Question Marks

By Kashef Javeed

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I like many of you out there am not fearful of the answers that I am seeking. I like many of you out there will not just accept how things are. We need to question. We need to reason.

Like many of you out there
I need to explore
I need to feel
I need to sense
I need to know
I need to seek

I seek a riveting yet rational reason. I seek a profound yet purified truth. I seek a luring yet logical answer. I seek a boisterous yet believing reality.

Even the Almighty God encourages one to seek. He encourages us to question and reason.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Mar 29, 2016
• ISBN: 9781514475270

Kashef Javeed

Kashef Javeed is the author of 4 other books. His previous work includes Fading Hopes, Drops of Truth and 99 Expressions. His websites are www.99expressions.com and www.kashefjaveedbooks.com

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Kashef Javeed

Copyright © 2016 by Kashef Javeed.

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Rev. date: 03/24/2016

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TABLE OF CONTENTS

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

PREFACE

WHAT MADE ME?

AFTERMATH

WHAT DO YOU DO?

DID I DO IT ALL?

MY TORTURED SOUL

REPRODUCTION

FAMILY

7

DECIDED

MYSELF

GOD

WHY DON’T YOU LET ME BE?

REVERSAL OF FORTUNE

LEO

WHY DO I?

OWN VERSION

10

PACKAGED YET NAKED

WHAT IS BETTER?

WE AGREED

THE DEVIL IN ME

WORTHY

FACADE

FLUIDITY OR RIGIDITY?

LET IT ALL BE, WILL WE?

WHAT IF?

WHY DON’T I, WHY DO I?

INNOCENCE LOST

APART

CROSS OUT

PURE & EVERLASTING LOVE

HAVE WE OR HAVE WE NOT?

MY HEART, YOUR CALL

AN ILL-FATED HOUR, AN ILL-FATED DAY

BELIEF

DISTORTION OR DIVISION

WHAT HAVE I?

F@FF

I CAN, WILL I?

HAUNTED

I WANT TO BE

WHAT ARE WE DOING?

RUMOR HAS IT

DOES ANYTHING TRULY DIE?

WHAT AM I DOING THIS FOR?

WILL THERE BE?

IS THIS IT?

WHAT DO THEY COUNT FOR?

WHEN ONE RUNS OUT

EVENTUALITY

CONFUSION

WHEN YOU ARE ON A ROLL

WHEN TIME TAKES ITS TOLL

THINK & BELIEVE

THE CORNER

MY MAIN TAVERN

YET I STILL AM

STRANGLED OR FREE

I WONDER

CHANGE

AS SOON AS

A WALK IN WOODBRIDGE WOODS

I AM YOU

WHAT GOOD IS WAITING?

TANTALIZING TRUTHS, LURING LIES

WITHER

EXPLORE

SEE ME AS YOU LIKE

SACRED FOUL

LET’S CONTINUE PAINTING

NEO & PALEO

LEAVING WITH A HEAVY HEART

NULLIFIED IN NEW JERSEY

AVENEL ANGEL

FALLING IN LOVE

NOBODY

BELIEVE ME OR NOT

SPARKLE IN YOUR EYE

WALKING ON A TIGHT ROPE

AREN’T THERE TIMES?

AM I INDEBTED?

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FOR WHAT YOU ARE

FURY & FRENZY

IDOLATER

THOU

In memory of my late father

Javeed

For my mother

Zaheda

&

For the truest love of my life, my lovely daughter

Banafsheh

A special word for my late father’s younger brother! Hamed passed away in Tehran on January 18, 2016. He was the most cool-tempered and rational person I have ever come across in my life to date. Rest in peace!

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Some of you have praised and some of you have complained that why do I always have a long list of people to thank and acknowledge in every book. Let me set the record straight. I come from that school of thought that anyone and everyone you come across or spend time with in life leaves an impression. Now it’s my prerogative how I see the impression. I see light in every person I meet. We are all light. We all shine in one way or another. We glow in our own peculiar way. Of course, there is some darkness but I believe light overshadows the dark.

I try to explore

I seek light!

My Relatives

My supportive sister, Eram and her family! Eram you really are a garden in heaven, no wonder you were named after it. I wish all the best to you and your family. My buoyant brother Kamran, his wonderful wife and children! Kamran as the meaning suggests will be very successful in life. I’m sure of it!

I’d like to thank Qayyum and Abida for all the love, care and attention they gave me while I was in New Jersey.

I cannot thank my cousin Aftab enough. He has been there by my side all along, from when we were growing up. As the meaning of your name goes, you do indeed shine Aftab, just like the sun. A special word for your wife Wennie who is always so considerate and kind!

Ali jan, you are a gem. Had a ball with you in Los Angeles! Never laughed so much in the last so many years, day in day out! Looking forward to more laughs with you.

Darius my cousin, you are blessed. Follow your dreams. Trust me you’ll make it!

Thank you Khanum Neda for your hospitality and kindness!

Shireen, you really are sweet like your name. Thank you for being so understanding. Wish all the best for you, Najam and your family.

Fereidoun, needless to say you have a special place in my heart! I am so grateful for your generosity and love.

Atefeh, you represent everything your name means. You are indeed affection and love. We have always had a special bond and connection. I miss you!

Thank you Snober for being so considerate and caring!

I wish you and your family all the best Kanwal!

Nader Azizam, I miss your company. Hope to see you soon.

Merci, Ame Manije for remembering me in your prayers.

Marjan jan! Thank you for all your admiration. My love for Tara & your husband!

Katy joon wish you all the best and can’t wait to see you.

Imran Farooq, continue with the creative work.

Pooneh Keshavarzi. I wish you all the happiness in life!

Zohreh, I hope you found all the love and happiness you were looking for. God Bless!

Last but not the least, a special word for Mama Adeleh! You are truly missed.

My Friends

The last few years have been like a roller coaster for me in every sphere of my life. The best thing that came out was that I traveled half the globe and met so many new, interesting and wonderful people.

Ali Qadir, Nauman & Uzma, Zia & Ragheb, Sadaf Cheema, Faysal & Elvie, Bart & Sarah, Esfandyar & Mitra, Nasir & Atyrkul, Fernando & Evan, Arvin & Melli, Neil Ingham, Ali Ramadhan & Mouricho, Chris & Pardis, Mario & Lana, Ahsan Raza, Bob Cassie, Oscar Fooladi, Ghuloom Balooshi, John Macdonald & Linda, Gopal Singh, Dragan Majkic, Mark & Jaime, Zahid & Shameela, Imran & Ambreen, Rajesh & Sangeeta, Vanessa Ann, Jyoti Yadnik, Faisal & Komal, Peter & Anne, Peik Soderholm, Farhan, Fargham, Wayne de Jager, Khusrow Sangeladji, Shane & Jesse, Parham Beheshti, Johnson Soans, Brent Moore, Mike Kitchens, Kashif & Huma, Hamza Zubair, Ian Haughton, Asim Ali Khan, Nader Nazari, Hossein Massoumi, Tahiri, Rod Lancaster, Ben Peachey, Mohamed Sabri, Arif Mansoor, Kamal Khan, Faizan Ghani, Sherif Nessim, Shahid Malik, Camilla Gulnar, Amir Naghshineh, Asim Iqbal, Essa Yassin, Jawad Raja, Nadir Khan, Parag Khanna, Lawrence Miranda, Andy Riechert, Shahid Mirza, Ahmed Rizwan, Hassan Khan, Nuzhat Shoaib, Aashi Jabeen, Sadaf Nonari, Omer Arshed, Mir Farouq, Waquas Haider, Rana Samir, Rui Antunes, Ghassan Aboughazaleh, Saad Khan, Umer Lodhi, Shail Kamini, Jimmy Cherian.

Amna Ahmed you are Amazing with your support. It’s always an A++ associated with you. May God bless you and your family!

My utmost gratitude to Carlos & Maria Diaz who treated me like their own son in Miami!

Here’s to a good soul in Miami called Mark Henson. Miss you brother!

Rosemary Pearl thank you for lifting me up, motivating me and inspiring me!

Some people are in sync with you. People like Nosheen Saeed, Sepideh Sarrafpour, Riaz Khan, Razia Khan, Tanveer Kaan & Rick Oconnor. I’ve never met anyone one of them.

Yet I feel we have a lot in common. Remember the good old days when one had pen pals. You are my electronic pen pals!

I met some amazing people in New Jersey in such a short span of time who made me feel at home. The friendship and love that they all extended will remain with me forever. Kevin Mal,