My Worth My Freedom My Choice: Uncover the Real Me

By Lisa S. Borum

Several years ago, I was on a mission to write a book about my life. I figured it's my life, it should be easy. As I began to write, it was going great until I got to parts in my life that I vowed never to speak of again. I locked those memories away, very far away, I almost forgot that those things happened in my life. As I begun to dig up and write down those old memories, I hit a brick wall. That was it, I decided I could not do it. "Why would anyone want to read this book? Why would I want to bring up those horrible memories about my life?" As I sat on my bed weeping, I called out to my husband and told him, "there is no way I can write this book."
He reassured me that I could do all things through Christ who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13 NIV) I mustered up what little strength I felt God gave me and continued to write. I cried some more and wrote some more.
This book has helped me face some of my fears and ultimately learn from them. I realized that my past does not determine my future, but it has molded me for who I am now.
As you read this book, I trust that God will allow you to see Him in my story and give you the courage to face your past head on and recover from the things that you have been through or even going through now. I refuse to be held back by my past and my prayer for you is for you to move forward from what is behind you and reach out to a greater future.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Jun 24, 2020
• ISBN: 9781543962482

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Preface

Writing this book was a journey. I hit so many walls and felt as though I could not write this book. Many of the things that happened in my life, I have tried to forget and never to bring up again. I felt a sense of deliverance as I wrote this book. I can say with all honesty, I understand what it means when Jesus said, the truth will set you free. When I began to write down all the darkness that was in my past, I felt as though it was leaving me, and I could feel the light filling me up and I felt a sense of relief.

Introduction

Several years ago, I was on a mission to write a book about my life. I figured it’s my life, it should be easy. As I began to write, it was going great until I got to parts in my life that I vowed never to speak of again. I locked those memories away, very far away, I almost forgot that those things happened in my life. As I begun to dig up and write down those old memories, I hit a brick wall. That was it, I decided I could not do it. Why would anyone want to read this book? Why would I want to bring up those horrible memories about my life? As I sat on my bed weeping, I called out to my husband and told him, there is no way I can write this book.

He reassured me that I could do all things through Christ who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13 NIV) I mustered up what little strength I felt God gave me and continued to write. I cried some more and wrote some more.

This book has helped me face some of my fears and ultimately learn from them. I realized that my past does not determine my future, but it has molded me for who I am now.

As you read this book, I trust that God will allow you to see Him in my story and give you the courage to face your past head on and recover from the things that you have been through or even going through now. I refuse to be held back by my past and my prayer for you is for you to move forward from what is behind you and reach out to a greater future.

CHAPTER

1

The Beginning

What’s your worth? Are you free? What choices do you make to ensure the outcome of your worth and freedom?

I was in the country of Jamaica, and in what we Jamaicans would call, de cuntry pawt a Jamaica, mon. It was a small town where I lived half my childhood.

I had big dreams, and for some, that’s all it would ever be: dreams. I had dreams about the husband I’d have and our children and the house we’d live in. I spoke to God as a child, not fully understanding that God is as real as you and I. I would ask God how I would meet my soul mate. What if he was in China or America? How would I get there? How would he find me? I wrote in my school book that I wanted a husband and 12 children and