Confessions of a Bleeding Mind
By Simple Addi
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Simple Addi
At age twenty-two, I was diagnosed with alcoholism and schizo affective disorder. I lost a lot as most do in life with or without these. I started writing about things in my life and in my mind. This is a collection of those.
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Confessions of a Bleeding Mind - Simple Addi
Confessions of a Bleeding Mind
Simple Addi
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© 2016 by Elliott Knick.
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Contents
Confessions of a bleeding mind
Round 2
Round 3
Thought 1
Thought 2
Thought 3
Thought 4
Thought 5
Thought 6
Thought 7
Thought 8
Thought 9
Thought 10
Thought 11
Thought 12
Thought 13
Thought 14
Thought 15
Thought 16
Thought 17
The Blood Has Pooled
A Foot Print
The Blood Splatter
A Hand Print
Bloody Knife
Broken Mirror
Ink Covered Soul
Let the ink flow
The Pen Glides on the Page
EK’s Chronicles
EK’s Perspectives
Money
Tragedy
Purpose
Love
Invisible
Psyche Ward
Reminisce
Work
Good Times
Car Ride
Time
Confessions of a bleeding mind
I know people around me don’t like this
But I feel so fucking righteous
Throw my hands onto my chest
To feel my lungs compress
Please don’t say to me that you care
Cuz those words just turn to air
And I can hardly feel the breeze
Why’s it so god damn hard to breathe
Bump bump how my heart should beat
But here my heart is stuck to freeze
And my lungs keep pumpin please believe
These words come not from me
But a past life and who I used to be
So sit and watch me bleed
And notice this while you read
How my heart and soul come out this pen
But hey than again
I guess I’m just outta luck
Cuz my heart just got stuck
Watchin my soul turn to ash
And just like time this all will pass
My sanity’s slowly slippin
What the hell am I missin
Is it love? Nope that’s just a lie
Sometimes makes me wanna cry
But I’m all out of tears
Sat down and faced all my fears
But didn’t help just made the pain a little deeper
And the hill I’m on a little bit steeper
Confessions of a bleeding mind
Believe me we’re not hard to find
Just take a look around
And listen for our sound
Thoughts snowball to a vision
Just sit down and listen
Cuz I don’t have 20/20
And sometimes the pictures get fuzzy
They blur a little more each day
I don’t know what else to say
Except they’ve finally beat me
And soon I’ll be lost completely
But wait a minute oh no
I thought I was the brightest soul
I can’t fall through the floor
Into a place no one should go
Please take these thoughts away from me
Give me one more peaceful sleep
But you know I’m gonna lose
No matter what I choose
My destiny’s to die
So please don’t ever cry
That would be one more failure
And my lists already too long to tell ya
So please read my words
And understand that I’m cursed
It’s no one’s fault but mine
And I can take the pain its fine
So knock me down 1 more time
Go ahead and hit me till I bleed
But it’s not my time to leave
So I’ll deal with it once again
Just me and this fucking pen
Round 2
Get these thoughts outta my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead
Hangin on by a thread
Lying in my bed
But it still feels like
Fallin from the roof to a steel spike
And I still might just recover from this mind set
But I do bet
That I’m gonna regret
Being alive and not takin the chance
To quit, but at a glance
It looks like I already have
Then my mind sags
To this bottomless pit
Of despair, oh shit
Maybe I’m already dead
And this is hell trapped in my head
Seems like I’ve lost grip of reality
And one more time man I’m brought to my knees
But then it dawned on me
Finally the clock ticks on me
And with one word I move the cosmos
And with one verse I know what I know
With one song I stop the time
But I’ll start the time
When I’m finished with my rhyme
And once I’m done
Don’t you worry I’ve just begun
To move the stars in my favor
But it’s takin too much labor
I’m gonna stop drinkin
It’s messin with my thinking
Got me doin things
Strange things
That make no sense to me
But it just might be
I found my x factor in women
I got a weakness my mind is swimming
Thoughts of two bodies shinin
Imagining the grinding
The power and passion of lust
Got me caught up
In my own head
Man look what they said
I knew it was all downhill
So I grabbed my sled and still
I guess I forgot the climb back
But luckily I brought my back pack
Full of paxil and seroquel
To pick me up if I should fall
My mom prayin please oh lord
Grant my son pardon from his flaws
Toss his story into the wind
Get a blank book and start again
Rewrite my pages
Have it told by sages
A great tale throughout the ages
But I’m ahead of myself
Sometimes I refuse the help
Cuz my mind is racin
And it’s got me pacin
The same three halls
All these white fucking walls
I trip slip and fall
Off the wagon again
No more happy calls
This is the life I’m livin in
My story soaked in sin
And placed on my conscience
Man this is fucking nonsense
Dreams of bleeding out
These thoughts keep creepin out
Takin their place in my head
While I lie up in bed
Daymares turn to nightmares
All the thoughts comin in pairs
And triplets
Every minute I mean shit
Visions of streams of blood
Fillin my bath tub
And as I gasp and struggle
Until the very last bubble
This thought occurred to me
Man this what’s got to be
Round 3
Get the fuck up
The time is now
Don’t be a bitch stand up
And I know how
Quit the bitchin and the groanin
And get these girls moanin
The intellect has exploded
Time to unload it
Unto the masses
And blow their brains out their asses
Cause my mind is quick
And my lyrics are sick
Too sick to spit