Write It in the Hearts of Women: Tuhia Ki Te Ngkau O Ng Wahine
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Pourewa’s poetry exhibits self-honesty and self-reflection. She faces issues that many women find too painful or even embarrassing to discuss. Yet, she finds the courage to share her struggles, in turn helping others in similar situations.
A cry for sisterhood yearns to be heard so that a solitary voice may rise in unison. A pathway is lit, and a light-bearer rises out of the abyss to cry, “I am a survivor!”
Hinemoa Pourewa
Born into the guiding arms of Spirituality, she blossomed within the nurturing realms of hope, courage, and women whom believed in themselves. Through marriage she was embodied into a place of unbiased love, only to fall beneath the veil of struggle, and forced to face the demons that befell her husband and sway to wreck havoc upon her vulnerable family. She rose out of the ashes to protect her children as a Lioness protects her precious cubs. As an Early Childhood Educator, she understood the determination it took to succeed and place the plight of the innocent child above all else. Educated at Auckland University, Aotearoa/New Zealand, she battled through illness whilst determined to complete her Bachelor Degree of study. Eventually her journey drove her relentlessly forward to claim survival, and justify the uniqueness of individuality, confidence, and releaseing a complilation of self doubts that continuously threatened each footstep she bore. --- Hinemoa Pourewa / Simone Bennett captivated the hearts of the young through her teachings as an Early Childhood Educator. Gaining her Bachelor degree enabled her to express her understanding of the human spirit through the moral imagery of poetry, whilst accepting the challenging factors of dis-ease and the impact it laid out before her. Growing up in the dynamic cultural and spiritual aspects of New Zealand / Aotearoa, her self-discovery of survival repeatedly questioned the moral acceptance of failure, love and perseverance and the outstanding elements of the human spirit to survive. Hence she began to write.
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Write It in the Hearts of Women - Hinemoa Pourewa
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Balboa Press rev. date: 05/15/2020
Four voices spoke,
And their feet did tread.
I thank their wisdom
For the lives they led.
Moonbeam
I held a little moonbeam.
It danced upon my hand.
I wondered where it came from—
Perhaps a vast and distant land.
And then the thought quite struck me
This moonbeam, starlight bright,
Had come to grant me one last wish
As I turned out the light.
A promise of one thousand dreams,
Of hope and love combined.
A shimmering of time to come,
To share amongst mankind.
And then before my blinking eye,
This dust-light shining so
Joined an entourage of dazzling splendour
And whispered, Now you know.
To all of womankind
From the East, West,
North, and South,
Thank you for your voice.
Contents
Prologue: The Beginning
Questions of My Mind
Chapter One: Realms of Reality
Chapter Two: A Mask That Binds
Chapter Three: To Sacrifice My Children
Chapter Four: A Child’s Wrath
Chapter Five: A Creature of Fate
Chapter Six: Know Thyself
Chapter Seven: The Morepork Calls
Chapter Eight: Hold Fast to Your Dreams
Chapter Nine: A Child’s Dream Reborn
Chapter Ten: A Labyrinth of Thought
Chapter Eleven: Comfort in Distress
Chapter Twelve: To Live in the Playground
Chapter Thirteen: Blame Is Mine!
Chapter Fourteen: Remember (Epilogue
Index of Poems
Moonbeam
Trapped
Swallow My Tears
Impact Felt
Flower or Weed
Haunted Face
Surrender
Tales of Love
Alas
Rabbit Hole
A Child’s Wrath
A Mother’s Fury
Alone
Stand Up!
The Web We Weave
Daffodils
Whispers of Pain
Wild Wisps
Is This the End?
Carnival Ride
No Return
Tolerance
Forgotten Secrets
Lift Up Your Eyes
Hold Fast
Dreams
The Garden of Hope
Sweetened Breath
Peddlers’ Child
Fate Calls
Scarlet’s Beauty
Bushman’s Past Lands
Nature’s Spawn
Journey’s End
A Labyrinth of Thought
Solace
Breath
Conquering Fear
Walk the Seasons
Anxious
Soul Chaser
A Depleted Soul
Fallen
Nature’s Guise
Persistence
Remember
Sisterhood
The Beginning
This is not a story; it is a journey of self-preservation—an unjustifiable passage of a seeking mind, and perhaps an unveiling of clarity, reality, and survival. There are no therapeutic remedies hidden behind these written words, but these words do echo the touch of resilience, determination, and, above all, knowing.
I pass to you several pieces of a puzzle; they reflect remnants of a tattered existence of womanhood. You will find her wanting and clawing to hold the remaining last image of herself. Each piece portrays a moment of time. Together, these pieces will form scenarios of the emotional rollercoaster we call life—my life—as it was, as it has been, and, perhaps with your help, as it will become.
The portrayals laid out before you, these chapters of realities, are filled with love, loss, denial, grief, and an awakening of a dreamless existence.
Will you dare to journey with me?
Accept this gift, for within your hands, I still have hope.
Questions of My Mind
Am I a survivor? I breathe to live—do I also live to breathe? My answer still remains: I exist, therefore I am.
What is real in our minds? Is it the power of thought or the strength of will, and who decides?
So many of us have become encased in our earthly desires that perhaps we have forgotten what existence truly holds for us. Perhaps it is not until a catastrophic event occurs, rupturing our pathway and awakening us from our dreamlike state, that we become aware of our humbling existence and succumb to the ramblings of emotional turmoil.
The emotional onslaught of our heart provides many experiences; the harshest of all is the overwhelming feeling of pain. This powerful emotion embodies itself around love, anguish, torment, joy, passion, desire, and hope. They are all expressed through our heart and soul.
How can one body express so much life?
you may well ask, but the answer remains, And yet it does.
One emotion rampages into the next. Be aware that just one experience of existence has the ability to cause such climactic changes that it can establish itself as the building blocks of our life, forever flowing as the river flows, channelling new paths, finding new visions, and succumbing to or overriding the debris that lies before us—who we are, who we have become, why we have become this way.
Dreams of a child are transformed into reality, or tarnished by lost opportunities, misguided judgements, and untouched longing.
Courage, confidence, regret—three dimensions of our lives are all entwined, guiding our destiny.
Come. Come with me. Take my hand, for together, we shall discover the truth: I am a survivor!
Chapter One
Realms of Reality
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Mother is torn between love and war.
Father is blinded by drink and damaged flaw.
Young son sees all and thinks quietly within.
Little daughter is faithful and bears no sin.
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Pizza—let us share this morsel of convenience, an effortless, unchallenging article of uninterrupted pleasure. Ham and pineapple, or perhaps pepperoni? One phone call, and food almost instantaneously appears at your door with a smile and invites smells that stimulate and seductively encapsulate your senses. Such an effortless task. Could you, in your wildest dreams, ever imagine that the simplest pleasure of ordering your pizza would cause utterly ugly, inconceivable self-destruction of the already-unbalanced, crumbling, and clinging tatters of your normal life?
What?
you utter. How? Why?
I hear your voice surrender the ultimate cry: I don’t understand.
Then listen closely, dear one, and understand this. Anger, anger fuelled by alcohol, enraged by heaving writhing dragons, circling relentlessly in an already-confused, unwilling mind drowning in self-denial. A mind rotting within its casing, seeking vengeance and justice at the cruel realities of nature, cries out in pity and despair, Why me? Why me?
A mind, flailing desperately to grasp at the lasts shreds of reasoning, finds only an endless chasm of confusion and lost hope.
But who is this pitiful creature?
you ask.
My husband, my husband
is my lament.
And so that mind that saw nothing but lost hope dwelt in that dank hole of hopelessness and plundered on the pizza, devouring and spitting out the last ray of joy, my joy; the last tear of love, my love. I am mentally beaten down. I am weary. Where has my hope gone? Where am I?
Trapped
I am trapped in the middle of time,
Trapped in the middle, and no place to run.
I don’t want to do this, but there is no escape.
I’ll be courageous and exist in this place.
I’ll live in the corridor and feel no despair.
I’ll meet the dawn’s moon and greet the night air.
Clouds are forever, and winds shall not cease.
I am eternal, and yet I seek peace.
Alone in my bed, I see all that has been.
Alone in my head, I’m fearless