The World I Always Knew

By Diamond Crystal Hayes

Many times I was called things which were not
pleasing to hear, but I never let that get in my
way. I had dreams of being somebody, but I
pushed them to the side because anybody can have dreams.
I always felt different about myself, but I couldnt
explain it. Being told constantly that I was different from
my mother never settled in until now. After finding myself,
I made myself a promiseto never let myself be lost again.
Diamond Crystal Hayes
November 25, 2004

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 18, 2010
• ISBN: 9781453584200

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Copyright © 2004, 2010 by Diamond Crystal Hayes.

Library of Congress Control Number:   2010914186

ISBN: Hardcover     978-1-4535-8419-4

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CONTENTS

FRIENDSHIP, HOW DO YOU KNOW? [7]

TOGETHER AS ONE [7]

LETTING GO [7]

A KISS TO REMEMBER [7]

HURTING FOR YEARS [7]

SHARP TONGUE [7]

CHANGE ME NOT [7]

TRUE FRIENDS TRULY CARE [7]

MIX THINGS FOR PLEASURE [7]

FORBIDDEN ANGER NEVER SEEN [7]

THE TREE THAT STAND SO TALL [7]

ATTRACTION IN TWO FORMS [7]

SHALL CARRY YOU UNTIL [7]

THE WORST ENEMY YOU CAN FIND [7]

BEAUTY WAS GIVEN TO ONLY YOU [7]

THE PATH WILL ALWAYS HAVE LIGHT [7]

HAPPINESS OVERRULE [7]

SEPARATED FOR YEARS, WITHOUT KNOWING [7]

THE FLOWER I WILL ALWAYS SNIFF [7]

UNEXPECTED JOY [7]

LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT [7]

STAND PROUD [7]

YOUR TEARS, WASTE THEM NOT [7]

I GIVE YOU MY THRONE [7]

DANCING FOREVER [7]

I SEE PERFECT IN YOU [7]

HOLD ME WITH A HAPPY CRY [7]

I GIVE YOU YOUR CROWN [7]

SMELL OF NEVER ENDING [7]

GOLD HAS VALUE, SO DOES A KISS [7]

POLISH THE TWO FOR THEY SHINE AS LIGHT [7]

STOP MY CRY [7]

MARRIAGE WITH MY HAND AND THE PIN [7]

PEARLS AND DIAMONDS MAKE THE HEART BLEED [7]

BACK IN TIME [7]

A PROSPEROUS HARVEST [7]

THE QUEEN’S CASTLE [7]

TRUSTING IN THE TRUTH [7]

THE KNIGHT THAT CARRY YOU [7]

BLINDNESS SEE THE TRUTH [7]

KEEPING SIGHT WITH A DIAMOND [7]

MY SPECIAL ROSE GARDEN [7]

IN THE MIRROR I SEE YOU [7]

UNCUT [7]

CRYING FOR HELP [7]

THE GARDEN [7]

FROZEN TIME ZONE [7]

FICTION AND NONFICTION, WHAT’S IN COMMON? [7]

YOU’RE MY FRESH FRUIT [7]

FRIENDSHIP ISN’T MAKE-BELIEVE [7]

KEEPING THE BAD AWAY [7]

A WORLD OF MY OWN [7]

WHITE WATERFALL [7]

HAPPY AM I WITH YOU [7]

TRUSTING EACH OTHER [7]

UNFORGETTABLE [7]

VICTORY OF CONFUSION [7]

TOUCHED HEART FOREVER [7]

EASING THE PAIN [7]

YOU ARE MY MISSION [7]

MY QUEEN ICE [7]

THE ERECTION [7]

INDESCRIBABLE BUT TRUE [7]

CHISELING FRIENDSHIP [7]

FADING WILL NEVER OCCUR [7]

I FEEL YOUR FEELINGS [7]

LOOK DOWN BUT WALK SLOW [7]

TRUE FRIENDSHIP COMES ONLY ONCE [7]

DANGEROUS WHIP [7]

ONLY YOU AND I [7]

YOU NEVER LOOKED AT THE PICTURE [7]

THE ARRIVING [7]

PUMPING THE HEART [7]

DRIPPING SWEET SUGAR [7]

UNFORSAKEN TOOL [7]

THE FLOWER BLOOMS EVERYDAY [7]

UNBREAKABLE GRIP [7]

OPEN THE DOOR [7]

CARE OVER SHADOWS [7]

PERFECT IS YOU [7]

THINGS IN COMMON [7]

PAST AND FUTURE [7]

LOOK FORWARD NOT BEHIND [7]

YOU DESERVE MORE [7]

YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH [7]

SWEETNESS OF YOU [7]

FEELING NO PAIN [7]

NEVER CAN I FORGET [7]

YOUR FACE IN THE SKY [7]

TASTING YOUR BEAUTY [7]

A DREAM IS THE FUTURE [7]

DO JUDGE ME [7]

FRIENDSHIP, HOW DO YOU KNOW? [7]

I care for no one of this world

except for a glowing precious pearl.

I talk to you from day to day.

Turn my back, what do they say?

They are gone so let’s spread the news.

I was called everything in the book,

It shook my mind, trembled my heart;

tears fell not from pain, but mostly from anger.

I thought I could trust you! Now I see that I can’t

for I am a pawn, someone for blocking purposes only.

I’m stressed in my surroundings,

but looking for that yes,

I found it in a cloud of dust,

As the dust settled, there stood a king,

with two knights and a bishop. Standing tall

in my view that he was small,

with a crown from the world that made him the stars.

As I approach, please, take my hand; hold on tight,

get on my stallion, hold on to me.

For you were the lost rainbow that never shined.

Now as you leave with me, those that bicker,

worry not for it is over.

Keep this in mind if nothing else.

You lie in a coffin looking at yourself,

wondering who will come,

At the arriving, they look at you sleep,

still, without a defense.

They talk about you.

You only wonder: "Were these my friends,

the ones I helped and shared my life story?"

Like the king said, "Trust those who you don’t hear talking

of no one or gossiping,

for love is true and hatred is false,

Sometimes they can seem to be crossed!"

TOGETHER AS ONE [7]

Here I sit in the dark covered room,

feeling safe from the most hurtful thing in this world.

What could that be, well of course—mankind.

Staring out of thirty-six windows, knowing not what to expect, hoping for a sparkle to catch my eye.

Like I say we pray for things that mean so much to us

but never come true.

I feel so safe behind closed doors,

which make me not afraid of the other side.

Looking as hungry animals pass me by,

but can’t see or smell my odor.

They look through the glass,

I step back, holding my heart!

Happy am I that darkness is my friend

with the sparkle in my eye.

I was always told that dark was evil, bad, sad, and hurtful. Wrong was the crowd that fooled my mind.

Darkness with a sparkle can be your best friend.

It can hide you when needed, no one can find you.

You can watch your enemies as they pass you by.

I shake in the night, for my mind scares me

of the thought of being here.

I look up at the sparkle saying to it, "Please don’t leave,

for if you do please take me."

Lonely I would be, for real is not the people of the past.

Before I found the darkness to be my friend, I myself felt the two-edge sword pierce my back as I was in a slaughter house with only a prayer but no one to listen!

Tears streamed down my face, but there was a sparkle that told me, "Run, for I will be there always.

I say to you, my life and yours will