Empty Spaces

By Joshua Quarrell

Second book in a three part series of poetry. More poetry for the soul. The ups and downs of the world brought forth in writing for the world to enjoy.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Aug 10, 2012
• ISBN: 9781300073994

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Empty Spaces

Empty Spaces

By: Joshua Quarrell

Copyright © 2012

Joshua Quarrell

All Rights Reserved

All Rights Reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form, except for the inclusion of brief quotation in a review, without permission in writing from the author.

First Print 08/08/12

ISBN: 978-1-300-07399-4

Dedications

To my family who support me in anything I do or may do.

Friends that are there for me when I talk too much.

The world for inspiring me to become something more.

And to you for always being my biggest fan.

My grandma and grandpa.

My sisters and brother

My nephews and nieces

And to the most special one

My mom

Thank you all

CHAPTER 1

When Will This Pain End

Why won’t it go away

The hate inside

The hate that consumes my life

This disbelief that leads me to feel this way

All the lies

All the broking hopes

That take me so far away

Ah

Why won’t it go away

Drunk and unamused

Leave me alone

Forcing me to feel this way

I sit alone at night

Wishing it would just...

Finally go away

Crying as I lay in my bed

Dying you relieve this pain

Trying to figure out

But

This pain will end

Oh when

WHEN WILL THIS PAIN END

Why won't it just go away

The animosity inside

When will I feel human

When will this pain end

(02/01/06) & (08/29/11)

Fly Sticky Pads

I thought it was over, but...

Every time I stand to leave

I can't stand to leave you

Seeing you dreaming

Wishing I was him

Do you know how it feels to be empty inside

(Always)

Do you understand how much it hurts

(All the time)

These fly sticky pad words will never release me

Anger seeded deep inside of me

Hiding and residing within my brain

Eating my thoughts, controlling my actions

Needing release, but

Even in words these fly sticky pads will never release me

This love that I have found

I was melancholy so I latched on

It is strong, my grip won’t let go

Every moment inside of your heart

I know that we will never part

Just my seconds go by, we last

Buzzing around my head it sticks to me

Can it be the same after it’s all done

Can you actually go on

I’ve failed you once, I’ve failed again

I could never love you again

I will never want to hold you, because

You will stick to me like I once stuck to you.

(10/12/07) & (11/15/07) & (11/17/07) & (12/11/07) & (12/17/07) & (05/25/07) & (06/28/07) & (07/01/07) & (08/29/11)

Uncertain Thoughts

Wanting to be near her

But sadly

I actually don't know her

Am I lost at the emotion that I think she has for me

Or lost in her thoughts

Am I imagining that she likes me

Or is it just me that is in to her

Would I like her behind close doors

Is she as I see her

Or just someone else

A simple hand wave can change emotions

Simple body languages

I don't understand

Is it opposite of what I think

Or was she being shy or coy

Did I creep her out

By the way I noticed her

Or am I just over analyzing it

The emotion of uncertainess

Why does it feel like I did something wrong

Or was it that I did nothing at all

A glance

And here I go again

An accidental bump

Or was it

Nothing can save me from this loop I'll