Caverns of the Heart

By Joshua Quarrell

After about seven years of taking some time to reflect on life, love, and death. Decided it was finally time to finish this book.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Feb 12, 2020
• ISBN: 9781678136376

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Caverns of the Heart

Caverns of the Heart

By: Joshua Quarrell

Copyright © 2020 Joshua Quarrell All Rights Reserved

All Rights Reserved. No part of thus book may be reproduced in any form, exept for the inclusion of brief quotation in a review, without permission in writing from the author.

First Print 02/12/2020

ISBN: 978-1-67813-637-6

Notes

Third book in the series I continued to write as I did in the first and second books. Writing chronological by dates to show the levels in which my mind can change. This book may not be for everyone, but thats okay.

Writing helped with a lot of internal emotions, that would normally be self destructive. The more I write the more I can understand about life, the world, and most importantly myself. I started these books to first help me, but in doing so I may have helped others. That is a great feeling.

So as I always like to say, if I say anything, is to do something in your life that matters; And what you do no matter if you get anything in return or not. It's worth it as long as its worth it to you. Enjoy.

Chapter 1 (2010-2014)

Take Me Now

I’ve ask before

But you never listen

I’m disappearing

So take me now

Before I am gone

We can move together

But we move apart

I need you to know

I need you here

Take me

(Break me)

Wake me

(Hate me)

Just don’t forsake me

So take me now

Before we are gone

Moved too far away

I needed your voice

Fall back unto the world

You lost yourself long ago

It was only a matter of time

That you let go

How was I to help?

When you said

I don’t want to be

Please just

As you left away, take me with you

As you leave

But you wouldn’t

(8/25/2010)

Where We Lay

The subtle of your skin

In my heart I realized

That with every second I am near

I couldn't win

Sinking into the way you make me shutter

The heat of your breath upon my neck

I lose control

I am lost into a world of you

Touchless we are falling together

The rush of your epidermal as it lightly grazes mine

My body tenses

Our hands close

The air the separates us evaporates around us

Closer our hands touch

Can we stay like this

Motionless

Oxygen flows between us

Your lips say words that I can't hear

Still lost inside your touch

My eyes transfixed on yours

Yours opened wide; I smile

But still you try to speak

…....ake up

Your Hand floats to my cheek

A tear flows from my eye

You drift closer again

Your lips press upon my forehead

To me you say, It's time to awake

My eyes open and you are by my side

(05/18/2012)

On The Inside

I've been an outcast my whole life

All things move around me

As if I didn’t exist

How can anyone say we are all the same

Their words are as hollow as their false attempts

The words they say as they leave me behind

How can we ever share a world that I can't be in

Never will they understand

The way they pushed me aside

These are the things that can run through ones mind

The loneliness that fills your heart

Emotionless you sit there with that knife to your wrist

If you end it now

Will that suffice

A world where only you can understand yourself

Is that your thought

In a world were all can be needed

We live on

In a world were anything can be possible

We thrive

In a place where we can see through our own eyes

We survive

When all we have left is all we got

Reaching our hands out

We drift

Fingers extended into the void

Finding comfort

We keep the world on the inside

(08/12/2012)

Cabinets

Opened to these worlds

Darkness flows into the light

What will be seen

A soured over-weighted man

Lost for years

The smells of mold consoled the air

Salting it's sweet words

The spores exit onto the noses

Filtering into the lungs

Closed the world is gone

Noises can be heard

But to be never seen

Light flows throughout the cracks

Moving the shadows from side to side

Empty and wasted

The world is opened

Crashing onto the floor

An explosion of wood and dust

As it expands past our understanding

It flows into the fifth