Waiting for Spring
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This book is a selection of creative writings from the darkness of burnout, depression and learning to walk into the light again. Many are self-reflective and a deep learning experience about situations I had not dealt with in the past. It's the third book I have written and it is a continuation of my journey, as we all know recovery isn't just
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Waiting for Spring - Zoë Hickerson
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Contents
The Word Understands
Prophylactically
It’s Some Different Latitude
Who is in Control
The Music Lives On
Barren Landscape
Military Manoeuvres
Information Overload
To Love or not too
My Wants and Wherefores
See you Later Mate
Where do we go from here
Misconceptions of My Misspent Youth
In a Blink of an Eye
Overwhelmed
16
You took my Soul and Spirit
Heaven can wait
Grown up
Auf Wiedersehen
Unanswerable Questions
Ding Dong
Knocking me for Six
Walking into the Sunset
Dysfunctional
Winter is Coming
It’s Enormous
Loose Connections
The Sound of Silence
Life is a Real Puzzle
Honesty and Transparency
Evil Empire
Would you Miss Me?
On the Run
The Ache of Loneliness
Contemplating my Naval
My Future is in My Hands
Something has Died in Me
My Momentary Lapse of Reason
My World View
Have your Cake and Eat it too
Irritated
I’m Forever Blowing Bubbles
It’s a Bit Awkward
Relax Man
Shorter than Average
Casual as You can be
Forgetting the Simple Stuff
A Whisper in the Wind
A huge Vacuum
Silently Crying Beside You
Stay a While Longer
Sustainable
Hanging From the Rafters
Being Led Down the Garden Path
I Feel so Deflated
Second Helpings
Unhappiness on a Humid Day
My Wretched Heart
Don’t Turn a Blind Eye
A Storm in our Tea Cup
The Every Seeing Eye
Rainbows End
Tipping Point
Delicate little Flower
Unhappy or Sad
Comfort from a Brown little Bottle
When love Turns Dry
Empty Vessels
Gratitude
The War Wasn’t Over
I Hate the Human Race
I’m a Stranger to my Feelings
Pen and paper
I Can Understand
I have Evolved
What Glues us Together
Dry as a Prune
I Wish I Could Pop
Misogynistic Darkness
Deep Inside my Soul
Thin Blue Line
Waiting for Spring
Forgiveness was an integral part of my recovery, I’ve learnt that it’s not automatic, I’ve also learnt that it happens in different stages. I would love to acknowledge Danielle Lopez from Crest Media Distribution, she has played an enormous part in this stage of my journey, in helping me forgive myself, which has enabled me to move forward with confidence to be the person I am today.
The Word Understands
Do you really understand
The word understands?
When you say you do
Is it to make me feel better?
When I can’t produce
It’s a common thread
That makes me dread
A lamented feeling
Has me squealing
As I hold my head in my hands
With bile at the back doorstep
It’s understandable
The connotations
The unhappiness meaning of repression
Brings mild depression
To the fore
Where it once floored
It sits about midrange
The same niggle
Rattling like a babies giggle
It doesn’t bring joy
It’s immaturity in the making
Taking on a more grandiose route
I know it’s a word
It’s heard
With mild exclamation
A quizzical look down your glasses
Do you understand
The word understands?
It displays maybe I don’t get it
When maybe I should
It sends shivers down my spine
Maybe I should keep walking on
Instead of dining on
Ingesting the poison it tries to feed
Let the word dissipate
Into the new dawn of the wilderness beyond
Written 6/7/2019
Prophylactically
Don’t shower me with kindness
Don’t shower me with self belief
The little child right at the back
Sits up straight
Eyes wide
Ears pricked
Waiting watching
For a crumb of praise
She waits in a daze
Wanting to hear more
Her skin flushed with fear
Just don’t let him hear
Don’t give the game away
It will be years for another day
Don’t shower me with kindness
Don’t shower me with self belief
It wasn’t a coincidence
A narcissist was created
I know that can be debated
From the moment of conception
Your alter ego your downfall
Emotional emptiness
Draws near
Never fear
Every crumb
Every tit bit
Prophylactically
Gives me emancipation from my negativity
As there is hope for the future
Years turn to the new millennium
Don’t shower me with kindness
Don’t shower me with self belief
These stumbling blocks
Guide my future
I’m genuine with my acceptance
I will independently get there on my own
Written 10/6/2018
It’s Some Different Latitude
What causes such internal pain?
Rustling again with external mayhem
I don’t want to live in such a hullabaloo life
It’s not controversial dying by the knife
I’ve exhausted every channel
In return I get bitterness
No sweet caress
Nothing I can harness
To call such poetic justice
Is taken from two fold
If I could break into smithereens
I’d find some Queens
To give you attitude
It’s some different latitude
That emotion springs
And brings
Life is a test of aptitude
Nothing ever gratitude’s
The sour or the sweet
When we want to greet our tears
Like ladies in a miff who won’t explain
We swipe them away with an angry sniff
I wish I could blow away
Into the hot stagnant air of the underground
Just like a virus they would multiply
Rats and human excrement
We’re all part of the experiment
In