A Soul's Repair: Reshaping, Rebuilding, and Renewing

By Tuesday S. White

A Soul's Repair - Reshaping, Rebuilding, and Renewing represents a new beginning; it is a road map to overcoming the odds when everything is against you. It is a compelling look at what happens when you know and understand your real purpose. This is Self-Help first hand composed candidly, with raw emotion to make a lasting impact.

The winding path of self-discovery and self-love presents many challenges along the way. Tuesday White, the Author, does not hold back from speaking her truth. That very truth that has led her to admit her mistakes boldly, make amends where needed, and crush the demons of insecurity and inadequacy to finally allow herself to take her rightful place as a literary icon.

In this, her first published book, White takes us on a journey of realization, acceptance, and rebuilding after years of struggling with an unfulfilling life in the corporate world. Her life’s circumstances and positioning held no regard for the creativity that she held at bay in order to be functional.

This book is the result of a lifetime of searching to find a way to heal the wounds of all the hurt, mostly inflicted by others, but some also self-inflicted. This is an act on her part that leads her coming of age story. It is looking back and owning the chaos, and of purging the heart and mind of regrets and missteps. It is not a how-to or what not to do. It is her way of saying to the world, I have been there. I have done lots of things that I am not proud of, but I am here. Yes, there are scars, and I am a little bent in places, but I am not broken. I have stories to tell and wisdom to impart.

This is bravery and courage and facing brutal truths and eventual self-discovery. This is making the big come-back.

This is just the beginning. A new beginning.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Tuesday S. White
• Release date: Jan 29, 2020
• ISBN: 9780463607244

Tuesday S. White

I am mannerly with my composition, precise when detail is required, and I employ a certain “je ne sais quoi” that grabs the eye and interest of readers. I’d like to think that there are only solutions, and never any problems when it comes to saying it best. On my very best days, this is how I like to think of myself. It would have been easy to get another professional colleague to do a quick write up for me. But, no one knows ME like me. I don’t think anyone can tell you as clearly about me as I can. So, who is Tuesday White? Tuesday St. Agnes White is the name on my birth certificate. It’s the name I endorse wholly. It’s a name I trust, respect, and believe in. Despite being smart-mouthed and sarcastic, I am by all measures a kind-hearted mother of two seeking to come up out of years of self-destructive behavior to finally blossom and bloom. I’m a content creator and editor. I am a writer and author. I am a business professional. In 2010, I created a company called White Standard Press. It was the brainchild born from my desire to create something from my combined foundation of raw talent and purposeful education. Five years later, in 2015, I found myself fifteen years as an employee with a multi-faceted skillset and the nagging feeling that I was supposed to be doing something else. White Standard Press had no grounded direction, so planning my imminent escape from my 9 to 5 seemed risky and undoable. I got to thinking that my small company, my brainchild, should have been publishing books by now. I should have been boasting a five-star reputation as an Acclaimed Writer by this mark. I felt as though I was far behind, mitigated by the trepidation that comes with the possibility of failure. I had started a small company. I had started small simply because, back then, I was thinking small. I was thinking so small that my company was suffering from a severe case of stunted growth. By the following year, enough was enough, and I developed a plan that would make me more than just a freelance journalist. I aimed to make writing business and offer quality business tools to discerning clients. With a solid background in sales, marketing, and advertising, I started to use my strategies and skills on myself. I worked out the kinks of my self-doubt and fear. I pitched myself an amazing idea and talked myself into a new mindset. I engaged my personal self with my business self in a meeting of the mind and the heart. The result has been this: I have jumpstarted my career as Sole Owner and Operator of a Professional Content & Copy Services Firm. I am using my writing skills and formal business experience to build a business of my own, doing what I love. White Standard Press has become The W Standard. The W Standard is a Content & Copy firm that aims to create the very best written material for individual clients, publications, websites, and all other businesses. In the thick of things, I didn’t stop there. As of Dec. 2018, I also became a Self- Published Author. My first eBook: A Soul’s Repair – Reshaping, Rebuilding, and Renewing in Pursuit of Self-Mastery. On the same wind, a few months later, my work was published as a collaborative effort by Johnson Tribe Publishing and 9-time Best Selling Author Dr. Adair White-Johnson: Get Over It – From Tragedy to Triumph: Stories of Bouncing Back After Hitting Rock Bottom (available: amazon.com) Since then, the blossoming and blooming have been incredibly instance and passionately purposeful. The W Standard is evolving. Motherhood and it’s dynamic has been interesting and good for my soul. Writing books to empower has been my gift to the people in the world who are “becoming,” and reaching higher heights day by day. I don’t, and I won’t cut corners, when it comes to professionalism, articulation, comprehensive text, explanatory and informative content, all created and spearheaded with signature style. I also don’t want to hold back when it comes to the truth that I stand in every-day. Get to know me by following my blog, ask me about my company and inquire about my services. By all means and in all ways, stay encouraged and positive!

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Tuesday White

A Soul’s Repair

Reshaping, Rebuilding, and Renewing

First published by Tuesday White Publications, LLC 2019

Copyright © 2019 by Tuesday White

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For My Family

P. Anthony, Ramona, E. Anthony, Adair, Caroline, Mona, Ellie, Layla, Antoinette, Geno, Daniel, E. Anthony Jr., Najja, Jaja, Taji, and Zuri

For My Friends

Telecia, Jehan, Vincina, Javara, Michelle, Alexandra, and Simone

For Mrs. Barbara Jones,

my High School History, Language Arts, and Literature Teacher:

I am thankful for the notes in the margins when you marked my work.

I read them all, especially the ones where you suggested I read it again to get the deeper meaning.

Contents

Foreword

Preface

I. RESHAPE. REBUILD.

Root and Reason

In The Mirror

Me

Them

Thinking & Believing

Powerful Focus

II. RENEW.

Real People Do Real Things

Positive Progress

Effective Action

The Climb

Life Savings

About the Author

Foreword

This book represents a new beginning; it is a road map to overcoming the odds when everything is against you. It is a compelling look at what happens when you know and understand your real purpose.

The winding path of self-discovery and self-love presents many challenges along the way. Tuesday does not hold back from speaking her truth. That very truth that has led her to admit her mistakes boldly, make amends where needed, and crush the demons of insecurity and inadequacy to finally allow herself to take her rightful place as a literary icon.

In this, her first published book, Tuesday takes us on a journey of realization, acceptance, and rebuilding after years of struggling with an unfulfilling life in the corporate world. Her life’s circumstances and positioning held no regard for the creativity that she held at bay in order to be functional.

This book is the result of a lifetime of searching to find a way to heal the wounds of all the hurt, mostly inflicted by others, but some also self-inflicted. This is an act on her part that leads her coming of age story. It is looking back and owning the chaos, and of purging the heart and mind of regrets and missteps. It is not a how-to or what not to do. It is her way of saying to the world, I have been there. I have done lots of things that I am not proud of, but I am here. Yes, there are scars, and I am a little bent in places, but I am not broken. I have stories to tell and wisdom to impart.

This is bravery and courage and facing brutal truths and eventual self-discovery. This is making the big come-back.

This is just the beginning. A new beginning.

As Tuesday’s mother, I am proud and honored to have been asked by her to write this Foreword. She knows that, while I am her toughest critic I am unashamedly, her biggest fan.

Tuesday St Agnes White, I congratulate you on this milestone accomplishment and cannot wait to buy the first copy of Soul Repair.

Mummy

[Ramona Ritchie-Taylor]

Preface

I ended up writing this book to help me write another book.

Imagine that.

Imagine the internal fight to finally be still in my chaos to begin at repairing my soul, preparing myself for my best life.

This all started about two years ago.

At the end of 2016, nothing was really going according to my plan. I had aspirations of becoming a pro-blogger. I had spent money and time investing in everything I needed to run a profitable content and affiliate marketing business online. This would be the cushion I would fall back on as I pursued my real dream of becoming a celebrated Author.

From a glance, it was foolproof.

I was justifying quitting my job to get my first real entrepreneurial endeavor up and running. I was using all of my time building everything from the ground up, learning so much along the way.

In the very beginning of this venture, I had worked nonstop, about 18 hours a day, generating a nice start-up sum. Yet, by the end of the year, I found myself with very little credible progress.

I wasn’t keeping up with the demands of the internet. The competition was fierce, and I was intimidated. I was not motivated to make an effort, so my dream became far-fetched and very much deferred.

It seemed easier at this time to cede and get another 9 to 5 job. I felt myself withdrawing from the idea of creating a legendary legacy. I was parting ways with my childhood dream of authoring books, running a profitable business, eventually ending up living The life of Riley.

I felt myself in the months to follow struggling more and more to make things stick. I was writing content by the page at an incredible speed. Yet, I wasn’t writing anything that had a lot of heart in it. It was all riddled with keywords and reference links. It was all for the sake of strategically targeting and garnering organic search results.

There were all these popup ads, promotional interludes, and streamlined shameless adverts.

My message and the premise of my purposeful writing seemed lost. Yes, I got lost in the business of writing.

I began to resent the way I was writing. I started to hate it. I was becoming a slave to SEO, and it really wasn’t fulfilling.

I was afraid to write in a way that might be received as unfamiliar because I couldn’t see the profit in that. The internet in many ways wasn’t serving me because I wasn’t mentally sound enough to write from my right place.

I was instead, attempting to solely line my pockets.

And, all of this impacted every other aspect of my life. My personal life was now in shambles, and my entire future was uncertain and, in many instances, full of gloom.

For the rest of that year and for the entire year 2017, I was trapped in a mindset and emotional state that made every single unfortunate event in my life a part of a burden that was holding me down.

I was struggling financially, mentally, and emotionally. My spirit was broken, and my soul, the overall essence of who I am, was damaged seemingly beyond repair.

I was healthy and often vibrant on the outside. I was dying on the inside.

I cried almost every day, and none of those tears came from joy. I couldn’t appreciate my blessings and the things I had to be thankful for because all the devastation and turmoil was clouding my vision.

I wanted so badly to find a way up from the darkness and into the light.

I wanted to know how to throw this whole bitter ME away and start over. I wanted a new life that was detached from the mess I’d made with the help of bad influences and other careless and reckless people.

Ultimately, if ever there was a time that I can attest to it with all certainty, this for me was the time I was truly about to hit rock bottom.

It was then that I realized there was no direction, no future, no hope, no faith, and no prosperity in this downward direction. It was there where I was almost suffocated by the daunting reality of my situation: my conscience was clearly letting me know that I had two choices: give up or