Two Different Boots: Stepping Out of My Mother's Shadow and Learning to Love the Woman I See
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Until we have children of our own, we often don't realize just how much our lives are shaped by the women who raised us.
Growing up with a mother who suffered from depression and bipolar disorder shaped me in many ways, and taught me lessons that I carried with me into adulthood. This life
Michelle L Smith
Michelle lives in Oconomowoc, Wisconsin, with her two teenage boys. She is a work in progress and continues to learn about herself every day.
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Two Different Boots - Michelle L Smith
Two Different Boots
Two Different Boots
Stepping Out of My Mother's Shadow and Learning to Love the Woman I See
Michelle L. Smith
Two Different Boots, LLC
Contents
1 Two Different Boots: The First Step
2 Lesson 1: Do As I Say, Not As I Do
3 Lesson 2: My Past Does Not Define Me
4 Lesson 3: I Am Not, Nor Will I EVER Be, My Mother
5 Lesson 4: Just Because She Gave Birth To Me, I’m Not Obligated To Spend Time With Her
6 Lesson 5: This Totally Sucks For My Kids
7 Lesson 6: Being A Mom Is Hard Work And There’s No Rule Book
8 Lesson 7: I Have to Find My Own Closure
9 Lesson 8: It’s Okay For Me To Forgive
10 Lesson 9: Life Must Go On…I Choose To Learn From It
11 Lesson 10: I Am Not Alone
12 Life Beyond the Lessons
13 Conclusion
14 Epilogue
15 Acknowledgments
16 About The Author
Copyright © 2021 by Michelle L. Smith
Cover Design: Ryder T. Smith
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.
1
Two Different Boots: The First Step
Life.
We have to take it one step at a time.
My journey is unique to me, just like yours is unique to you.
Every step along the way shaped me into who I am today, even the ones where my foot didn’t land gracefully.
This is my story.
I’m the middle child of three siblings. I have two brothers, one just over a year older than me and the other five years younger.
Mom came from a family of six. Her parents ran a bar when she was young, which shaped her life (and her siblings' lives) in ways that I’m sure I don’t truly understand. She was 5’4 and dark-haired, and beautiful in her prime. I like to think I look a bit like she did back in the day.
She was a passive person, didn’t like conflict much, and tried to avoid it as much as possible. Definitely more of a lover than a fighter.
Dad was a hardworking man, a welder by trade. He was musical and played the guitar. Stood 6 feet tall, dark-haired, and typically sported a beard. He drank a lot, Jack Daniels being his favorite poison. He had a very kind heart, but when he got angry you knew it.
He lost his mom when he was just 11 years old. He had two siblings, but they were quite a bit older and off on their own or in college when their mom passed. So Dad grew up mostly living alone with his father, who was a military man. And then, when his father remarried, had a stepmom who I knew as my grandmother when we were growing up.
Dad passed away 11 years ago, at just 56 years old. His heavy drinking and lack of self-care caught up to him and caused a heart attack. It was tragic and heartbreaking when he passed, but that’s a story for a different book.
The relationship I had with my father shaped my life, but not nearly as much as the one I didn’t have with my mother.
My mom and dad divorced when I was two years old. Dad moved back to his hometown in Illinois and my older brother and I stayed with Mom in Wisconsin.
Mom remarried shortly after that. Our stepfather was smaller in build than my dad, but tall and dark-haired as well. He was an auto mechanic by trade and, ironically, also played the guitar.
He loved us like we were his own children.
But he also came with his unique life experiences from growing up in a very strict home and that shaped his life and his relationship with my mom.
He and my mom had a child together when I was 5 years old. That’s when I became the middle child, sandwiched between two brothers. Brothers who tormented me mercilessly when we were young - but I couldn’t imagine life without today.
We were very poor growing up, living on what often felt like little to nothing. Mom didn’t work when we were young, and an auto mechanic’s salary could only go so far for a family of five. My stepdad worked hard, but it was a struggle.
We ate a lot of soup from a can and meals made with chicken. We were on and off state assistance as I was growing up.
We moved a lot, which was hard for me.
I went to kindergarten at one grade school, and then transferred to a different one when we moved to the next town over. In middle school, I went the first month or so of 7th grade to one school, then switched to another.
This made it difficult to make a strong