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Ayad Gharbawi
Ayad Gharbawi graduated from Boston University in 1989 with an MA degree; he has had several books published in a variety of subjects. One of his best selling work is 'Conversations With Hitler And Stalin'. He lives in Surrey, England.
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Anatomist Poet - Ayad Gharbawi
© 2012 Ayad Gharbawi. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 11/14/2012
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Contents
A Portrait Of Life – Suicide of a Priest
A Love That Not Even Jesus Could Live With
A Madman’s Gesture
A Sailor’s Letter
A Vile ‘Human’
A Wife’s Pleas
A Word to My Tormentor
Abused Children
Accepting Yourself
Advice of a Sorrowful Woman
Advice of an Introvert
An Analysis of ‘Politics’
An Ancient Epitaph
An Awakening
Anatomy of What Life Is
Are You Going To Be Real With Yourself?
Baby Boy – If Only You Could See Me
Baby Boy
Baby Izzet
Battered Child’s Testimony
Begging Soul
Birth of Sorrow
Bitterness
Can I Breathe?
Blinded Eye
Certified Failure
Chains Mental
Chants of Ancient Wisdom
Christian Disciple
Circle of Evil
Circus of Life
Coming of Death
Confessions of a Professional Idiot – [Myself]
Confused Woman
Confused Madman Begging
Contradictions in Life
Conversations Betweeb a Sane Man and an Insane Woman
Croation Waitress
Cynical Bible
Cynicist Finally Speaks
Death is Freedom
Death of a Candle
Death of a Confident Man
Death of a Friend
Death of a Loser
Death Shall End Us All
Decadence Preverse
Depression
Destroyed Tombstone
Destructive Confusion
Devil’s Dream!
Die Within Your Life, and Therefrom Live
Discussin Your ‘Self’ With Your Self
Distant Wisdom
Do Not Despair
Do You Or Do You Not Understand?
Don’t Deny Me
Don’t Worry If You Should See Me
Dysfunctional Mind
Dysfunctioning Life
Emergency Case
Emotions of a Burdened Woman
Empty Human
End of Another Pointless Night
Enough, Please.
Essences I Feel
Evening’s Fragrance
Falling Into My Death
Fatal Flaws
Fatal Mistake
Feelings Of A Happy Woman
Feelings On Our Mortality
First World Lady Versus Third World Human
Sons of Adam
Baby Izzet
Cold Cave
For What It May Mean, May Not Be Clear To You
Forget Humanity
Frustrations
Fugitive From Injustice
Gala Awards for Pedophiles
Give Up Giving
God – Please Give Me Peace?
Hallowed Night
Handwritten Words of a Misguided Woman
Harvard Sqaure Days
Hatred
Hermit’s Words
Hope
Hopeful Soul
Hopeless Life
How Can I Understand That Which Is Undefined
Man Does Not Live by Bread Alone
How Come No One Noticed the Killers of Jesus?
How Many Times Do You Feel Empty?
How Will You Judge Yourself in Your Final Days?
Howls of an Insane Woman
Human Clashes
Humanity’s Proud Achievements
Humanity’s Vomit has Been Discussed Before
Humans are Hurtful Crumbs
Humans Hopeful, Though Wrecked
Hypocrite: Don’t You Feel Yet?
I am a Failure
I am a Sickening Life
I am People, Destructive and Inspiring
I Know I’m Killing Myself
I Need You Now St. Mary Magdalene
I Tried to Explain to Her
If an Empty Bowl or Plate Appeals for Itself
Incest Victim –
Ignorant Innocence
Is This Love and Life?
Is This Our Life?
It’s Not for You
It’s Over
I’ve Tattooed Your Soul on My Blood
Judas’ Last Passion Letter to Jesus
Killer Clown That Fooled You
Killing an Innocent Bird
Lady of the Secluded Ponds
Last Letter of a Convicted Man
Letter Found on Dead Woman
Life is a Series of Lies Till You Die
Letter From a Madman
Life of the Impossible
Life’s Concrete Knowledge
Lily Say Goodnight
Listen to Me: Stubborn Recluse
Listen to Me – I’m the Madman
Lives of Distressing Anarchy
Living in a Wilderness
Lonely Telephone
Longing to Break Free
Madness of Life Itself
Madness of Mind
Man at Odds With Himself
Memories of a Childhood
Mental Patient Writing
Moments of Life
Moon-Like Landscapes Before You
Murderer’s Repentance
My Baby Boy, Pidi
My Beloved Son
My Death
My Endless False Truths
My Exit That I Couldn’t Find
My Favourite Firing Squad
My Psychotic Fires
My Recurring Nightmare
Navigating the Waves of Our Life
No Escape From PANIC
No One Can Love You as I do, Dear Son
Ocean and Soul
Old Man Thinking
Our Odyssey
On Death Row
Panic Attacks are Fun
Panic Feeling
Panic
Passion Play
Passion
Passionate Evening
Pathetic Admission of a Failure
Peace Shall Come
Philosopher of Modern Art
Photograph That Caught It All
Portrait of a Life of a Selfish Theologian
Pressures On an Unsure Mind
The Pretender
Prostitute’s Dream
Pyramid Rock
Rain Hungers for the Thirsty Sand
Raped Woman’s Letter
Red-Green Room
Regrests of a Failure
Regrets
Rejoice
Sad of the Earth
Sad Woman
Savage is Life
Saying Goodnight
Self Oppression Against Yourself
Sermon of a Dying Man
Sermon of a Troubled Woman
Severe Despair of the Innocent Girl
Simple Declaration
Sin of Begging
Sins Beneath Vincent’s Starry Night
Smile of Reason
So Near, Yet So Far
Sons of Adam
Speak Out, if You Dare
Speaking Statue
Speech Of A Woman
Stalin’s Private Thoughts
Strange Thoughts
Streets of a Civilized City
Streets of Boston During University Days
Stubborn Recluse
Stupid of This Earth
Stupidities of Life – As We Practice It
Such is Earth
Sudden Slow Evening
Sudden Suicide
Suicidal Jack
Suicidal Lover
Suicide is Painless (1)
Suicide is Painless (2)
Suicide of a Woman
Suicide of a Young Woman
Suicide of an Intelligent Girl
Suicide
Suicide Statistics
Suicide’s Thought
Suspicious Soul
Sweating Statues
Sweet Remote Friendless Friend
Talking to a Suicidal Woman
The Advice of a Sage Woman
The Anonymous Letter Signed ‘Sarah’
The Atheist Priest
The Barren Skulls
The Conversation
The Dead Relationship
The Deer, the Dove, the Wolf and the Haunted Children
The Empty Human
The End
The Final Poem Man Will Write
The Great Pretender
The Helping Hand
The Inhuman Journey
The Moment of a Midnight
The Paranoid Logician
The Will
This Day is to be Repeated Tomorrow
This Worldly Life
Those Who Were Crowned, Yet They Never Knew
Thoughts of an Outcast
Threat of Having a Panic Attack
To Quantify Hurt
Too Late
Tortures of Every Twist Imaginable
Troubled Child
Truth? What ‘Truth’ Do You Speak Of?
Truths and Their Consequences
Truths Shall Not Render You to Weep
Trying to Make a Woman Understand Herself
Trying to Speak
Trying to Understand Answers
Twisted Dog
Twists of Your Ugliness
Tyrant
Unbalanced Woman Scribbling Her Thoughts
Unity
Unknown Saviour
Unknown Soldier
Vile ‘Human’
Victims Seeking Hope
Visions Beheld by Youth, Once
Wanderer
Wasted Lives
Wave a Last Farewell
We Are All Fare Too Insignificant
We Are All Prisoners in This Life
Welcome Me in Your Lives
Welcome to the Carnival of Humanity!
Welcome to the World
What a Pointless Life
What Did You Come Here For?
What Did You Feel Dad?
What Difference Does It Make?
What Exactly Does Matter?
What Exactly is Life?
What is Love to You?
What is the Value of Life?
What’s Panic?
When Elegance Weeps
When Panic Attacks You in the Midst of Night
When Will Peace of Mind Come?
When Your Inner Mind Talks to You and You Don’t Listen
Where Are You This June’s Final Night, Baby Boy?
Where Do You Think You Are Going?
Where Will You End Up?
Who Will Inform Me?
Who Will Save ‘Humanity’ From Itself?
Who Will Stand Meaningfully For Me?
Who’s Afraid of the Madwoman?
Who’s Lying to Whom?
Why Care About a Mirage?
Why Humans Are Repulsive
Why We Hate
Will Boredom Cease?
Will Peace Ever Be?
Will You Now Understand Me?
Wisdom’s Spirit is Trying to Speak to You
Woman Butchered
Woman Prophet
Woman Speaking the Truth
Womanhood List
Words of a Prostitute Imprisoned for Being Insane
Words of Advice From the Devil
Words of the Raped Woman
Words on Man’s Folly
Yet You Must Go On
Young Lady’s Verses
Your Truths That Hated Each Other
You’re Just Dividing Out the Empty Pieces
Death of Man
Feelings on Panic Attacks
Repeated Lives
A Portrait Of Life – Suicide of a Priest
Killers killing
Lovers loving
All are One
Praying to randomly chosen godless minds
That priest sacrificed himself, did you not hear?
Yes, call it suicide, if you want
In your brilliant mind
Did it matter really?
He was screaming silently
In his numbest depths
No one was remotely interested
The sounds of mental mutilations
Were too explicit to be reasonably viewed
And you know
He was never equipped for all this
That God
Dished out to him, dear Soul
For it was surely such a plate too full for
Such a gentle roving mind as his.
He tried to stand
And escape out
From these
Heated drenching waters
Idiotic smiles seducing his mania
That succeeded in expanding with such ferocious
Malignancy in his brain
Causing him to die in the manner that he did
Eyeless smiles; were they sincere or threatening?
He expected so much from this merry earth
But was instead seeing more and more
A crass dull future
Tell me then, Sir
Of your lurid poetry
What were you trying to say to us?
And do you think it did matter
Or, it didn’t matter?
What you ever said
Or what you ever did do
Self murdering priest
Did you destroy any of your listeners
Out for a measure of ‘fun’
Exactly as ruling Liars discussing and dictating their ‘truths’
On everyone else
Was that your theological world?
Was that the sum value and relevance of your priestly life?
62931.jpgA Love That Not Even Jesus Could Live With
Sweetness
My love for you
Was bitter in its essence
It was
All in all
Far too much
For you in its
Absurd Intensities
I guess
I know now
Even sincerest love may wash away
Seeking a breath and an escape from my persisting worries
What you felt for me
Was what?
Was it
A ‘Love’ that
Not even
His Holiness, Jesus could live with?
And so,
So many,
Out there
Will prefer crucifixions
That are endless
To a quiet and deeply adoring patience
That I had for you.
62926.jpgA Madman’s Gesture
In my bedrooms of a time I called yesterday
The evenings were excessively red I felt
The sunsets meant something final to me
A hand of adoration gestured meaningfully
One sentence expressed its intent to kill me
Where else did I paint these scenes of my life?
They were all my own experiences
I witnessed your conversations
The attempts
In instances hopeful to convince me of my bemused folly
I, in my turn, did try once or twice
To create
The hope of love
To fulfil you Strangers out there sitting
Glancing nowhere, yet you preach to me
Walking pointlessly, yet you admonish me
And you are all ultimately colliding against each other
Where do I exist?
I exist in my mind, safe and secure
I can be, I can express every emotion
You ask me repeatedly, Do you or do you not Love?
Yet, in loneliness’ laws
Who exactly is there
To love?
62932.jpgA Sailor’s Letter
Monument’s finale, as it ruts away
Requiem disguised, for an End has arrived
An act to move through, we must do so
So at last, the
Words crossing the land of shameless criminals
Have come to see Justice being applied
See the laughter of virgin tears being vindicated
Don’t you turn away again now, after all that you have done
Can’t you see these uncivil sinister trivialities you oppressed us with?
You said unto us, I’m so alive, I can feel every moment in this life!
But do not lie to me
No north, no south can now change these disturbed winds
Wither do they vanish, or wither do they rest?
None is relevant
Between us now
This moment defines
Your Existence’s expanses have come to their end
What grips your indefinable, unruly senses
Are copies of the same
Immaterial emotional fakery that so did chain us
Your mind, within and your pretending mind outside will be cast unto these waves
And all can see are your acts so feigning, so pretentious
Your bride of cruel visions will now experience the meals you forced us to eat
I see you are still Lying, trying to ignore your disrupted mind
Your infrastructure that was so burdensome to all of us peasant sailors
Is bearing its collapsing crashing weight on you
Between us now
Yearn for this now to end
For the now
Is the definition true
Of existence
The existing now moment
Is what your Self is
Confront your scavenging rootless eyes
Your Loneliness will have its nourishing roots fed
Your thousand detrimental deceptive rainbows that gave us ‘Hope’
Will now Mock your remaining sanity
So illusory
Upon their borrowed masks
We will now be effectively employed to
Entertain and torture you
So
Don’t take it all so seriously
Words you mentioned did once kill, didn’t you understand?
Ah! The symphonic movements of sincerity’s passions between us
In the stillest hours of solitude sigh
Have now come to maturity
And yet, within contexts of raging panting thoughts
Inside caged ears
Surely you knew the victory would be Ours, indeed?
So forget your desires, your needs essential now
Remember all others who you tortured
The fiery dead and the numb living who once
Had such interesting arguments on decency and morality
But are they not all soon to be one with you?
Yes, your decayed compass
Turns inside out
Betraying you
You lost your direction, and plunged yourself inside the fiercest storm
That churned your entire memories, the good and the bad, into a mosaic of madness
You either hear or you do not hear
And now you talk about ‘Love’ and ‘God’!
Laugh, friendless bastard, laugh seriously
Now you shall feel the serious reality of your own plays
Sweet human, how much longer did you think you could spin?
Why?
Couldn’t you do better?
Couldn’t you have been more compassionate?
Couldn’t you have been more understanding?
No?
So, be cast away Humanity!
Lie in your fragrant bowels of crimes
Lie to your sickening madness that loves butchering fanatically
Lie!
To your spastic shudders of evil emotions that reverberate within you
Giving you the spasmodic pleasures of intense pain
Ignore the polite, stern winds emerging, demanding truth, justice and peace!
For until
You will Bow your soul, Man,
Until you will bow your sanity to God above you;
Respond respectfully, understandably
And try to think truthfully
No peace of mind will ever Grace you.
62929.jpgA Vile ‘Human’
An evening
Supper’s Traitor sitting gleeful
Begins the eerie epochal moment
To willfully extinguish
A life’s fragile candle.
The incomprehensible scenes I see
In my silent eyes
Seemingly never ending
Wild expanses
Visions of Hurt, Sorrow and Loneliness.
Seeking any role to play
We turned for comfort
To the guided Fool
Look at the utter beauty of the liars
Around you
Spelling mistakes
That changed your brief life.
Do not lie about your mistakes
Listen to your deathly end
Coming so soon
Silence and Symphony
For all your moments
To ponder about.
And you are still acting, despised ‘human’
Acting beyond reason and its compassion
My God!
I shall soon meet you!
Ancient victim,
Still writing
Your scripts for idiotic lovers
I will tell you
Do not stand for the Remorse of Judas.
Forsaken children,
Abandoned by the vilest creatures Man has known
Tears of a Farewell
Are screaming
An endless Farewell
Ending this human life
And finally so.
62935.jpgA Wife’s Pleas
Come to please
This life
That so suffers
Her insides
Out:
In my life
That you love
I can only see
What truths
Can be so
Killing me.
62937.jpgA Word to My Tormentor
Let me go home
Please
In this night here
Stretched out
For all the lies
I’ve had to endure
My life has been
A Life of Deprivation
Whilst your life has been
A Life of Depravity
And you force me
To sit here and endure
You
My ears are stolen
My heart is ripped
While your unending words
Are punctuated
By stabbing knives
And by your repulsive
Broken Tongue.
62939.jpgAbused Children
You laugh
In your mind
Because they scream
Inside their intricate walls;
Sorrowful children
Who see pain
As their pillow -
I tell you
What an imagination can create
These unstructured and untamed monsters?
Children of orphans,
Crying silently for a penny
Who do you think will be your friend
In these bitter moments?
62941.jpgAccepting Yourself
When the evening
Cries out for its disunited heart
To be reasonable
Facing a blurred Truth
Wherein no emotional unity can ever exist
Yes, life is a Trial
From which concrete evidence is unacceptable
For all of you
The needy struggling ones and the unsupported anxious ones;
The dying ones and the flippant laughing ones
No one you love or hate
Wants ever to get to know you
Since you know nothing of yourself
And so, what exactly is there to learn?
And remember that in your own moments of brief ecstatic dawns
And euphoric twilights
Will all come to be forgotten by you
For all the voices and the words you loved to hear
They that whisper to you
Shall forever
Remain enclosed and buried.
You look so surprised!
Didn’t you know, dear friendless friend?
62943.jpgAdvice of a Sorrowful Woman
Sweet one
I know of you
Where an illness suddenly fatal called ‘Love’
Can be within all of us
You know
Aggrieved Hearts can and certainly will wither innocent tongues
For the Liars and the Compassionate ones
United; on and off
I am, I feel, I know
That is Who I am!
I guess
In your room, you lie
And who will be