Reflections: A Struggling Mother's Walk With God

By Donna Shubert

Are you living through the addiction of a child or family member?
Are you searching for something better, but having trouble finding direction on getting free from the confines of addiction?
Are you finding that life is out of control and you cannot muster the strength to fix the problem?
If so, come t

• Language: English
• Publisher: Trilogy Christian Publishing
• Release date: Mar 17, 2020
• ISBN: 9781647730413

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Reflections

A struggling mother’s

walk with god

Donna Shubert

Trilogy Christian Publishers

TUSTIN, CA

Trilogy Christian Publishers

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Copyright © 2020 by Donna Shubert

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Contents

Dedication vii

Acknowledgements ix

Introduction xi

Chapter 1. My Story, Your Story 1

Reflections 3

Chapter 2. But I Am a Good Parent 5

Chapter 3. Life Happens 9

Reflections 13

Chapter 4. Words Speak 17

Reflections 20

Chapter 5. Know Your Audience 21

Reflections 26

Chapter 6. The Other Child 27

Reflections 29

Chapter 7. My Spouse 31

Chapter 8. Family 37

Chapter 9. Friends 41

Chapter 10. Life Moves On 45

Chapter 11. Winds of Change 49

Reflections 54

Chapter 12. See the Light 55

Chapter 13. Opening Our Eyes 59

Reflections 64

Chapter 14. God at Work 67

Reflections 73

Reflections 76

Chapter 15. My Introduction to Humility 79

Reflections 85

Chapter 16. My New Friend 87

Reflections 95

Reflections 100

Chapter 17. How Do I Start? 101

Chapter 18. What’s Next? 107

Chapter 19. Pour Out Your Heart 113

Because of You 115

Dream Song/Breakthrough 116

Burn for God 117

He Means Everything to Me 118

Father of My Spirit 120

Holy Spirit Took My Hand 121

I Will Never Be Hungry 123

On This Night 124

You Are 126

Keep Your Eyes on God 128

Celebrate God 130

Epilogue 131

References 133

About the Author 135

Acknowledgements

A special thank you goes to Justin, Jason, and Greg for your willingness to be a part of this reflection. God Bless Shubertville.

Introduction

There Has to Be Something Better

You may be scanning these first few lines of this book as a struggling mother looking for wisdom to make it through the hard times. There is a knowing in your heart that there must be something better than the life you live with a loved one caught up the chains of addiction. Where do you turn for wisdom and guidance when life is out of control? I have been there, and I must admit, true wisdom comes only from God. My experiences have afforded me some wisdom, but without God’s intervention, I would still be ignorant of the facts.

I seriously doubt that you picked up this book to see if my walk with God failed or succeeded. The facts of your life right now may be that your child is pushing God away, and you need another option to reach them. I searched for all types of ways to reach my child. I was desperate for anything that would get me out of the nightmare. Our entire family knew there was something better, but finding it proved to be difficult. It was staring us in the face, but we were too blind to see it. We stumbled in the darkness for years until we fell into the arms of Jesus. That something better is out there and waiting for you to take hold of His hand. His name is Jesus, and He saved my family. Keep reading and give God a chance as I did.

Chapter 1

My Story,

Your Story

My story is very similar to yours, the names are different, but the pain and struggle are the same. The years of confusion and nights without sleep linger into oblivion. The hopelessness and helplessness hang on your shoulders like a shawl of iron. Your days are crushed under the weight of fear and anxiety. Does this sound like the world you are living in? It is time to take a deep breath and believe that change is possible for you.

As the parent of a child with an addiction, a lot of time is spent beating yourself up and feeling condemned by those around you. You hide in your home and detach yourself from the outside world. As time passes, addiction causes everyone in the family unit to become sick. Sickness must be healed. The perfect Father, God, had two children that were drawn astray by the deceptive lies of the enemy. If it happened in the garden of Eden, it can certainly happen in our homes.

I could go into a long bible story here, but this book is about healing from the effects of addiction. All we need to know is what scripture tells us, The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy… (John 10:10 NLT). This means everything you have, particularly your family. He uses your flaws against you, as well as your strengths. Nothing is off-limits to him. If it trips you up, he’s all for it.

Now I know the enemy would love to take credit for all the bad things that happen in our life. Unfortunately for him, we can do some messed up things all on our own. That little voice in our head, you know the one. I say mine has pigtails, one higher on the head than the other, and wears red lipstick placed around the lips in a big crazy circle. Yet, I have allowed this voice to tell me things, and talk me into things that were ridiculous.

I totally lost myself trying to control and manipulate a situation that I had no control over. And through this manipulation, I quite possibly prolonged the situation. It’s called selling your soul to the devil to save a sick