The Skin of Trees: Volume I
By C.A.D.
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A collection of poems.
C.A.D.
On March 9, 1975, I was born with a silver pen in my hand. My parents raised me to appreciate the arts, writing, music (from classical to rock), painting, and drawing. At the age of five, I was already playing chess. In my earliest years, I won awards for my poetry and writing skills. I have been writing poetry since the age of nine. My parents divorced when I was eight. I won’t go into detail, but it was messy. Writing and drawing became my sane outlet. I also suffer from paranoid schizophrenia, severe depression, and severe anxiety. These diseases like to help me in my poetry. You will see examples of them in my work as in my first book, CALVIN 1208. You may laugh, but I also write through those who have passed on. Most of my work is attributed to them. It is my goal to write till I die and to reach those also afflicted with mental illness.
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CONTENTS
Acknowledgements
1,000 Miles
A Backwards Labor
A Breathless Vintage
A Dream Unglued
A False Derivative
A Fetal Elixir
A Forest Without Trees
A Frontal Lobe Eclipse
A Great Barrage
A Happy Medium
A Hell In Birth
A Home Called Isolation
A Homeless Soul Forgotten
A Hundred Pounds Of Dust
A Life Unfulfilled
A Little Blurred
A Little Pick Me Up
A Longing Dream
A Mediocre Infancy
A Mental Delicacy
A Mental Lock Down
A New Pieta
A New World
A Packaged Deal
A Paradox
A Poetic Neglect
A Process To Be Processed
A Real Life Car Wreck
A Severed Package
A Sickness Of A Kind
A Silent Kiss To Sub Consciousness
A Song Of Make -Believe
A Sound Reject
A Spilled Dream
A Supernatural Walk
A Tide Without An Ocean
A Tool, Blunt And Dull
A Traitor To The Verse
A Triumph Without Victory
A Warm Eternal Tomb
Abandoned
Abandonment
Abhor Me
Afflicted And Constricted
All Hope’s Lost
All I Am
All Is Scarce
All Smoke And Mirrors
All That Is Tangible
Always My Home
Ambivalence
An Empty Emotion
Anal Eyes
And Sunshine Catch His Face
Another Frequency
Another You
Antique
Arise O Abuse!
As We Reach Into The Abyss
Ashes Of Abuse
Avoid The Void Of The Paranoid
Azul
Back To Our Program
Ball And Chain
Battle Fatigue
Beautiful Sin
Because You Were Beautiful
Bed Hopper
Bedlam
Before It Even Started
Beggar
Beginnings
Best Artist Haunted
Blessed Are The Immortals
Blind, Deaf And Dumb
Blinded By Abuse
Bliss
Blister
Blisters In His Eyes
Blisters Of The Psyche
Books
Born In Abortion
Broke Down Soldier
Broken Engine
Broken Halo
Broken Laugh
Broken Mouths
Broken Parts Of Me
Broken Wrath
Bullets
Buried Alive
Bury Me Naked
Bury My Love
Cage
Carnage
Castrate My Thoughts
Celibacy Overcomes
Chemistry
Chow Down On Rhyme
Citizen Schizo Number One
Collateral
Collision
Color Blind
Comfort In The Ink
Compensation
Competition
Conception
Condition Red
Constellations I Have Built
Continuity
Cravings
Crumbs Of Ingenuity
Crying In Common Time
Cure Of Sadness
Damage And Damnation
Dancing In Cemeteries
Dark Ages
Deadline
Dean Of Prose
Death Be My Bride
Deciduous Soul
Delicately
Delusions And Illusions
Demolition
Deranged
Despicably
Destined To Woes
Destiny Lives There No More
Details Of My Destruction
Diamond Jubilee
Disease Is Just A Story
Distraction Of A Reaction
Don’t Spoil The Plot
Doubt Not
Doubt
Drenched With Desire
Dsm Iv-Play
Education Enough To Choke
Eight Miles High
Elegance And Diligence
Elementary And Rudimentary
Embossed Fears
Emotions In A Cast
Empathy Is The Milk
Emperor
Empty Stitches
Enter At Your Own Risk
Epiphany
Erase Me
Escape
Escaping Centuries
Eternal Madness
Everlast
Evolutionized
Execution
Existence Of One
False Desires
False Winds
Fantasies And Reality
Fast Machine
Feast Of Moods
Fences
Fermentation
Filled With Fantasy
Filled With Hell
Fine Line
Finite Creatures
First Place
First, Last And Only
Flavors
Flawed Humility
Flunking In Sanity
Followers Of Fate
Foreign To Our Breath
Forever Changed
Forever In Heartache
Forever It Will Last
Forever My Curse, Forever My Friends
Forever Soliloquies
Fork In The Road
Free Will
Freedom Of Speech
Freedom
Freehand Of Speech
From Mind To Quill
Frozen In Time
Full Of Mystique
Galaxies In My Hand
Galaxies
Galaxy Mobile Cars
Genius And Insanity
Giant Mountains
Go On Without Me
Golden Chariot
Hamlet In Disguise
Heart Of Fire
Heaven’s Delight
Heaven’s Reject
Heavy Boulders
Helen
Help Me Hide The Scars
Help Me Remember
Hemorrhage
Her Only Begotten
History. One On One
Hollow Followers
Home Is So Far Away
Hope Will Be My Blindfold
I Am All But The Worst
I Am Two Fish
I Break Anew
I Can’t Forget
I Couldn’t Save You
I Forget Myself Sometimes
I Have Written Colors
I Miss You In Tears
I Talk So Oft
I Threw You Heaven
I Will Cry No More Forever
I’d Rather Play
I’m On Recall
I’ve Grown Quite A Bit
Idiot’s Dream
Illegal Thinking
Impressions
In A Safe Without A Key
In Another Book
In His Kingdom
In Jars Of Joy
In The Pitch
Indentured Servant
Inflict On Us
Innocence Long Gone
Innocence So Benign
Insomnia
Instant Phonics
Intangible
Intellectuals
Intelligence Negligence
Invitations
Irony Come Undone
It’s Just A Game
It’s Money We Need
It’s Not You, It’s Me
Jack 1888
Journey Of Fate
Juice
Jungles
Junior To The First
Just A Chapter In Your Book
Just Like The Best
Just Soliloquies
Kiss The Stage
Kiss The Sun For Me
Knowledge Is Power Pure
Knowledge
Labels
Leave Me In My Play
Left To Thaw
Let Me Brood In My Stew
Letters
Like A Weed
Linda
Listen To Me
Little Bits Of Retrospect
Little Marks Of Wisdom
Little Mind Rockets
Little Quakes
Little Rhythms
Little Shards Of Hell
Little Specks
Little Tidbits Of Hell
Live For Me
Lock Down
Loco Motive
Lonely Bard
Lonely Gray Matter
Lonely Journey
Lose The Crutches
Lost In Loneliness
Lost In Regret
Lost In The Middle
Lost Words
Love Eternal
Love’s Greed
Love’s Undertaker
Lunacy In A Vacuum
There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.
-Ernest Hemingway
For my best friend,
Mommy
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
First of all, I would like to thank my Mommy for doing so much work putting my book together. She always found time to help me. Not just with the book, but in life. I love her so much.
Also, I would like to thank my Muse, Dr. Boss
Jill Rosenthal for feeding me words as we work together.
Last, but not least, I’d like to thank my friend and publishing consultant Mae Genson for always finding time for me and her belief in my work.
Thank you all!
1,000 MILES
I am the schizoid
Behind this nocturnal beauty mask.
I am null and void
What? When? Who? And why?
Don’t ask…
I can see beyond
Without binoculars.
I can sing a song.
I am of the vernacular. ..
Such a waste
To pour genius on.
Take a taste
In between songs. ..
Madness envelops me,
I will not lie.
It helps develop me
In the front of my mind. ..
Let’s take a radioactive walk. Dimensions will unfold.
Let’s make retroactive talk,
Retention to be told. ..
A burn, a scar,
I’m crucified on a greeting card.
A kiss, a smile,
Rectified I walk 1,000 miles.
A BACKWARDS LABOR
Pregnant with abuse.
Let the eggs hatch.
These have all been used.
Call for a fresher batch…
Ovum overflowed.
The sperm laughs.
Sit back and watch the show,
As the two cross paths…
A black and blue birth.
The abuse begins
From the man not of this Earth.
He sits back with a grin…
A backwards labor.
A baby born, his seed indeed.
Mother tried to savor,
A false baby with thoughts in need…
A poet born under a bad sign.
Nobody’s fault but mine.
A BREATHLESS VINTAGE
Words run down like a stream on a glacier’s peak.
The poet that I am releases ink,
To save the strong from the weak,
Before I am dead and extinct…
Burning the candle at both ends,
Got to write, ’tis my fate.
No time nor need for friends.
I’m full with words still on my plate…
Maggots squirm
Lost in the gray matter.
’Tis but a worm
Tossed in the batter…
A muscle ache. A heartbreak.
If the organs I could align,
They would speak to you in common time…
Relentless apprentice.
Listen to my vowels and attributes. A
breathless vintage,
Lining my grave with a trowel of retribution.
A DREAM UNGLUED
Watch your step
As I regress.
A little bit
Of loneliness…
I beg you to forget
What agony I’ve beset.
A copulation gone awry.
Mother, please don’t cry…
I gave my sins up for Christ,
So he too would not suffer.
A golden grin.
A perfect heist.
All that I am, is all can offer…
I sin as much as the others.
The dead never leave my sight.
Wherein as much, I too suffer.
In my head I receive what to write…
Some are good. Some are bad. Misunderstood, I’ve gone mad.
The leftovers of a dream unglued.
Ugly scenes. I see them too…
All in all
I heed their call,
And hope I don’t fall.
A FALSE DERIVATIVE
Solace is all in the attitude.
A false derivative.
We soar to higher altitudes
To keep from being primitive…
Writers are