Midnight Confessions: The World as Seen Through the Eyes of an Autistic Poet with Ms
By Joy Olree
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In Midnight Confessions, poet Joy Olree, a self-described autistic poet with MS, presents a collection of user-friendly verse reflecting on her experiences with the world and her readings and studies of the Bible. She offers her opinions on a wide range of topics and invites disagreement and discussion.
Midnight Confessions
In the twinkling of an eye they came, the memory snatchers.
First it was the short-term memories, then the medium ones.
As time went by, more memories seem to leave, but she never
forgot her God and she never did not pray. I put my hand on
her bed as she breathed her last breath. I prayed, Thank you,
Lord, for making it possible for me to be there.
As I sit here in the lighted room, the dark outside, I miss my
stepmom. Tomorrow is Christmas, a time of celebration, and I
think to myself, Do I have anything to celebrate? Most of my
family has died. I still have the children and the grandchildren.
I guess I am blessed, and is that not the way of life? Us older
folks die, and the young take our place, unless there is some
unforeseen unexpected tragedy.
But I have much to be thankful for this Christmas. See, because
of my decision to take care of my stepmom at the nursing home,
I now have a new set of friends. A nursing home full of friends.
Thank you, stepmom and God, for making this possible.
Merry Christmas and a happy New Year, humanity.
Joy Olree
Joy Olree is a Christian who writes poems and paints with acrylics on canvas using toothpicks. She has Asperger’s syndrome and MS and writes poetry based on the world as seen through her eyes. She currently lives in McKenzie, Tennessee.
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Midnight Confessions - Joy Olree
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Scripture taken from the King James Version of the Bible.
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Abbott Press rev. date: 09/25/2017
Contents
1, 2, 3 Life Is
3 Thoughts From My Heart
Human versus Godly
50 Shades Of Life
A Dogs Life
A Love Beyond
All Alone
And He Came
Chartered Flights Of Fantasy
Consider This
Despair
Don’t Blame It On Me
Empty Words
Echoes
Fancy This And Fancy That
Free
Hello
Here I sit
Hope in You
How Long
Humans wants versus Bible Truths
I Am That I Am
I Am
I Need God
An Unborn Angel
Slow Down
I Wait
Gravity And Ice
If Only
If This Isn’t Love
In God’ Hands
Is No Love Sacred
It’s Been A Long Time
Life Is Killing Me
My Redemption
Listen
Life Rolls On A Dime
Never land
Mamma
Memories
Midnight Fires
Midnight In The Garden
Midnight Is Come
Mom
My Heart Sings
My Sleeping Beauty
My Journey with MS
My Masterpiece
One Day When The Glory Comes
No Child Will Starve Because Of Me
Nothing Like Me
Now Is Not Forever
Only One
Overload To The Max
People Like Us
Remember Me
Overload
Pale Calm
Paradise
Poisonous Reasoning
Rain On Me
Rhythm Of The High Road
So Much For Care And Compassion
Seasons of Change
Sex And Serial Killers
Soft and Sweet
Style Mine Or Yours
The Announcer Said
The American
The destroyer
The Edge Of Sorrow
The Embrace Of Sin
The End
An Impossible Quest
The Ghetto
The Land Across
The Long Way
To Be Human
The One God
The Real Judge
The Strangers
The Roof Of The World
To Be Among
To Be Or Not to Be
To Write Salvation
UPS
Waiting For Death
We Are Our Own worst Enemy
Where Are You Now That I Need You
Where Is The Rest
Who I Am Seriously
Who What When Where
You Get What You Give
You’re the One
One Is All it Takes
Who I Am
A backup Life
To Be A Gypsy
A November Sky
As you lay dying
All The Way
At Odds With Me
Audrey
Baseline Folly
Broken Bells
By Grace And Understanding
Can’t They See
Could God Ever Do Something Bad to You
Creative Musings
Beyond The Light
Ever
Fear
Forbid Me Not Lord
Forward Arises
Friend
God, Is And Does What He Decrees
Happy Tears
Hearts Of Fear
Help Needed
Hold On Lord
Here I Sit 1
I am A Number
I’m Going to
If I could Turn Back Time
If I Die Before
If You Need
In A Drunken Haze
Insanity
It’s All Relative
Just a Moments Weakness
Just Can’t get Enough
Life Happens
Loose Caution
Lost Love
My Fairytale no 1, Another short story?
Never Say Never
Night
Nut Butter
Odd Joy
One Day
Out Of The silence
Politicians
Pressurized
Pretend care
Protect To Serve
Questions
Ring Them Bells
Scared, It’s Halloween
Scars of Healing
Sin And Sex
Stay Strong
Stay With Me
Steps
Temperature Of Light
Thanksgiving Is
The 30,000 to look like a Whore
The Artist
The Creature Me
The Edge Of Darkness
The Esteemed Mister Satan, That’s Devil To You
The Games That You Play
The Life Lived
The Light, 1
The Light
The Long Dusty Road
The Lost
The Number
The One True Perfect Love
The Sands Of Time
The Thousand Miles
To Gain Heaven
The Unpredictable Life, Mine, Yours, Everybody’s
Truth
The Work Of My Hands
The Yoke I carry
To Make A Deal
The Unknown Number
Wasted Life, Wasted Salvation
What Happens To Children
What I want
When Millie Smiles
Where Were You
Who Am I
With Life here Is Hope
Without You I Am Doomed
Words To Live By
Words
You Can’t fix Stupid
Your Mile
Say Something
A Dream Deferred
A Life’s Purpose
A Sinners Lament
And We Wait
Blinded sided By Truth
Brain Fog
Be Fruitful And Multiply
Caught Up In Life
Chosen Ways
Created Beauty
The Danger Of Disgust
Destiny
Empty Realities
Fifty shades Of Why
Frozen In Time
Given To Share
Future Generations
Healthy-Unhealthy, die Anyway
Human Existence
I am Not Martha Stewart
I Am 1
Identity Thieves, the New You
It’s What I Do
Kids and Cartoons
Life Can Not Be walked Away From
Life With Cats
Life’s Complications
Midnight Confessions
Move Away Jimmy Blue-Kiss This Thing Goodbye
MS Is Not Me
Musically Inclined
My Plight
One More Day
One Prayer Away
Political Soup
Promise Me
Rain And Funerals
Reason For My Life
Santa’s’ reindeer
Sticks And Stones, Words Can
Stronger
Supply And Demand
Sweet Talker
Texting And Driving
The Edge Of Tomorrow
The Game OF life
The Hanging Tree Is Not For Me
The Job
The Life Of Uncensored Fun
The Song Master
The Wall Walker
The Way Of Shadows
The Word For World
To Put God First
We Don’t Need Another Hero
What A Mess
Whinny Humans
Lost futures, Is It Over
Why Does Life Have To Be This Way?
A Broken Lie
A Good Life
A Life To Mold
A Season Of Color
Am I Broken?
Animals We Are, Animals We Die
Beauty in The Madness
Bills, Bill
Colors Of The World
Fairytales
Financial Mistakes
Foolish Creeds
Future Regrets
Hello it’s Me, God
Indians And Cowboys
It’s A Man’s World
Moments
My Life, Gods Soul
On Being Satisfied
Problems Are Me
Retirement
Rudeness
Scientist Say
Sins Mark
Social Interactions
The Beauty Of Light
The Call
The Chains Of A Ritual Christmas
The Completeness of a Complicated Life
The Created Mistake
The Ebb And Flow Of Life
The Know It All
The Man Who Lives In The House
The Nurse
The Night Of Sin
The Understanding Of A Sacrifice
The Tabloid
The Wide Road Of Destruction
The Winter Sky
Things Unseen
To cheat
To Win Or Lose, The Game Of Salvation
Trapped In Cold
What Are You Waiting For
What Do I Know?
Words Of Balance
Words Of Our Life
A Fairytale Gone Wrong
Disclosure
Emptiness OF A Sinful Life
From A Friend
It’s Who You are
Lassitude-Lazy
I Knows, He Knows, God Knows
Salvation’s Blood
Look What We’ve Started
Sick Of Sin
Sleeping Life
The Angel
The Dark Of My Despair
The Death Of A Life
The End
The Legend Of A Fall
Truth
What Were They Thinking?
About the Author
I dedicate this third book to God and his son Jesus Christ because if not for them I could not have written a word. I also dedicate this book to my 3 children and my late husband. They help me as much as they can. A special thanks to my daughter- in- law who takes out my garbage when my son, her husband forgets or else he just wants to put his responsibility on her.
I am an autistic poet with MS, but neither of these define who I am. I write, paint, whatever my MS allows me to do and that’s not much. Without God I could do nothing so I am grateful for his help. I say I paint but actually I use to paint with tooth picks. The paintings on this book are mine done with toothpicks. My MS has virtually stopped my painting for the present maybe forever. See I have tremors in my hands which makes them shake. It is a symptom of my MS. My neurologist prescribed me a medicine which might help calm them down but the medicine can cause suicidal thoughts which I have had and I don’t ever want again. I did therapy for about a year for my suicidal thoughts and they have been gone for 20 years so I will not take any medicine that might cause me to have these kind of thoughts again. My neurologist said it was a rare possibility that the medicine would cause these kind of thoughts but rare tends to be me. If anything says it hardly ever happens well guess what it happens to me. My life, no joke. Oh and I have PBA. Which means I sometimes laugh or cry uncontrollably at inappropriate times. Like laughing at a funeral or crying at a happy event. My neurologist says this is another symptom of my MS because MS causes brain damage and PBA is the result of any brain damage. He also said there is a medicine for this but it is very expensive and the internet says it can cause suicidal thoughts. What, is everything that might help me also might, cause me to want to kill myself. Thanks but no thanks. I told my neurologist if I laugh or cry uncontrollably at inappropriate times people will just have to tolerate it. I have tolerated it for 62 years and if it bothers others they can move on. I am what I am. Anyway God is here and will never leave me. I don’t get everything