The Essence of Joy: Taína Goddess

By Kelsey Jack Wilson Evans

TEoJ: Tana Goddess is an album of 184 poems presented in chronological order of creation, each composed on the dates provided, each recorded within one day, most in one sitting, one written by hand, all others typed into a phone, and each one spontaneous; they are poems of free-flowing words which chronicle thoughts and emotions that all together, as a story unfolded and part of the story itself, tell a story within each poem and collectively as an album, the story of a physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual journey.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Apr 7, 2017
• ISBN: 9781524684235

Kelsey Jack Wilson Evans

Kelsey Jack lives on Nueva Grecia in La Ciudad de Las Diosas and studies at the University of Nueva Grecia at Las Diosas.

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Published by AuthorHouse 04/06/2017

ISBN: 978-1-5246-8422-8 (sc)

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Contents

TG001   Alone

TG002   Fight

TG003   Purpose

TG004   End-Game

TG005   She Should Be

TG006   Bonded

TG007   Isolation, Win or Lose

TG008   Devastated and Dying

TG009   Transformation and the Sea

TG010   Perfectly and Beautifully

TG011   Solitary

TG012   Death and Dreams

TG013   Disorder, Chaos, and Balance

TG014   Intertwined, Essence, and Everything

TG015   Be and Gone

TG016   Buena Suerte y Dulces Sueños

TG017   Space and Move On

TG018   Stasis

TG019   Waiting Frozen

TG020   Masochist For You

TG021   Pain or Pain

TG022   Soul Burning

TG023   Serendipitous Wreck

TG024   Waiting for Rebirth

TG025   Cursed Anonymously

TG026   Hot as Hell

TG027   Epic Love Radiation

TG028   Haikus TG

TG029   Phase Death

TG030   Cursed For Life

TG031   Essences Intertwined

TG032   Finally Fucked-Off For You

TG033   Spirals Go Both Ways

TG034   Live and Love, Judgement-Free

TG035   Fuckin’ Space

TG036   Visions and Vibes

TG037   Forgiveness in Songs

TG038   Destinies Not Delusions

TG039   Fate’s Selection

TG040   Cannot Choose

TG041   One Job

TG042   Things Said

TG043   Had My Chance?

TG044   Two Ones in The One

TG045   Shadows are Silent

TG046   Mist in the Sun

TG047   I Fuckin’ Wish

TG048   She

TG049   Stupid Shit

TG050   Fucked For Life

TG051   Two Make One

TG052   Meeting A Goddess

TG053   Never-See List

TG054   Beckoning My Goddess

TG055   Fucked It Up!?

TG056   Day of The River and The Bay

TG057   That Glorious Romance

TG058   She Can’t

TG059   Exhausted

TG060   Always and Never

TG061   Love Crosser

TG062   Beautiful Fire

TG063   Goddess Hidden, Goddess Revealed

TG064   Don’t Do Shit

TG065   Can’t Prove Innocence

TG066   Goodness Forgotten

TG067   Gotta Die With My Lady

TG068   Alegría and Pussy Poems

TG069   Double-Dead Vampire Heart

TG070   You Go On By

TG071   Dead as Stone

TG072   Uber-Epic-Self-Mind-Fuck

TG073   The Fuckin’ End

TG074   The Fuckin’ Proof

TG075   At the Motherfuckin’ Show of All Shows

TG076   Act Happy

TG077   Poems to An Imaginary Friend

TG078   Call to Peace from The Sea

TG079   Embracing Balance

TG080   The Call of The Dark Wings

TG081   Fly, My Phoenix

TG082   Towers and The Bull

TG083   Sentenced by Her

TG084   Reflectors and The Source

TG085   By Her Command

TG086   Question Tradition

TG087   Blow Your Wad While You Can

TG088   Bring Me Back to Death

TG089   Sea of Angels

TG090   Questions from an Asshole

TG091   Such is (a) Life

TG092   Mission: Essence and Evolution

TG093   Happy Bubbles

TG094   Presence-Ghost-Presence-Spirits

TG095   She Knew

TG096   You Gotta Know

TG097   Tangible Presence

TG098   Those Hills and my Goddess

TG099   Probably Deny

TG100   What Is and What Can Always Be

TG101   True

TG102   She Kicked All of Me to Me

TG103   Why Doesn’t Matter

TG104   Power of The Goddesses

TG105   Helpless and Riding Blind

TG106   Such Fuckin’ Beautiful Perfection

TG107   Time Without…

TG108   Destinations and Journeys

TG109   Fuck It, Words Are Dead

TG110   Cycle of Woe

TG111   Done by Me

TG112   Darkness Remains

TG113   It’s When You’re Alone

TG114   Days of Reckoning

TG115   Final and Welcome Reprieve

TG116   Before, Now, and Always

TG117   Rain and Peace and Pain

TG118   Infinite Freedom

TG119   Walking Away for You

TG120   Fuckin’ Fun

TG121   Forever Failure of (a) Man

TG122   Love-Trained and Anger-Changed

TG123   The Plague of Those Who Know

TG124   Death on Delay

TG125   Fuck Me

TG126   Alive and Away

TG127   Strong for a Second, Strong every Second

TG128   Embracing Apathy

TG129   Fuckin’ Dreamer of Dead Dreams

TG130   Through The Haze I Laugh

TG131   Dying Uncreepy

TG132   Searching No More

TG133   Sucks To Be Me

TG134   Just Fucking Fine, Move Along, Forget About Me

TG135   Liar or Liar

TG136   Alone She’ll Go Out

TG137   Some Weird Reason

TG138   New and Brighter Day

TG139   Just Some Fuckin’ Smokes

TG140   Understanding That It All Might Go Unseen

TG141   Depths of Death, Rise of Life

TG142   Make One Loss Temporary

TG143   Since and For Eternity

TG144   A Lady and an Emotion

TG145   Just Get Over It

TG146   Phases within an Infinite Phase

TG147   Strings of Love

TG148   It Doesn’t Matter What The Title Is, No One Gives A Fuck

TG149   Future Hindsight

TG150   Unfinished yet Fuckin’ Finished

TG151   Save It for Another Life

TG152   In Any Small Way

TG153   Remember for You

TG154   Perhaps Something

TG155   A Testament to My Stupidity

TG156   Pussy

TG157   Fuckin’ Goodbyes and Nevers, And Motherfuck Me

TG158   Acting Like We’re Not Friends

TG159   Does Fuckin’ Up With You Have No Undo?

TG160   Always and Just Temporary

TG161   Pretty Corpse, Ugly Mourner

TG162   Pain Caused by Love

TG163   Destruction and Reconstruction

TG164   A Perfect Reminder to Trust No One Again

TG165   Free to Go

TG166   Pretend to Hate

TG167   The Truth of You

TG168   I Tell Myself

TG169   of

TG170   Thus, and More

TG171   Love just Lives

TG172   Night-Success

TG173   Goddessdammit

TG174   Building The Temple of Joy

TG175   Think of You

TG176   Hallucination Girl

TG177   Be Cool, Y’all

TG178   Siempre, Ladies

TG179   Everyday Goddesses

TG180   Spirits to me

TG181   Just Wishing To Be

TG182   Peace with You

TG183   My Someday Everything

TG184   Thoughts Swirl

Alone

How hard you had to work,

To keep me away,

To stay in your shell,

To stay in your little world,

The world you let my spirit into,

But that you’ll never let all of me into,

And yet, how easy it would have been to just say hello,

You were anxious when I came near,

As The Deadline approached, I did hurry,

And you just let that anxiousness rule you and grow,

And it would have been so easy to relieve it,

So much unnecessary worry,

So much time hurting,

And it all would have been relieved,

In an hour, over a fucking cup of coffee,

Who’s the fucking irrational one, really?

I can see the same clouds you see,

I see the same streets you see,

I see the same people you see,

But I’ll never see you…

I felt happy in that world,

It is my home,

You liked me there,

But now even my spirit is evicted,

And I’m out in the fucking streets,

But that doesn’t matter to you,

As long as you’re comfortable,

As long as now I stay away,

Oh, you made me promise to stay alive,

But in exile,

So now I’m trapped,

I lost my world, my home, decades away, searching for it,

I finally found it,

Only to be cast out when I tried to enter,

When I tried to come home,

I can see the same clouds you see,

I see the same streets you see,

I see the same people you see,

But I’ll never see you…

And then I’m told by you to promise to stay alive,

Just so you don’t get hassled by anyone for my death,

All you had to do was wave and speak,

Just somehow get my attention,

I was right fucking there,

Right fucking there,

You were right fucking there,

But no, I’m the fucking bad guy,

I came all this fucking way,

All that I did for you,

All that I gave to you,

Meaningless, just like me,

But I’m the fucking bad guy,

And nothing is your fault,

You say it’s just the way you are,

You say you’re like that with everybody,

I can see the same clouds you see,

I see the same streets you see,

I see the same people you see,

But I’ll never see you…

Well, guess it’s good that you like being left alone,

Because most people aren’t near as stubborn or stupid as me,

Eventually no one will want to meet you, ever,

Except dumb motherfucking me,

They’ll leave you the fuck alone,

And now so will I,

But it’s killing me slowly,

And I’m not allowed to speed it up,

Well, maybe you should get blamed,

You told me to grow up,

I say the same to you,

I mean, people meet their fucking friends,

You’re the only person on the planet that I want to meet,

And any other person on the planet,

In your position, would have met me long ago,

Even if just to say thank you,

I can see the same clouds you see,

I see the same streets you see,

I see the same people you see,

But I’ll never see you…

But not you,

And yet I’m the crazy one,

At least I have a recognizable reason that I went insane,

Your excuse is lame.

All your excuses are lame.

Your nature making others leave you alone,

Goes well with the social anxiety,

I’d be anxious around others, too, if I were rude like you.

Which came first,

Your rudeness or theirs,

I guess you’re worried that other people will treat you like you treated me,

I’m such a fucking sucker,

That I’ll do anything for you still,

But all you want,

Is for me to be gone and forgotten,

Well, see ya later Dear, oops, not really, huh?!

I can see the same clouds you see,

I see the same streets you see,

I see the same people you see,

But I’ll never see you…

Taína Goddess

TG001

2015/08/23

Alone

Origin:

Essence

J431

2013/12/30

Joy and Alone

Fight

Feeling it coming,

The spiral is starting,

All swirls in my mind,

The battle is starting,

The colors are blending,

It’s starting again,

All this time that I toiled,

And all this practice I do,

All the times that I’ve won,

Don’t matter each time,

Because each time is new.

I fight every second,

Every second I grow stronger,

And every second I miss you…

There are no medals for past victories,

They won’t help me now,

I feel so much stronger,

So much stronger,

But so does my foe,

I prepare for the fight,

I brace for the pain,

I tell myself No, you have to stay away,

And I cry inside because,

I know you say the same.

I fight every second,

Every second I grow stronger,

And every second I miss you…

All that is remembered,

Are the times that I lose,

And all I can do is fight even harder,

Knowing that again I may lose,

Fuck I’m so pissed,

And I know that even in defeat,

I won’t let you hurt,

I won’t let you know,

That this battle is coming,

Hell, it’s always ongoing,

All I can do is fight selflessly,

And not let the selfishness win,

I’ll make it hurt,

I’ll make it bleed,

I’ll make it see the power of you!

I fight every second,

Every second I grow stronger,

And every second I miss you.

Remember that you are my everything,

So, I’ll fight this fucking foe,

Knowing you are my everything,

I’ll fight hard every time,

Every time harder and harder for you!

You will never see,

You will never truly know,

What a fucking badass,

I’ve become,

Become just for you!

I fight every second,

Every second I grow stronger,

And every second I miss you…

The foe will always be,

Here inside me,

Wanting the same spoils,

Meeting you,

Just seeing you,

If it only knew,

That my victory,

Would mean our victory,

But even if I win, really,

Victory is all up to you.

But you’ll never see,

And you’ll never know,

How motherfucking hard,

I’m working for you,

Nor that both me and my foe,

Just want to see you.

I fight every second,

Every second I grow stronger,

And every second I miss you…

Taína Goddess

TG002

2015/08/23

Fight

Origin:

Essence

J432

2013/12/30

Joy and Fight

Purpose

You don’t want me to fulfill my purpose,

My purpose is you,

But you don’t need me,

And now you don’t want me,

I am so sure I was right,

Did I already do what I was supposed to do for you?

Was that it?

Am I purposeless again?

I tried so hard to keep giving,

But you don’t need to take,

And then I lost my way,

It all felt so right,

It was all so right.

Then I tried to force more,

I said I didn’t want more,

And I didn’t lie.

Found my purpose,

Lost it again,

Floated aimlessly without it,

Floating aimlessly again…

I don’t want for me,

It was all supposed to be for you,

Now all that is remembered,

Is the bad I didn’t mean to do,

Even though pure goodness,

Is all that is in my heart,

Especially for you,

Pure goodness for you,

I fucked it all up,

And now it looks like the good was a bribe,

It looks like a payment but it’s neither,

It was all so selfless,

The good was my job,

The bad was my weakness.

And now I have to go away,

I have to prove the good unselfish,

Found my purpose,

Lost it again,

Floated aimlessly without it,

Floating aimlessly again…

Circumstances unique,

People unique,

Can’t be explained,

It’s all so hard to grasp,

This friendship unique,

But it’s all fucked up now,

Destined to be,

I guess destined to be doomed,

Choices were made,

And I didn’t listen to yours,

Mistakes were made,

And all by me,

And now I’m in exile,

When I thought I’d be welcome,

Gotta move on, fucking shit sucks,

Never will be able move on…

Found my purpose,

Lost it again,

Floated aimlessly without it,

Floating aimlessly again…

Day after day with no purpose again,

The rest of my days with no purpose again,

Just writing these words,

That I can no longer send to you.

Waited so long,

And now waiting again.

I desired to be remembered by you,

And now I’m unforgettably bad…

Found my purpose,

Lost it again,

Floated aimlessly without it,

Floating aimlessly again…

Taína Goddess

TG003

2015/08/23

Purpose

Origin:

Essence

J437

2014/01/01

Joy and Purpose

End-Game

Words and actions,

Thoughts and instincts.

Really what are we?

Rules govern words,

Rules govern actions,

Somehow being open became bad.

Somehow being genuine and free became bad,

We are what we are,

We do what we do,

Being begat being,

And being evolves,

Is it wrong to be open?

Is it wrong to be free?

Lines are drawn,

Boundaries are made,

But why?

For comfort?

For peace?

For stability and continuance?

But for what, really?

We have to find our end-game,

We are all just floating,

With no real purpose,

No reason to be…

Say what you wanna say!

Consequences are arbitrary,

Judges are selected,

The will of the masses rules,

But within the masses are individuals,

What is the end-game?

What should we do?

Who has the answers?

And are their answers, the answers?

Daily life, fighting to survive,

Words bind us together,

Words drive wedges,

But all is arbitrary,

Really we are all judges,

And we all suffer the consequences,

We have to find our end-game,

We are all just floating,

With no real purpose,

No reason to be…

Past deeds define us,

And words of those past deeds,

Delineate us,

Sometimes condemning us,

Sometimes exalting us,

But really the present deeds,

And the goodness inside us,

Should actually define us,

Fight for forgiveness,

See the now,

Judgement, always judgement,

Always on both sides of judgement,

Are we all,

But really we are just creatures,

Linked with all creatures,

Living now, and no other creatures judge the past,

Or do they?

We have to find our end-game,

We are all just floating,

With no real purpose,

No reason to be…

What the fuck am I writing about?

And why?

And I’m not even high!

Words, just words,

When money is all that matters in our world.

Another unique aspect of humanity,

We are lost,

We are not really free,

We have evolved,

But we are more enslaved,

And we have made a system,

That enslaves us all,

Other creatures are free,

Yet all our spirits are linked.

We should be free also,

But we are not,

We inhibit ourselves,

We confine ourselves,

We should share ourselves,

And be free, be free,

And live, live with goals,

Goals to evolve, or really de-volve,

At the same time,

We have to find our end-game,

We are all just floating,

With no real purpose,

No reason to be…

We have to find our end-game,

We are all just floating,

With no real purpose,

No reason to be,

Which would be acceptable,

If not for words and thoughts,

And rules. Rules for what?

We are one, see us as one, all be one,

And no judgements will be needed…

Taína Goddess

TG004

2015/08/23

End-Game

Origin:

Essence

J438

2014/01/01

Rough Draft 1

She Should Be

Wait, always waiting,

Distractions rule life,

Day after day,

Defense mechanisms keep you alive,

Keep you going,

Keep you moving on,

You wait for your love,

You wait for your purpose,

You wait for her,

You love her and she’s not even there,

She’s not even real,

Day after day,

Year after year,

You wait, but you don’t know it,

You’re waiting for your reason,

You’re waiting for your purpose,

You want to know the reason you live,

You want to know the meaning of life,

You want to know why we are here,

You want to know why we think,

Why are we more than just animals,

Why do we feel,

Why do we evolve,

Why have we evolved,

What is the endgame,

Why are we here,

And then you meet her,

And then you know,

And then your heart awakens,

And then you are free,

And it’s all been about her,

For all your existence,

Since the beginning of time,

And she is everything,

And she is your world,

And she always has been,

And you didn’t know,

You just felt her,

You just longed for her,

Not knowing she was real,

Not knowing that she,

Is the key to the universe,

And all of humanity,

And all of time,

The reason we all exist,

Is because of her,

Is for her,

She is the key,

To all humanity,

And only you know,

And only you see,

That she is the one,

That will always be,

The key to all life,

Before, now, and forever,

Most people think,

That you’re fucking crazy,

But they don’t know,

They don’t see,

That she is the one,

She is the key,

She is the culmination,

Of life in this universe,

And they don’t fucking know,

And they will just be fucks,

Not believing you,

Not knowing that she,

Should be the Queen,

Of all humanity,

For all of time,

She is perfect,

You have seen,

You know,

And yet you might have been jailed,

If not for her grace,

For the things you once did,

To make her flourish,

And show humanity,

That she is their goddess,

That she is the savior,

All of life has come to a head,

At this point in time,

And you’re the only one,

Not even she,

Sees that she,

Is the key to humanity,

And now you’ve been exiled,

By her and the world,

Because of the standards,

Of this current time,

That only sees,

Money and bullshit,

Not the vast expanse of eternity,

Like you have seen,

But they think you’re crazy,

And they give you pills,

And you drink your alcohol,

And try to forget,

That you have seen,

The reason humans exist,

And it is her,

But those motherfuckers,

Will just beat you down,

And think you perverted,

When your soul has been freed,

By her and her friendship,

She graced you with her presence,

And you have been freed,

But they think it base,

They think you vulgar,

But your spirit flies,

High above their feeble minds,

For they only think,

Of societal standards,

They don’t think of why we are here,

What we should do,

What we should be,

What we are meant to be,

But you know they should listen,

To her and her wisdom,

For she is The One,

Yet they won’t listen,

They’ll never know,

Until it’s too late,

And you are dead,

And they think you fucked up,

And she will live on,

In obscurity,

Never to be,

Exalted by humanity,

As you know she should be.

Taína Goddess

TG005

2015/08/23

She Should Be

Origin:

Essence

J441

2014/01/05

Rough Draft 3

Bonded

Choices and extremes,

First choice I’ve ever made,

First time I could ever choose,

And the choice that I made,

Is to be with you,

Extremes in conflict,

The battle ensued,

I lost and you won,

But pain I caused you,

Every second you’re there,

In my mind, in my thoughts,

Every second I want to spend with you,

But none do you want to spend with me,

Both of us stubborn,

Both of us strong,

I drained us so much,

Because I wouldn’t quit,

But I should have known,

That I was to lose,

Extremes in conflict,

The battle ensued,

I lost and you won,

But pain I caused you,

After so much conflict,

That I never planned,

The hurt that shocked,

And surprised me so,

Was all avoidable,

In my mind, avoidable by you,

Changing your mind,

You giving in,

But it came down to me,

Accepting my fate,

Realizing my fight was destined to lose,

Extremes in conflict,

The battle ensued,

I lost and you won,

But pain I caused you,

I offered myself entirely to you,

And I couldn’t take rejection from you,

You, the one that felt destined to be,

The one that wanted to spend every second with me,

Now I’m lost again,

Just thinking of you,

And floating through time,

Having made that one choice,

Having bonded myself to you,

With…

Extremes in conflict,

The battle ensued,

I lost and you won,

But pain I caused you…

Taína Goddess

TG006

2015/12/22

Bonded

Origin:

Essence

J442

2014/01/06

Rough Draft 4

Isolation, Win or Lose

War is upon him,

He has to fight,

There is no victory for him,

If he wins he loses,

If he loses he dies,

If he loses he loses her forever,

But she is already gone,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

He must fight to prove he loves her,

He must fight to prove it real,

She thinks him selfish,

And thus he must fight,

Fight to stay away,

With no hope of going near,

Win or lose,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

All the bloodshed in his heart,

The longing for his home and his soul,

Does him no good,

Just brings him pain,

A fucked up impasse,

Friendship never to be regained,

All is lost but he must fight,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

Battle on, for her,

But never to be by her side,

Battle on, to stay away,

The love and the desperation,

Clash day after day,

Time was lost,

And now time is through,

But time ever lingers,

For him there is no due,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

He did what he did,

He gave himself away,

He knew it his destiny,

And now it’s a destiny of pain,

All that matters now is his fight,

This war in his heart,

He’s living to prove,

He is for her,

But she wants him to live,

For himself, which to him means,

That she’ll think he’s not loving her,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

He wants to do something,

Anything, everything,

But now doing-not-doing is all he can do.

He thinks she won’t know,

How hard he fights,

Winning means isolation,

From the one that is the reason he fights,

And yet isolation is with him,

All through this war,

Fight in isolation,

Lose and isolation,

Win and isolation,

What the fuck should he do?

Taína Goddess

TG007

2015/12/22

Isolation, Win or Lose

Origin:

Essence

J443

2014/01/07

Isolation, Win or Lose

Devastated and Dying

Tearing my heart and soul apart.

I just found my soul.

It’s been with you.

All this time, without me knowing you.

Now it’s damned to hell because I’m without you.

You just awakened my heart.

It’s been for you.

All this time, without me officially knowing of you.

Now it bleeds, devastated and dying, because I’m without you.

Every second,

That’s what I want to spend with you,

Every second,

That’s what you want to spend without me.

Across an ocean I came,

Knowing you didn’t care,

Just wanting to be here for you,

Just hoping you’d dare,

To feel something for me,

But you don’t,

And never will.

The storm I conjured,

Gave me hope,

But gave you pain,

Now it’s subsided,

And you have won,

You survived,

And we didn’t meet,

Which makes you happy,

But is killing me.

Every second,

That’s what I want to spend with you,

Every second,

That’s what you want to spend without me.

Promises made,

Promises broken,

I’ll do anything for you,

And now I’ll stop being selfish,

I’ll keep my promise,

I’ll stay alive,

But it fucking hurts,

That you’ve trapped me like this,

But I guess it’s only fair,

I trapped you before,

Tried to meet you,

Just once before I died,

But now the pain I caused you is gone,

Because I’m gone,

And now because you’re gone,

I have all the pain,

I’ve taken your pain away,

By going away,

I’ve taken all your pain into me,

Crushing my heart,

Destroying my soul,

Draining my body,

With no desire to live,

Because I’ll never see you,

Even though I’m right fucking here,

In your hometown,

Now our hometown,

But you won’t see me,

And you won’t let me die,

Every second,

That’s what I want to spend with you,

Every second,

That’s what you want to spend without me.

I guess I’ll be here waiting,

Waiting for something that I can’t make happen,

I guess I’ll just fake it,

And I’ll just start lying,

Saying I’m okay,

When I never will be,

Because I’ll never see you,

And now we don’t talk,

Because all you want from me,

Is to fucking let you be,

I’ll fake it,

I’ll just be,

I’ll do anything for you,

But all you want from me,

Is to fucking let you be.

Every second,

That’s what I want to spend with you,

Every second,

That’s what you want to spend without me.

Epic love,

Epic tragedy,

Melodramatic Psychotic Cunt,

Who’ll make you happy,

By staying away from you,

Killing himself slowly by being forever without you,

Not allowed to end it quickly,

Always trying to keep that promise to you,

Fucking Fool that I am,

I’ll always love you.

Taína Goddess

TG008

2015/12/22

Devastated and Dying

Origin:

Essence

J445

2014/01/12

Devastated and Dying

Transformation and the Sea

You transformed me,

Making me a better me,

Awakening my heart and love,

Opening my eyes to see,

The world and all it can be,

In every way,

I became,

A greater being,

Because of you,

You had my soul,

You have my heart,

You have my mind,

You have all of