My Darkest Hour

By Wesley Sharpe

This book is a door way to inside my head through some of the most diffucult times of my life. What i felt like in those dark times strung out in poetry form.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Sep 9, 2015
• ISBN: 9781503573147

Wesley Sharpe

My life so far hasn't been the easisest. Weather it be because of my choices or the things out of my control. Now grant it i will say my life isn't the worst there is out there. Looking back on it now as i'm typing i can actually remeber a time when it seemed perfect to well me atleast. As we all know perfection doesn't existe sadly and i had to find that out the hard way and fast. Things started to fall apart really when i moved to Texas. My mom and dad got a divorce and right after that happened my dog i had since i was a baby passed around that same time so for a while i was dead inside and found it easier to hide my pain. A little after his death things settled with the devorce and honestly for a little while after that it was okay. Then i made the biggest regret of my life i shut off my dad for no real reason just seemed like it was taboo to speak about him with my mom or sisters. So i didn't and from there my mom kind of just what seemed to me stop caring. there really wheren't any rules unless you where me it seemed. it may have been that i just listened to the empty threats she made. As the years passed and i didn't talk to my father my sisters went down a path i didn't entirley agree with. After about 2 years when i was a juniour in highschool i started to talk to my father again and a few months later i moved out and in with him or to start living on my own. he travels for his job so i was basically living on my own trying to figure things out. It wasn't so bad until the lonely days started hitting. Still trying to get out of that even to this day. as i was moving out of my moms though she kind of hit some kind of nerve with me. as i was leaving she had gotten me a car for my 16th birthday and seemed to be threatening to take it away because i was moving out. I kept it through out the rest of highschool it wasn't till after i graduated that something snapped and i told her take it and the phone. After that i kind of just stayed away from my family all together. wrong choice on my part as you'll see through my writings. There have been other high points that i've chosen to leave out or not to mark mainly because of what this book is about. so please turn the page and see what all this and more has triggered in some one like me and to all those out there who have these feelings you are not alone.

Book preview

Chapter 1:00

Disappear

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t here.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear.

Walk away without looking back.

Let my memories fade to black.

Let no one know I was even here.

Oh how I wish for that.

How I want to cut away let life slip away.

Let this longing this pain fade away.

Can anyone see through this mask?

This pain that’s hidden deep down inside.

The reason why I keep thinking of this.

It comes in waves each one bigger than the last.

I think I’m about to drown.

Maybe today’s the day I finally fade away.

Chapter 0:59

To Blind To See

We run around living our little lives.

But does anyone know why?

This thing we call a life could it all be a lie?

Why don’t people wonder about these things?

Is it so hard or do we not want to see?

Such a strange thing we are.

Why can’t we see what’s in front of us?

Are our eyes blind, are our ears deaf,

Don’t you see this is just how it is.

Chapter 0:58

Alone

Never meant to be alone

Ends Up that way naturally

Never going to see the light never going to be happy

Always alone hoping to be with some one

Even in my dreams I’m always alone

It’s not that I wanted to be alone

It’s just become the life I live

Chapter 0:57

Change

My life is falling to pieces.

Look out here comes my past to destroy my future!

Look at my anger coming to kill