A Mother’S Teardrop

By Shirley S. White

A Mothers Teardrop is a true story of the anguish of losing a child. It journeys from tragedy to triumph of a mothers love for her son. This heartfelt story is honest and true.

No matter what adversity you face, love will put you through!

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jul 6, 2016
• ISBN: 9781524617028

Shirley S. White

Shirley S. White is a native of Beaufort County, South Carolina. At an early age, she enjoyed writing short stories, poems, and drawing. After finishing high school, she married the love of her life, Willie White Jr. Shirley is a graduate of Central Christian University in Columbia, South Carolina, where she earned a bachelor’s degree in biblical studies with a minor in Christian counseling. Shirley retired from Beaufort County School District in 2014. Shirley enjoys serving the Lord, traveling, and spending quality time with her family. Shirley currently resides in Colleton County, South Carolina, with her husband of over forty-six years.

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CONTENTS

Dedication

Acknowledgements

A Mother’s Tear Drop

Transformation of the Mind

Memories

Thanks

DEDICATION

First I give thanks to my savior Jesus. To my husband, Pastor Willie White Jr., daughter, Detra L. White-Summers, daughter, Erica M. White-Smith, and grandchildren: DeVante, Trevor, Kevin, Brooke, Logan, Devin, Megan, Brandon, and Jamari.

It is a pleasure to dedicate the book to all of you. My determination is to serve and worship the Lord and only Him will I worship.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

With special thanks

A special recognition to,

May God bless all of you in a special way. You all are some caring, wonderful people. Words cannot express our thanks, you were a great helper in a time of need. Thanks a million for all the good things you’ve done!

May God bless you! All daily! With your heart desire!

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A MOTHER’S TEAR DROP

THE NIGHT MY WORLD CRASHED

O ne night before my son’s death, I dreamed that a man came to me. I could not see his face, but could hear him speaking to me. He said, Are you Shirley White? and I said, Yes. And he said, Shirley White, you have two children and I said, No, I have three children. He came a little closer and said, Are you Shirley White? and I said, Yes. He said, You have two children. Immediately he disappeared and I awoke. It all seemed so strange so I told my husband about the dream, and how I kept telling the man that I had three children but he kept telling me that I had two.

I was getting confused so I went into the family room just to look at the family pictures. I looked at Detra and Erica’s picture that they had taken together. I went over to Steven’s picture and as I was walking out of the room, his picture fell and broke. The glass just shattered all over the floor, and I looked up at the ceiling to see if the fan caused it, but the fan was not on. I said to myself, How did that picture break like that? I know the Word of God says, we don’t know when He is coming back for us. I believe that and it is true and I believe that sometimes He gives us some kind of warning.

Then my whole life changed on the night that my husband received a telephone call from Trident Medical Hospital, Charleston, South Carolina that our son had a tragedy. Stevie’s, our son, boys played football and he was trying to help them tune up. He was jogging with them when he had a fatal heart attack.

I was at work when my husband and one of my daughters, Erica, and family members came to tell me that Stevie was gone. They stood there trying to tell me what happened. Before they said anything to me, I asked them, Who’s sick? I really did not want to know. I was in denial because I knew something was wrong. My husband took my hand and said, Shirley, it’s Stevie, he had a heart attack. My body got weak, it just shut down. I didn’t ask God why. I was speechless and shocked.

That was the night that my world crushed. I know God as my personal Savior so I did not question Him, because I know He never make mistakes. It was a hard task. I was speechless, helpless, and in denial. It was a nightmare. Words cannot describe my feelings. Thinking back on his life, all I could think of was he was a good person, compassionate young man, loved his family, loved life, and tried hard to accomplish his goals. The pain inside me continues to hurt. I can remember his childhood, as a little boy, flashing in my mind and all the things he did that made me smile or laugh. Stevie was a loving and caring person. It seems like when I go to bed at night Steven is on my mind and when I awake in the morning, Steven constantly there. Sometimes it is unbearable. It seems as though I can hear him saying, Hi Mommy, how are you, or what are you doing?

If I could change or reverse time, it would be different. It must have been very devastating for his children being with him when he had a heart attack. Just knowing that crushed my heart, because they truly loved him. I know that God’s Will must be done and He would not do nothing to hurt me or the children.

My love for Steven is unlimited. I never question God, I have always said, God is too wise to make mistakes. He knows all things.

There were times when people asked me about Stevie, I could talk about him. Then there were times when I just wanted to cry, because sometimes it helped. I can truly say that Steven left us with great memories and praise will stay in our hearts.

My children Detra, Steven and Erica, were very close and had a good relationship. They really loved each other. They shared their thoughts and had wonderful times together laughing. Steven had a father’s love for Detra’s children. Erica showed him that she could take care of herself. He was so proud of his sisters.

When he was a little boy, he would say things like, My daddy, as if he was his father’s only child. When Stevie grew up, he worked for his father for a while. I would listen to him when he bragged about his father and his company, Caroline Re-bar. He would tell me that his father could master his job. He told me that his father was the greatest Blue Print Reader. I did not have any clue to what he was telling me about