Orbit of Rediscovery

By Dr. Keerthana Elumalai

Have you felt like losing yourself in the battle of life and thoughts? Have you ever felt that you lost your own self and felt stuck in your life?  Do you know that this is a common incident most of us have faced! Trust me; you are not alone in this battle! Lost, pressured, failed, isolated, dejected, wherever you are stuck right now, you have a chance to pull yourself up above all these distresses and fly towards what you need! But, at first, you need to find yourself. This magical journey moves about reaching and being at your own true self. What could be more exciting than moving towards you and being happy for what you are!? It's time to pack your loads up and enter this enchanting journey and experience the real joy and freedom in being you!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Famian
• Release date: May 14, 2021
• ISBN: 9788194953272

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ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

To the superior forces that are making me move towards what I need, demands my very first ink of gratitude. And my life which gives me novel plans to allow me to experiment and experience various emotions owns my second gratitude. From travelling together with me with what I am, giving me a role to play in, and to taking up a supporting role, the next set of gratitude is to my family and friends. And the concluding note goes to the Famian team for their patience and cooperation, in turning my creation into a beautiful format.

Contents

INTRODUCTION

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andering lives and bothering thoughts have left us with nothing but vacant space. Throughout the day's run, a baffled mind has no block to stumble on. People these days seem to miss The factor in their lives. We all portray ourselves among people differently and tend to hide away our pain. We laugh fine in the gathering but cry secretly. I had to go through a similar period in my life. I was drifted into another suit where I didn’t fit well. I was hurt and was in pain by my scenarios but still pretended as if everything was normal. I was afraid to tell people or even to show them that I am not okay. I was afraid that I could fall low in other people’s eyes.

Through the storms going on within me, one day accidentally I questioned myself, why should I bear all the pain?, Why should I pretend I’m fine when I am not? Why am I, in the first place, afraid to tell someone that I am feeling low? So when I figured out that something is not fine with the happenings, I thought of going back to see where it all started. It’s a journey, as I like to call it.

So many decisions, consequences, issues, and their results I have crossed all way, without even realizing. Pouring out our distress would be the best way to handle it, I always believed. I reached out to my kin and kith, I was surprised to see that most of them were going through this phase or has already gone through it. It’s a common thing that everyone undergoes yet everybody acts fine as if it hasn't occurred. We believe an issue gets resolved when it is hidden under the cover. But it certainly gets worse. I thought talking about this out loud could reduce someone’s burden or probably help them or at least tell them that they are not alone. A journey has been completed so, why don't I register it? This thought and the topic had kept me awake through many moons.

When I finally started writing this book, I found that the journey has just now started, and it’s such a fascinating experience. The more I was able to grow out learning, collecting information, the more I was entering the path that remained unknown. Pulling me up from the area of mental sickness was the most difficult part of writing this book. I had to convince myself a lot about my venture and move my state from no motivation to finding the motivation to write this book. The people I have met and the incidents I've gone through has further motivated me to write this out. For the ones going through this phase, this book could be helpful to overcome your phase with ease, and for the ones who've successfully crossed this phase-out; this book could be a guide to help someone else out of this phase.

One common thing we frequently err is letting loose of the self as the days pass. With every single job that’s added up, a part of your enthusiasm or interest drops by. That remains unnoticed until you land somewhere in the depth of misery. And when this shift is noticed we become blank with no idea of how to overcome and manage it. A sense of frustration engulfs us, which prevents us further from overcoming the distances. I shall place my points through this book and be at hand through the thoughts, just like how few important persons did to me in my journey. A good deed never stops; they flow uninterrupted, so carry over this flow to the ones, still in need.

And now, let your heart and soul open upon the lawn of life to have its breath. Search the lost you within yourselves with this book as a tool. Relieve your stress and break open your mental agony. Find yourself out, from where you have lost your ‘self’.......

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Am I lost?

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ufferings are not just physical. It’s like an iceberg. Only the tip is what we see and the humongous amount lies underneath and unseen. A disturbed mind is not always shown out. It’s something that could be comfortably covered up. It is easily concealed beneath one broad smile and one simple sentence I’m fine so that no hunting eyes could have a hint. The smile covers the depressed mind well!

Do you know where you left your smile back? That last time you laughed out loud? No, not the time you laughed amidst your depression and not the time you laughed to convey and convince people that you’re fine. When was the last time you stood before the mirror admiring yourself? That last time you sat down thinking about your strength and pricks? Yes, with a clear mind. What day was it when you moved to the back of the chair and had a hot cup of soothing coffee, listened to your favourite music, and felt the lyric? Might be a day or two back, but was your mind free and not filled with thoughts? It should have been a physical break from the long day chores or perhaps to seek a solution for your problems.

Your mornings have the amazing ability to tell how sound you were yesterday and how good you want your today. Do they, all of a sudden, seem unpleasant?   Are they with no sign of excitement or even totally empty? Did all your mornings start this way? For the ones whose life is completely under their control, they know what they want in life or who knew where their life is leading them; they embrace every new day with exciting plans and desire to execute them. Even if there’s no desire, there will be an urge pushing them out of the bed. We were in those days too. Like the missing piece in the puzzle, all of a sudden, these days seem empty. Is it? There is a lack of energy and enthusiasm that kept us from moving on all these days. And when this has become low that’s when the feeling of emptiness has crept in.

One considerable factor we miss out is that we haveto let loose of a self questionnaire system which we always held. When you are stuck inside the days so down, so low on your energy bar, you forget to put some questions to yourself a common activity which we always do on any other normal day. Typically we question ourselves often, to keep up the boost high. Like is this the right path to proceed? Where does this lead me to? And on which gets an immediate optimistic answer from the self. This is the greatest form of encouragement that keeps us moving. What was the last question you asked yourself? When did you stop questioning yourself?

We all love entertainment. We indulge in it to take a break, to relieve the so-called stress. But are you getting entertained these days? You have a conversation with your friend, but now it seems meaningless and dull. The last game match