Confessions of a Caregiver: When Alzheimer’s Comes to Your Home
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What effect does Alzheimer's have on the caregiver? This book was written for you—the caregiver of the Alzheimer's patient or any full-time caregiver for that matter — to prepare you for the emotional rollercoaster you will experience. Joe bares his anger, resentment, frustrations, and eventually his love and hope, as he and his wife live the caregiver's life. While reading of his trials and triumphs, you will understand the simple tools he uses to cope with the daily frustrations and difficulties of caregiving. Gain a deeper understanding of your own situation from Confessions of a Caregiver.
Joseph Skillin
Joseph Skillin's education helped him to understand people and their needs. He spent four years studying post-grad philosophy. He has been motivating people ever since, starting in the slums of Oakland, Ca. in the 1970's. After he moved to Boston, he founded the Center for Motivation and Achievement, teaching motivation techniques to corporate and general audiences. Now retired, he still motivates people through his writings, public speaking engagements and volunteer activities. He can be reached at Joe@skillinmarketing.com
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Confessions of a Caregiver - Joseph Skillin
This book is dedicated to Penny, my wife, who died in 2016.
Foreword
This book has a single purpose. I expose my own feelings so that you can prepare yourself to undergo the same harsh, demanding array of feelings when you find yourself living with and caring for an Alzheimer’s patient.
This book is not about a disease. It is mainly about the feelings of a man living with someone who has Alzheimer’s.
This book is about the complex feelings you will experience when Alzheimer’s comes to your home – when you decide to take care of your mother, your father, or your spouse who has been stricken with this insidious disease.
Millions of people are diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease in this country. Many are taken care of at home; perhaps in their own home; perhaps in the home of a daughter or son. It is estimated that well over ten million Americans struggle to take care of a relative with Alzheimer’s or some other form of dementia.
This book will not explain the clinical aspects of Alzheimer’s; it is not meant to describe how Alzheimer’s will affect your loved one; it will not elaborate on the hundreds of resources to help you in caring for your loved one suffering from this hideous disease; it will not chronicle the daily events of my mother-in-law, who has Alzheimer’s and is living in our house. It is, rather, about my feelings as I go through this experience.
My purpose is to share my own feelings about Alzheimer’s so you may prepare yourself for similar feelings if your parent or spouse becomes a victim—if Alzheimer’s comes to your home. Be prepared. Even be forewarned. Often it will be overwhelming.
INTRODUCTION
It really had started earlier - the confusion, the slowing down, the forgetting, the hesitation of speech and movement, but by the end of the summer we realized that my mother-in-law had Alzheimer’s disease. My wife and I made the decision to take her in and give her care. I’m not sure we were prepared for the effects of this decision. No one explained what we were getting into.
My mother-in-law (whom I call Mom) has Alzheimer’s and is living in my home. In fact, she has taken over our house! It seems that everything is focused on her or scheduled around her. Decisions are based on her—her needs and her illness.
My wife, Penny, and I were invited to dinner one Thursday night. The question was not whether we wanted to go. It’s whether we could go. Could we get someone to watch Mom? Could we stay long, or would we need to get back home to let the caregiver go home?
A small, insignificant decision? Sure. But when virtually every decision follows that same pattern, it becomes frustrating and maddening. It leads to feelings of resentment.
And it’s the same with big and truly significant decisions. Mom has been living with us for eight years. During this period, for several reasons, it has seemed a good time to move. I remember the first discussion, six years ago. This would be a perfect time to move. The house is starting to need some repairs...mortgage rates are low...people want to move into this neighborhood...we know about six places we could move to and be really happy.
Yeah, but what about Mom...How would she do in a strange place? I’m not sure it would be good for her...Maybe we should just wait and see what happens with her.
And thus we have waited; watching the mortgage rates go up, and passing on what seemed a few excellent opportunities to move.
My reactive feelings to this Alzheimer’s-in-the-house situation are all over the place: confusing, positive and negative, unclear and contradictory, hopeful and pessimistic, loving and resentful.
Sometimes I feel like screaming in frustration. Other times I say, This is just the way it is. You take care of family. You love. And you do it with a generous heart and a certain amount of joy.
In this book, you’ll see the ups and downs and all sides of the absolute craziness the disease called Alzheimer’s brings into your house. You’ll get a little glimpse of what it does to Mom so you’ll know what to expect. But mostly you’ll see how it affects the caregiver so you’ll be prepared for your own feelings. You’ll see how it brings out the very best in my wife and my children, so you’ll see why I say there is good in all this.
You’ll see the negative, the sad, and the frustrating. But you’ll also see the positive, the love, the hope, and the rewards. It’s as if someone picked up the magnificent kaleidoscope off my desk and painted several of the brilliant pieces of glass a matt black. The darkness is there – no doubt, but so are the many beautiful reds, yellows, greens, blues, and oranges. I still can control the rotation of the glasses to focus on what I want to see. Even though it is difficult at times, I can find the colorful pieces and enjoy their beauty.
Alzheimer’s, if it comes to your home, will present you with a kaleidoscope of experiences and feelings. Be ready to find heroes in the daily difficulties. You will laugh; you will cry. You will see true love and feel frustration. You will lose patience; you will be forced to calm down. You will dislike what the disease does, yet it will prepare you for your own future.
Walk with me through these pages as I portray what I’ve felt during this process. My purpose is to prepare you for your own experiences with Alzheimer’s in the house. When you get to glimpse where I’ve been, perhaps you won’t feel quite so frustrated or guilty. You will fully realize that many others have been there before you, or are there even today. You’ll feel normal rather than unusual, connected rather than isolated, familiar rather than uncertain, maybe even confident rather than scared.
At the end of each section, I’ve written a prayer – a simple, honest, eyes-closed, sincere prayer spoken to God. These prayers are not just written productions to add something to this book. They are honest words expressing my heart to God. If you relate to them, make them your own.
Or just speak your own heart to God. It helps, and he helps.
A Prayer for Assurance
God of Abraham, Isaac , and Jacob, be with me now. I need your help. I need your assurances.
Just as you spent forty years walking with your people in the desert, walk with me as I wrestle