Pickles, Poems, and Prayers
By Shawn Cook
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I remember when you
Were my only friend,
The thought, the feeling
That all was lost
Until I knelt down,
And touched that cross ...
At one time in his life, Shawn Cook became angry with God, lost all hope, and subsequently embarked on a journey of self-destruction that led him down paths he never could have imagined. With the intent of illustrating to others that there is always hope, no matter how dire the circumstances, Cook shares his first compilation of poetry that offers a glimpse into his twenty-plus-year quest for peace, acceptance, and love.
Cooks verse touches on many issues that highlight his internal struggles as he attempted to find happiness and fill the void within him. Through honest, sometimes heartbreaking reflections, Cook divulges how, when he was lost, broken, and at his wits end, he finally found his completeness in Jesus Christ.
Pickles, Poems, and Prayers shares one mans poetic journey of self-discovery as he climbs out of the darkness of despair to embrace hope, faith, love, and a new beginning.
Shawn Cook
Shawn Cook was always in search of something to complete him, until age forty when he finally found peace through his relationship with Jesus Christ. He grew up near Cedar Lake in rural Indiana, just a stone’s throw from the Michigan state line. Shawn currently lives in the country outside of Albion, Indiana.
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Pickles, Poems, and Prayers - Shawn Cook
BC: Before I Found Christ
I’m not sure what started it all, but I got angry with God and lost all hope. Maybe it was my relationship with my father at the time, maybe my lack of self-confidence, or maybe just fate. Regardless of the cause and the effect at the time, and regardless of the thoughts in my head that there was no hope in Jesus Christ or God, I know now that He was there watching over me and guiding my path to keep me safe, waiting patiently for me to find Him. Broken, damaged, defeated, and wishing for nothing more than an end to the life I knew, I found Christ waiting to embrace me, to love me, and to help me realize that I was never really alone. I am neither proud nor ashamed of the writings in this first chapter; they are a part of my journey in life and helped to make me who I am today. Although incomplete, and having been written long before my next writing, this is all that remains of many years of life misspent. My only hope for these writings is that in the end, they all bring great joy to the world and open doors for others to find what I searched for my whole life.
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Twisted torment
In my brain!
Nothing seems
To kill the pain!
Take a knife
And run it through!
Is there nothing
Left to do?
Why such a
Twisted death?
Pain and suffering
With each breath!
My only thought:
To be free.
Is there nothing
Left of me?
I want to live,
And I want to die!
As my blood fills
The evening sky.
Is there nothing
Left of me?
Why couldn’t they
Just let me be?
Memories Unspoken
My heart is broken
By thoughts, words, and deeds.
Memories unspoken
Are all I have left of me.
My body and soul
Are the wind and the breeze;
They float through the air
And whistle through the trees.
Loss of freedom
Would be like death to me
That’s why it is
Alone I must be.
Until I find a woman
Who can understand me,
Who will give me the time
And space to be free.
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Loss of pain,
No feeling within.
Don’t know where I’m going,
Can’t say where I’ve been.
Lost in a dream,
A thought from within
Can’t tell where it ends,
Don’t know where to begin.
I would die to live,
But yet I live to die.
Nothing has been gained
Except loss of mind.
I have self-respect
But no respect for mankind.
I have no friends,
Yet I am never alone.
I tend to drink a lot,
And yes, I’ve been stoned.
I’ve answered all the questions
I thought you might ask
So all of you
Can kiss my ass!
Never asked to live,
Never wanted to die.
I hope you’re not offended
By my freedom cry.
No one ever asked me
If I wanted to live and then die.
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Many thoughts run through my head,
But few of them are ever said.
No one knows how I feel
I hide behind a wall unreal.
No one wants to tear it down
They are afraid of what might be found.
Maybe a kind and decent man,
Or is he angry with evil plans?
Heaven sent, yet I await
A trip though hell’s lonely gates—
Face to face with Satan I stand
Lucifer and Belial walk hand in hand
Leviathan looks on with evil plans,
Sweat pouring from every gland.
They all laugh and say I am wise,
That life is filled with only lies,
Few live and everyone dies,
That within me they have pride
For I am the one who never cried,
Never laughed or said good-bye.
They ask me to join their side,
To make their four an evil five.
I start to laugh; I’ve got my pride.
What makes you think I need you guys?
I’m the most evil, dead or alive,
I walk alone, never breaking stride.
Now I have my throne,
The lone ruler of the world unknown.
I am not a god or a devil,
Only the ruler of the world on the level.
Some say it’s heaven, others say it’s hell
Your mental status can break its spell
You can come and go as you please
There are