school, he came with friends, and they were playing Fifa football games in his room. They all came down stairs and joined us, open pan herb chicken, beef and cashew, potato gnocchi with sage burnt butter and different salads were prepared. Everybody enjoyed the food and said it was delicious. I stood in front of them and told them I was going to recite a poem which was dedicated tom my mother. I feel exceedingly proud and privileged to have got an opportunity to recite a poem and dedicate it to the women who gave me the opportunity to be on planet earth. The title is (forever I will). I said Hope you will enjoy it!

"You are the conquer of the universe, the mirror of my life

The true reflection of my soul, the soul that’s allowed me to be another soul

If it wasn’t for you the universe wouldn’t have multiply its self

The bomb inside me is counting, let me explode and say the words

You give me the reason to live,

You suffered unbearable pain but you chose to give me the opportunity

Your body was heavy but you chose to carry me

You got your body changed but you chose to accept it

You had sleepless nights but you chose not to lose hope

You faced criticism but you chose not to give up

You were given reasons to quit but you chose to hold on

For life was not there without you, you choose to say yes

And I was made to be perfect just like you.

Forever I will love you

I idolize you like forever had been forever.

I can’t contain it because it’s overflowing.

Over the cliff I climb and tell the world about you

I can’t control it because I feel it,

Feel it, it’s from the deepest part of my soul

Please let me say it out loud, you are the treasure to my life.

I Love you for who you are, accept who you are

Not for who you are only but for being such a blessing

This blessing is beyond imagination, I can’t imagine life without you

It’s the greatest blessing I could ever receive, what a blessing, that’s the spirit.

Happiness is my league, I can’t control the urge to smile

I’m crazy, I can’t feel my frustration, and maybe I need attention.

When everything shut down. You brought the light to my life

I don’t blame you, you are kind, smart and lovely

Hatred, mistakes and failure may try to drag me down but

Your unconditional love gives me the strength to move on

Some people say you mean a lot to me

Whilst they don’t mean it, with that in mind I mean

You mean everything to me, I mean everything.

Let me show you the meaning of love, for love is beyond its meaning.

Deep down from the roots of my life, I mean I love you a lot

Lots of people wants love, Lots of wishes, I wish you could live forever.

I will forever appreciate the chance you have given me

The chance to be myself and enjoy being me

The chance to learn the meaning of true love

Forever I will love you.

For love alone cannot satisfy you, happiness is what I will promise you.

Listening to the melody of your heart beat, Is my favorite therapy

When the melody play, everyday makes me want to scream every second

I will love you forever. Not just for me but just for us

Forever will I climb over the hills and tell the world

That forever you will be in my heart.

I know the truth, when you look in mirror you said I did it

It’s the heart, its giving you the hint

The mind gives you the clue and the direction.

You let us to be in your life for a purpose

Maybe the purpose is not enough

This is multiple beauty, beauty from within

Beauty from above, that no men can explain or understand.

I had learnt that love is not saying I love you,, but it’s all in the things you do,

When everything got rough, you chose to stay and smoothen our lives.

Your lips sing songs of joy your eyes says it all, it a book of love.

Your hands held me and lifted me up. Hands that warms the heart

Forever I will love you."

I paused a moment, and said, Thank you, and nodding my head. She couldn’t control it, she stood up, and she hugged me. Can I have mine? Asked my father. It’s coming soon daddy. I said. Ben Stood up and said grandpa I have been practicing how to rape with my friends, I can dedicate something to you. I doubt you can do that Ben. Said Pino. Go on my son don’t be scared. He stood up. He started to beatbox, then Pino helped him by hitting the table and beat boxing at the same time. He goes

[Intro]

Oh yea you the best,

I love you uh

You loves me,

You love me before I was there

[Verse]

Oh I love him, with ever beat of my heart (oh)

He’s good (oh) like he want us to be

He loves and support us from his heart

He is the greatest blessing that was sent to bless us

(Yeah)

You are special, you Influence us good

Where ever you are know that you loved

Concrete love that can never be broken

I am confident because I know you love me

He is giving

Giving hope

He offered

Offered to always be there for us.

When we are stacked he just say

Give me time to come up with something

My father he always have plans

Plans to put food on the table

He’s a great dad.

[Hook]

Oh yea I love him, my mentor, my boss, my superhero, my teacher, he cares,

He gives me more reasons to press on, on and on

[Verse]

I kept every moment I spent with you in my diary

I kept on writing they, they are full now and I can’t stop

Yes you taught me to be a men

I am a men (Yeah)

I see you with your grand children

More than one

They say thank you for the sacrifice

You sacrifice you pleasure

So we enjoy this life

We live in your comfort

Thank you for this life

For this opportunity.

[Hook]

Oh yea I love him, my mentor, my boss, my superhero, my teacher, he cares,

He gives me more reasons to press on, on and on.

[Verse]

I’m too expensive

From head to toe

I cost billions

I frustrated everybody

But he found the solutions

We cry to him

He gave us everything

I mean all of it

He loved us more him self

He usually say where are you going boy

Watch out, it’s not safe.

The world is cruel

I took the advice and I grow more.

I love him, love him more.

My boy I don’t know how to rape but I must say you very good. Where did you copy the lyrics? Asked my father. I composed it grandpa. You should admit he is good. I said. I’m going to practice and do it tomorrow. Pino laughed. Thank you my boy, if you continue like this you are going to be a star, but remember that education comes before talent. Said my father. We listened to the two recoding. They was very touching when I listened to it. Pino’s friends asked him to forward them to them so they can practice and surprise their parents. We were all very full, I went to bed that instant.

I woke up, early the next morning because I wanted to access the internet, it was very fast to download files in the morning. I wanted to apply for a job. My father was insisting that I work in his company, but I wanted to do something different to my family business. That’s why I thought of looking for vacancies online. I received a call from a male friend of mine he requested to meet me. I agreed to meet him.

It was a warm Saturday, my friend Mpilo offered to come to my house for the first time. I had to pick him at the bus station Nkuka, because he didn’t know my where my home was located. We had been friend with him for almost a year. People from our village believed it was weird to have a male friend. They always thought there was something fishy going on between us. I found him at the station, looking like a fish in a desert. How long have you been here? I asked. Few minutes why. I thought I have delayed you I said. I picked him, we went home. I liked that he was a kind, open and honest guy. He always had stories, and they were interesting. He was also shy. I’m scared of your mother. He said. Not even my brothers. I laughed. He met my mother, she was sitting at the rest room, knitting her bag. You look familiar, who is your father. Asked my mother. He died a long ago, he is Vusi Gule. He answered. She held her hands feel free my boy, Bestie give him something to eat. She said. He said he was full. We sat next to the pool. Your teeth are well aligned like mine, the occlusion is exactly like mine. I said. You should ask you mother maybe we are twins. He replied.

Mpilo was from an average family, most of the students while we were still at school were self-sponsored, they afforded to have everything, and some of them were from rich families. But with Mpilo that wasn’t the case he was government sponsored and some of his school mates used to mock him. They gave him a nick name, they said he was Brown jacket guy. He used to wear the brown jacket when it is cold. He told me he was from a family of three. They were taking care of themselves, because their parents died of HIV\AIDS. Their younger sister, was at a boarding school which was made for orphans and vulnerable children.

I also wanted to apologize to him about Cobo’s behavior. He said he called him and told him to stay away from me. He heard rumors, people were telling him that we were dating. He did the mistake of listening to people and letting them influence him. Mpilo said he forgave him, he also said some of the things Cobo said were unpleasant, but he chose to ignore everything. He said the main reason he came was that he wanted to tell me he was going to Taiwan, he got a scholarship for doing his PHD. So you leaving, without even trying to work for a year?? Who is going to take care of your siblings? I asked. He rolled his hands over and said Aunt Lindi agreed to take care of them, beside that I’m no seeking this achievement for myself, I have their prosperity and progress in my mind. My ambitions are broad enough to include their aspirations and needs. Okay I get you. I said.

I’m stressed someone told me, my real parents weren’t my biological parents. What’s stressing me was that I didn’t look like my father. Mpilo said remorsefully. Don’t let people stress and confuse you. People will always talk, and they make sure they say things that will confuse and hurt you. Your parents are yours, if they wanted to tell you, they would have done that. Don’t give people the chance to ruin your happiness. I said. "Sometimes the comments