I Wish I Can: Inspiration Comes from Within, Infinity and Beyond.

By NISSANKARA RAO TARUN KRISHNA

This book is a collection of connections captured by those eyes of perception, whose reality changed that very day he decided to quit smoking cigarettes. He started smoking when he was in high school; since then smoking became his most sought-after addiction. He smoked day in and day out, but one fine day out of the blue moon, he thought, Hey! What if I quit smoking for a few days?
He set course for this journey of fifteen days, where he recorded every single day of his feelings in a diary. All his withdrawal symptoms, all his divergent emotions, all his passion, his incentive of inspiration from God, love, compassion, and observation stored in that Pandoras box of perspiration, where connectivity is established within the beauty and association is amongst that very beauty and this diary.
This diary worked as a charm for him, an ardent smoker once, who is now on his road to redemption. Not only smoking, but now his very perspective toward life has taken a turn; all he can see and visualize on the other side is happiness and happiness alone.
That guy is me, Tarun Krishna. This is my book, I Wish I Can.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Partridge Publishing India
• Release date: Jul 1, 2014
• ISBN: 9781482833522

NISSANKARA RAO TARUN KRISHNA

Author is a nineteen year old teenager, with a vision for this world looking right through his windows of perception, where observations are duly connected with passion. Hence he keeps asking himself numerous questions, an answer to all those questions is this book I WISH I CAN. This book is nothing but a collection of connections, that journey to the wilderness, established right amongst our presence. A fifteen day journey of life with a different perspective acquired alike a change in vision, journey of a nomad on the sands of time and addiction, where he battles it out on the grounds of affliction, withdrawal and abstinence. Observations were duly made and discernment was so crystal clear, fifteen days felt like almost a year. It all started falling into picture, the rapture of questions like, should I be exploring more space? Started taking its place right in my mind and I realized that life was just a little coin. There’s an other side to every situation, every demeaning condition, all we need is those eyes of perception, to see the truth and imbibe that reality. This diary of truth is all about that reality, which I imbibed during my fifteen day period of abstinence from smoking and recognized that only if we can connect to something bigger and better, an idea, a principle, a question that what is life without addictions, Is when we can start getting our answers.

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CONTENTS

Acknowledgement

Prologue

Addiction

Day 1

Day 2

My First Cigarette

Day 3

Apologize

Day 4

Immortality

Day 5

Day 6

Day 7

Day 8

Day 9

Day 10

Day 11

Day 12

Day 13

Connections

Day 14

Day 15

Death

This book is

dedicated to my parents

(Mr. N. Bhargava and Ms. N. Visalakshmi)

and my late aunt

(Late Ms. Rohini Dasari).

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

"T eamwork divides the task but multiplies the suc cess"

This book was no one man effort as well, it took a lot of dedication, hard work and recollection of various instances from my life. I am deeply indebted to my friends and parents for being that guiding light in my life, who showed me the right path to traverse on, and who provided me with that courage to make the right choices in my life, choices will always have their say whenever we make important life decisions. Here my life decision, was to quit smoking.

I don’t have enough words to thank my parents who were with me right by my side all the way through my journey, as they gave me that much needed moral support without which, writing this book would be impossible. My father always motivated me with his ever so wise words, and he repeatedly asked me to improvise on my writing skills as only a few people have this inborn talent to express their feelings on paper better than anywhere else.

I would like to thank my teachers as well, who have helped me mould my thinking in an optimistic manner and made me a better person by every passing day, teachers can only show you the way whereas we are the ones who are supposed to walk through it, I would like to thank all my teachers who have been there with me throughout my journey of shifting schools and cities, as their ideals somehow always stuck with me, with a special thanks to my teachers Shivani Roy and Smita Chandra who were with me when I was in my 8 grade and they were those first people who ever helped me install any sort of confidence into myself and helped me become an optimistic person as I am of today. Even my class teacher in 10 grade pandey sir, I still cannot remember his full name as I was too used to calling him with that name, as he was even my maths teacher, my Sanskrit sir as they were the people from whom I could learn what simplicity really is like, and my physics teacher in my high school (Murthy sir), his words always somehow helped me gain confidence even from that darkest corners of my heart, and so did the words of my teachers Sangam sir and TRS sir and A.K. Tiwary sir helped me in my journey of life where I could actually gain my attitude and a vision for life.

My sister Jahnavi always read my chapters and rectified wherever I could improve, she gave me so many ideas on which I could build up on my chapters at the later stages of my book, she has been the most sweetest person to me since the time I knew who she was, as she is the perfect sister any brother would want. She always guided me on the grounds of how I could add more stuff to my content, and she was the first person I contacted whenever I found myself confused about the matter in my book, and so did my sister Leheri helped me out with my book by providing a lot of moral support and by helping me build my confidence on my writing and in myself.

I would like to extend my gratitude to my friends Sahil Sanwal and Purvee Bhatia as I still remember the very first time I had ever shown any chapter of my book was to Purvee and she told me continue writing, and don’t stop at any cost hence forth I got that motivation to continue writing my book, every time I wrote a chapter I showed it to them and they always provided me with that much needed positive feedback which installed more confidence in me to write further, and hence in the end I discovered that I had almost finished my book thanks to their motivation. I would like to thank my other friends as well without whom the expressions in my book would have been just words as Anusha VN, Nimisha Bharadwaj, Nikita Moudgil, Annapoorna Mayya, Avantika Keshav, Deesha Umesh, Revati Tongaonkar, Chirag Katyal, Pawan Bhargav, Shreyas Raghavendra, Ramya Sirisha, Animesh Kumar Mishra, Ganesh Venugopal, Paritosh Ranganath, Rishika Radhakrishnan, Shreya Karunakaram, Harshita Mruthyunjay, Haseeb, Nitya Pydipati, and all my friends who have always told me how my chapters were and where I could improve.

My friends Nischay Chaudhary, Srikara Rohit Siddada, Karunakota Prannoy,

Nayeem Azhar, did the same thing for me, as they always motivated me by telling me how well I had expressed myself, and how I could improve my chapters by adding information which was invisible to that normal eye. They have been those people who have been there at all times to guide me whenever I needed sound advice.

I have no words to thank the internet with its vast source of information, as I kept browsing websites and I kept searching for content suitable enough for my book. Many instances and information have been quoted from the internet and its numerous websites.

Hence this book was completed thanks to the support provided by everyone including my publishers and Ann Minoza, as without their support and feedback I could have never written my book.

PROLOGUE

T his book is a diary entry where I have not only recorded my everyday feelings, but it even proves to be an insight into my perception of life, the beauty associated with life which I have discovered during my journey of quitting smoking and hence is accordingly reciprocated in my various chapters. As the days go by in my so called diary, each and every chapter proves to be a culminating experience that can change a person’s very perspective towards life. But one should not be mistaken to predicate it to be any factual encyclopedia, it is a diary which has much more than feelings and instances to it; it is a collection of different thoughts and ideals which can make a person realize, that there is so much more to life than what they would think of it to be. It is no normal facts and analysis about how harmful smoking can actually be (the different ways in which it can harm us), but instead I have tried to relate life and its beauty, how things going on around us, which go unnoticed majority of the times can make an impact upon us and even change, our very outlook towards life. How important can vision play a part in our lives as we see everything every time, but the only thing we forget is to observe and that’s where all that difference lies.

It was one of those stressful months of my exams where I smoked day in and day out, I would even do as

Reviews for I Wish I Can

[librarianryan · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Until this book, I had no idea that Seuss wrote other early readers under a different name Tho. LeStieg. LeSieg is Geisel backwards. He did this for books that he wrote, but did not illustrate. It’s a shame he didn’t illustrate this book. The illustrations are great, but I would love to see what Seuss would do. The story is fun, rhymes and BTobey did great illustrations. Just what a reader expects from Seuss.

[matthewbloome · Rating: 3 out of 5 stars]

This is typical Dr. Seuss style writing. Of course, it's from that collection he wrote as Theo LeSieg since he wasn't the illustrator, but the illustrator/cartoonist Barney Tobey does a pretty good job of bringing the words to life. The book is bit longer than a typical beginning reader of today, but the rhyme scheme is consistent throughout and the word choice stays pretty simple too. All in all, I liked the book. I think it pairs well with And to Think That I Saw it on Mulberry Street and If I Ran the Circus. Of course, that's just what I thought. The book is fun, and the pictures, despite being done by someone else, are plenty of fun as well.

[hreilly_16 · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

I liked this book! It follows a very imaginative little boy's discovery that he is fine just the way he is. He thinks about the benefits and drawbacks of having appendages like duck feet or a tail. This book stimulates the eye and imagination with its whimsical illustrations. Five stars!

[wramos_914775 · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Early reading.

[mgiffin_5 · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

THis book is about a little boy imagining what he could do if he had duck feet, deer antlers, a tail, a trunk, etc. Even though he would like all that he could do with duck feet, antlers, a tail, etc. he comes to realize the bad that would come out of it. In the end the boy decides that he just wants to be himself.

[canadian_down_under · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

I told myself when I started to catalogue my books that I would not include every book I ever read especially children's books but I could not resist this one.I would have been 4 years old when this book was published. I seem to remember we had a lot of Dr Seuss books but this is the only one I remember reading over and over.I don't have any kids but if I was going to have a children's book on my bookshelf, it would be this one.

[whitneyw_68 · Rating: 3 out of 5 stars]

The main character of this book has great reasoning skills because he wishes to have all of these animal characteristics but he then relizes he just wants to be himself.

[acwheeler · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

Good beginner book because it is easy to read, it rhymes, and keeps you involved! Teaches you the lesson that you will always want something you dont have and at the end of the day you need to be happy with what you look like.