Closed Confessions: Poems to Cope

By S. Khamenehi

These poems were written between the ages of 14-18. Poetry is a form of communication I use to convey the intense emotions that I am forced to deal with everyday, to fight the voices that tell me I am stupid and worthless. I write to survive.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Sep 5, 2012
• ISBN: 9781468553536

S. Khamenehi

S. Khamenehi began using poetry as an outlet from built up anger, frustration, sadness, rejection, abandonment, and anxiety.

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Contents

Closed Confessions

Armada

Manifesto of an Alien

Crossing

Red River

Out the Window

Drowning

All or Nothing

Sadness

Locked In

Dig Deep

Claustrophobia

Poison

Solitude

Life

Messages

Permanent

Tears

For You

Addiction

Scars on my Heart

Chloe

The Death

Falling

Chains

Secret Box

I Don’t Believe

The Closed Door

Coma

On My Way Home

Funeral Pyres

Tick Tock

Atomic Bombs

Introversion

Shut up

Truth

The Fall

As I Leave

Night Visions

Confusion: A State of Mind

Pass or Regret

Will it continue?

Lies

Harm to Others, Harm to Us

Collision

Firefly

Gone

Locked Doors

Silence

Opportunity

There are Memories

Everything is Going

to be Okay

The Dead

Apocalypse

Empathy is a curse

Let Go

Witch Hunt

Rejected by an Illusion

Fears of Impurity

My Inner Battle

Hypocrites

Troubled Angel

Surreal Dreams

Perfection

You Left Me Here

Freedom

Empty Promises

Wrecked

Smashed

Battles Lost, the War Won

Morning

Far From Home

How Will I Ever Know?

Necropolis

Believe

Forced Religion

Mea Culpa

Sundown

Shapeshifter

The Intention of Hiding

The Earth is Still

Condolences

Cultures Will Evanesce

Virgin Eyes

Depression

Life Lessons

Long Gone

Humanities

Exodus

Pain

Heaven Is Too Far Away

Life Goes On

The Life on the Streets

Luminous

Left Turn

Spin Around

Rhapsody in 13 Rubai’yats

Commencement

When It Rains on the River

Esperanza

Gravity

Black Cats

Prejudice

Maidenhood

Pandora’s Box

Freethinker

Myriad

Frailty

Masquerade

Eyes Have It

Static

Forbidden Fruit

Pact

World’s End

Zenith

Gargoyles

Reminiscent

The Bridge

Conspiracy

Dive

Relapse

Retrospective

Crematory

Hotel Suite Apparition

Glass

I Will Die

Consequential

I Must Be Dreaming

Dusk

Angst

Shadows

Untouched

The Hunt

Smoke

Sixth Extinction

Riches

Living Dead

Silver Mist

Voice

Anything but Human

Listen to the Wind

Here Comes the Storm

To Suffer

Want

Rebirth

Chance

Becoming

Phantasm

Edge

Bury Me

Keep Silent

Faces

Morning Star

Again

Without Reason

Somnambulist

All Things

Can’t Kill the Devil

Human Poison

Oppression?

Seething

Slip Away

Summer Nights

Closed Confessions

All this time, all this pain

My words have been unsaid

I feel like I’m going insane

I hope my gift isn’t dead

Compiled at last

To reveal the truth

But it has all gone by so fast

This writing process, in this coffee shop booth

These are my confessions

The truth behind the closed door

After all my turmoil and endless sessions

I have expressed these words from my core

Armada

There’s a hazard on every corner

That the neglectful government brought on

Send neophyte warriors to their deaths

For an erroneous inquisition

Civilians ravaged and incarcerated

An ineffective approach to rehabilitate

On foreign soil

The monotony of this war

Each alliance that became irrelevant

Diplomacy that repelled everyone

Hindered the decisiveness of congress

Debatable to say the least

The blatant confederacy has seceded

Clamorous for a valedictory speech

Something I know all to well

Lack of prudential judgment

Somehow has managed to devolve

The atrocity of it all

We’ve become a bellicose society

Send out pleas for an armistice

The people are ignored

Butchered our rights

Threw them to the ground

Stepped on by the Commander

Manifesto of an Alien

I’ve analyzed them

As an anthromorphous female

Salvaged the rest of this human life

To understand them while acting so stagy

And transcribe my experiences to fabricate some sort of intelligence

Usage of arbitrary and carnivorous actions

Variables of life to keep up their own morale

It’s hard to forecast their accomplishments

In their non-existent world

Keep a ferocious external look to survive

Charlatans flaunt their authority

Covering civilians in an avalanche of lies

Verbose and monotonous—their xenophobic missiles

Perjury, but they are not punished

It accumulates in my people

A monstrosity of erratic fears

Ruling in a mobocracy

Preaching obnoxious bullshit

Unbridled and yet invincible, above everyone, the law

Free to spew hate and infuriate others

I think I’ll classify them as assholes

There are many in this world I’ve been assigned to

We all knew it, but here’s the verification

Antic disparity

The perception of a foreigner

An aerial view of the world

Quarrelsome and negligent to their brothers

It seems so partisan and divided

When they could collaborate

But they shoot themselves in the foot

They jeopardize the well-being of humans

Its maniacal how self-absorbed they are

Ponderous to see how they are so phenomenally stupid

Yet they accelerate these acts

The worst fate imaginable

The outside looks serene

Green foliage and blue waters

But it’s all crumbling

Man is the worst threat to this world

The grisly reality

Crossing

The glacial sin, kneaded by the light

Long exhales and shallow inhales

Existing only corporeal

Awaiting the obsequies and the concord of death

There’s only loneliness in limbo

In the world of the living—an nonentity

Not yet in the world of the dead

Peerless and discorded on the border

No longer bodily

Lying in my hospital bed, impotent and indignant

The grim reaper is impartial, but this time

I want him to be altruistic towards me

Not merciless, leaving me morose

At least demise will be conclusive

And this longevity will be over

My whereabouts final in an instant

Instead of staying on a portal intangible

And on earth inambulate

Only there for juridical reasons

Negligence of the obsolescence of