Boy Disappearing

By Rex Emerson Jackson

Smaller... smaller... smaller... Using poetry and personal essay style, Rex Emerson Jackson presents a memoir of a man who has battled against eating disorders for a major part of his life. Using verse, observation, and first person narratives, Rex brings to light the thoughts and feelings behind his diagnosis of anorexia.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Rex Emerson Jackson
• Release date: Oct 30, 2014
• ISBN: 9780993835285

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Boy Disappearing

BOY DISAPPEARING

A collection of poetry and short essays about one man’s eating disorder.

Copyright 2014 Rex Jackson

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978-0-9938352-8-5

Second edition.

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To Jenny.

You were always more loved than you realized.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Air Alone

Slacker

INTERLUDE: April 2006

Edges

The Other Side

Fragile

Up/Down

So Damned Hungry

Not Mine

INTERLUDE: April 2006

Cold

Unreachable

Calories

Weak

Newton’s Laws

Nothing

Looking Small

Mantle

Up

ESSAY: Epilogue

Can I?

Acknowledgements

Air Alone

I am not

so deluded that I

think I can exist

on air alone

but there is this

little voice in my

head

it says

You shall not need.

if I were to expose

my need to the world

it would

envelop everything

like a tsunami

leaving drenched ruins

and broken trees

in its wake.

I need so much

that it makes me afraid

so I shall deny my need

because needing nothing

is so much easier

than needing

everything

Slacker

the night sighs to me