When Grown Ups Cry

By Jasna Jackson

"Yoyo was interesting because she was always having a lot of secrets and she never shared them, sometimes maybe with anyone. She felt that if she will talk about it those words and things will disappear so she rather was just listening and observing and was quiet. "

The book is about a growing up girl. She was adopted and she sees things a bit different and since she was little, she loves the stars the most. First she saw them on the sky at night than as people too.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Sep 21, 2012
• ISBN: 9781477270066

Jasna Jackson

The author loves writing since she was two years old. She educated privately in American literature. In the school she was in linguistic section. She was writing poetry since five and prose and short stories since 10. Her father was a teacher and she loves writing just because of writing. She chooses to write in American language because it’s a big language and has a lot of words for writing. She thinks that everybody shall love writing, because with writing you easily express your feelings.

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© 2012 by Jasna Jackson. All rights reserved.

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Published by AuthorHouse   09/14/2012

ISBN: 978-1-4772-7008-0 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4772-7007-3 (hc)

ISBN: 978-1-4772-7006-6 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2012917299

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CONTENTS

AIN’T NO SUNSHINE

AIRPLANES ON A SKY

BABIES

BIG CITY

WAITING FOR YOU

YOU STARE

YOYO CRAYING

MY LOVE

SONG TO UNBORN BABY

MY FIRST LOVE

SONG TO ME

FOR THE LOOK IN YOUR EIES

BOBI

CHANGES ON THE SKY

YOYO AT YEAR 1

Y0Y0 AT TWO YEARS OLD

YOYO AT TREE YEAR OLD

YOYO AT FOUR

YOYO AT FIVE

YOYO AT SIX

YOYO AT SEVEN

AT EIGHT

YOYO AT NINE

YOYO AT TEN

YOYO AT ELEVEN

YOYO AT TWELVE

AT THIRTEEN

AT FOURTEEN

AT FIFTEEN

AT SIXTEEN

AT SEVENTEEN

CURLS IN HIS HAIR

DOG

CHILD

FLOWERS

CARS

TOYS

BIRDS

SNOW

CLOUDS

SEA

THE STARS

FIRE

MUSIC

FIRE

AQUARIUM

BUTERFLY

BOOKS

TELEPHONE

PICTURES

WRITING

STREET

STORY ABOUT BOY AND A FISH

EARLY IN THE MORNING

ONCE UPON A TIME

RIDING

TREE

MEADOW

RAIN

HOT DAYS

PIECE OF PAPER

ENJOY

LOVE

CATS

TORTOISE

FIERINESS

HOUSES

SAND

CHILDREN

FIELDS

LOVE

WORDS

LANGUAGE

AFRICA

ME LIVE WITH PRINCE

RIVER

BATHING

RAIN

SHADOW

FALL

BABYS

ABOUT A MOON

MUSA

HIS HAIR

AUTUMN

PATH

LOVE ROMAN

E-BOOK

YOUR LIPS

LOVE

FALLING IN LOVE

TREES

THE STRITE

SONGS OF LOVE

MOODS AND YOYO

YOYO AND EATING

FIVE SONGS

SUN SHYNING

BIRDS SINGING

MEAT ME EARLY IN THE MORNING

WHEN YOYO BATHING

IN A FALL

LETER TO MICHAEL

DOG

CHILD

MAN

WOMAN

HORSE

PEOPLE

FOOD

WHATER

BALL

EISCREEM

MY THOUGHT

BICIKLE

WINDOWS

DOOR

AQUARIUM

BUTERFLY

BOOKS

TELEPHONE

PICTURES

WRITING

STREET

STORY ABOUT BOY AND A FISH

EARLY IN THE MORNING

ONCE UPON A TIME

RIDING

TREE

HOT DAYS

WHEN NIGHT FALLING DOWN

PIECE OF PAPER

ENJOY

HOUSES

SAND

CHILDREN

FIELDS

LOVE

WORDS

LANGUAGE

AFRICA

ME LIVE WITH PRINCE

RIVER

BATHING

RAIN

SHADOW

FALL

ABOUT A MOON

MUSA

HIS HAIR

AUTUMN

PATH

NIGHT

LOVE LETTER TO PRINCE

LOVE LETTER TO JASNA

INTERWEW WITH ME

FIRST TIME I MEAT A MICHAEL JACKSON

SONG TO MICHAEL

WHEN A GROW UPS CRY

RED ROSE 14.2. 2010.

PRINCE AND JASNA

MICHAEL AND JASNA

JASNA AND JASNA

JASNA WALK AND TALK

ADOPTED GIRL

LOVE A STAR

LOVING YOU

ON THE GARDEN

HOW I MEAT A PRINCE STAR

ABOUT A HEIR

SONG ABOUT A PURPLE RAIN

MY THOUTS

MY LOVE PRINCE

MY LOVE MICHAEL

RAINY DAYS

SUN DAYS

WOMAN AND GIRLS NAMES

YOYO ON A DISTANCE

WHILE IT A RAINNING

RED

CLOUDS

WHEN I TOUCH YOU

WANNA SEE YOU TONIGHT

WHEN I SEE YOU CLOSE TO ME

FOR YOUR EIES ONLY

YOU ARE MY VELVET BUTERFLAY

YOYO LEASTENNING

I LOVE YOU

SONG ABOUT JACK

SONG TO PRINCE

YOUR HANDS

LOVE A STAR

THE WAY YOU ARE HOLDING A MIKE

HOW A YOYO WAS LEARNING

HOW TO WALK

PRINCE AS A FATHER

LOVE YOU LIKE A DROP

YOYO AND CIRCUS

YOYO IN A ZOO

DANCING

LAY TO ME

OCEAN SONG

INTO YOUR EIES

PRINCE AND KONCERT MUSIC

RIVER GOES

FOR MY LOVER

YOYO DRESING

THE RAIN IN YOUR HEAR

MUSIC IN MY EAR

TO JUST A KISS YOU

TO GIVE YOU A HUG

TO SPEND A NIGHT WITH YOU

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

SONG TO LITTLE PRINCE

LOVE SONG

BLACK CAT

WHEN I WAS A YOUNG

LOVE A STAR

UNDER THE SUN MARRELA

MICHAEL FACE

PRINCE

QUIET

ON A OCEAN

STARS

WHEN I LOVE YOU

PRINCE

YOYO WANT BABYS

YOUR FINGERS TOUCHING REIN

YOU MEAN ALL WORD TO ME

YOUR VOICE

SOMETHING AROUND YOUR NECK

SECOND TIME YOYO SAWED MICHAEL JACKSON

PRINCE IN THE NEDERLAND

OCEAN

GAYS AND LESBIANS

YOYO AND LETTERS

YOYO LOVE

YOYO PAIN

YOYO PLAINS

PROSA AND POESY

THE BOY IN THE SNOW

THE BOY PICKING THE LEAF

THE GIRL IN THE ZOO

AN EAGEL ON THE HILL

WHEN NIGHT FALL DOWN

WHEN GIRL FALL IN LOVE

WHEN HE SMILE

WHEN RAIN START TO

FALLING DOWN

WHEN SUN STARTING TO RISE

OCEAN FLAWING

LONELINESS

MY HEART

THE BUS STATION

SWIMMINGPOOL

WHEN I’M LEASTENNING THE BLUES

INTO YOUR EIES

SONG TO JASNA

LETTER

YOUR PERFORMANCE

WHEN YOU CRY

BRIDGE

SONG TO CHILDREN

WHEN I LAY AROUND YOU

WALK

INTO YOUR EIES

YOYO AND HER EIES

READING

YOU IN RED

EVELIN

BREDA

IVANA

YOYO

TJASA

MIRJA

MARKO

WHAT YOYO WANTED TO BE

YOYO 20 YEARS AGO

WHEN YOYO WACKING UP

HOW YOYO SLEEP

YOYO TAKING A WALK

ROMANTIC WALK WITH YOYO

TO MICHAEL

TROUBLE

WHEN I SEE YOU

WHEN RAIN FALLING DOWN

JAN

SONG OF LOVE

YOYO BAYED HER FIRST MUSIC

YOYO CAME IN SLOVENIA

YOYO FRIENDS

YOYO LEFTED HOME

YOYO LOVE CATS

YOYO ON A GARDEN

YOUR LIPS

SONG TO MIHAEL

MOODS AND YOYO

YOYO TRAVELLING

WHEN I WANNA BABY

THE SOUND OF RAIN

PRINCE IN WHITE

WHEN A PRINCE WALK

WHEN YOU BLINK

YOYO WRITING ABOUT LOVE

YOYO WRITING TO PRINCE

YOYO WRITING ABOUT PRINCE

AIN’T NO SUNSHINE

You ever want something that you know you shouldn’t have the more you know you shouldn’t have it the more you want it and then one day you get it it’s so good toobut it’s just like my girl when she’s around me I just feel so good, so good but right now I just feel cold, so cold, right down to my bones ’cause ooh… ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone it’s not warm when she’s away ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone and she always gone too long anytime she goes away wonder this time where she’s gone wonder if she’s gone to stay ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone and this house just ain’t no home anytime she goes away I know I know hey I ought to leave her alone ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone only darkness every day ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone and this house just ain’t no home anytime she goes away

Welcome to Hollywood that’s what they told you a child star in Hollywood that’s what they sold you grace with a beauty, charme and talent you would do what you were told but they robbed you of childhood took your youth and sold it for gold Elizabeth I love you you’re every star that shines in the world to me Elizabeth can’t you see that it’s true Elizabeth I love you you’re more than just a star to me lovely Elizabeth you have surpassed them all my friend Elizabeth learned to outlast them all many started back when you did lost their way and now they’re gone but look at you a true survivor full of life and carrying on this is your life you seem to have it all you reached your peak they wanted you to fall it’s very sad this word can be so bad but though all the heartaches when they put you down you know you were the victor and you earned the crown it’s like walking through the fire determinded to win you were beating life’s battles again and again Elizabeth I love you you’re every star that shines in the world to me Elizabeth can’t you see that it’s tru remember the time I was alone you stood by my side and said let’s be strong you did all these tings that only a true friend can do

Elizabeth I love you the world knows you work now I pray one day I’’ll be just like… you

AIRPLANES ON A SKY

When Yoyo was a little girl she heared an airplain but was not able to see him and she wanted to see airplain. They were flying so high and were so small that was not possibile to see them just to hear them and the sound was so big and strong and deep that she was thinking must be a very big, big that airplain. She wanted them flying little more down closer to her and to the ground that she can see it. She was thinking they do goes down no anyway so. If they can go up and down that they can go a bit higher and a bit downer. So one day the eirplain startet to going more and more down and Yoyo was thinking now what will he go tottaly down and they said to her that she may start to saying a hi to them and Yoyo was happy that now she can talk with a airplain and say hi to him and after that it was saing that she can be spoted from an eirplain and she loved airplains and was always saying hi to him on a sky. Sometimes when being a lonelly she was searching for them on the sky, for the sound and the sound maked her happy, then she sawed him and this time being a biger she does not saing a hi anymore but traying to help him to fly strite and fust, sometimes making his wings stronger on the wind or shuing away a wind from a aerplain or thinking about a pilot inside how he has to be focused while driving an airplain.

BABIES

When girl find out about that she is pregnant is the most happiest time in her life, couse she is expecting a baby from tha man she loves.

BIG CITY

When a Yoyo was a child she was thinking how that can be that some live in a big citys and that she do not. Walking a days and nights for two km in the scool and back in the snow and a rain and in the sun, always on her feets, crossing a rivers, seeing a tundras and overflos, always having it a earplains under her head, being a wet and cold she was someho tired but loved her town.

Than a one day something happened and they moved in a big city. The apartment was a new and a big and all building was a new and it was a someone buidet up for her. The name of a street was a Salvador Aljende and she asket who that was. Some kind of a leader, they said.

And a Yoyo loved it. When night falled down she sowed all lights and all around. She forgot on a sun and moon and stars, the river she loved so much, the strits she walked so quiet and carefoul, on her childhood and a friends, the trees she was climbing on and a anymmals she was playing with. Horse a cow a dog and a cats stayed there. And a garden she loved to chasea buterflays on with a lot of flawors and a vegetabele. One part of her was happy for a city and another was a sad for a vilage.

This time, she was a 9 she has a school close to her about a 5 minutes long. She startet to gotting a better clotches and a presents but everithing else was the same. The new friends she got were very kind and playifool and a child playground was always for her to play on and with. She miised a gras and flavors, trees and birds and they got a flavors on a balcony. Foundet she a place were was a lot of gras and a tree with a birds on it and was a happy. She always take care that she is a happy.

Lot of cars and very loud even at night was a fun for her being a loud byherself. Going in schoul and playing around was a way of a Yoyo growing up. Swimming in a sumertime and skyeitin in a winter, playing a ball and bicikling all the time.

It was a time to she found out in what she is the interested the most to be able to put her energy in to. So she startet to paint. Painted she all the time, playing with a colors and a motives, going on a painting section, driving a pictures and making a sculptures was a good for a long time for her. She was a so happy that she was a smilling all the time and scrimming and somehow calmed down and forget about a things around her. Beutifoul paints she painted that athers were a braging about it and puttting it in a galeries and on the walls and a Yoyo was a proud of it. Every night befoure she went into the bad to sleep she painted a picture, usually a flawours and a butterflys or something. The paper on which she was a painting she loved couse had a two sides. One was a strite and nice and ather was rough and she needed to paint on a rough one that a colours stay longer. She was a draging a painting block around all the time, was not able to seperate and they sayed to her that she has to stop and just when she wanted to cry they sayed that she may try with a something else. And she sayed like a what, with her a big black eies and a red salivated and wet lips and usually a toungu out and they sayed with a gimnastic. She was thinking how she will have to be naket and those teacher and I mean, a naket, but then a well. She decidet that she will try a naket with a gimnastic. Her brest were just startet to groving and her legs were a biger and longer, she learnet to sit strite and to be a quiet and was always a thinking what that she will do on a gimnastic. She was always a thinking how she has a vagina in between her legs and how she has to think about a peeing, to not to forget. So she was stadied what to wear for a peeing whyle a doing it a gymnastic.

Gymnastic was a just a fine. It has a lot of dancing inside and it was a loud and she sawed a lot of naket boys for a first time. She was so happy that they were all naket and boys were cool. Yoyo stoped to pay atencion on a girls and startet to paing on a boys. Boys were a happy and smilling having her atencion, but when they came close she shoved them away and startet to count them how much of them is and is she a stronger then them all. When she discovered that she is she calmed down and startet to practice. It was obvious that she is growing up.

Gimnastic was a fun, jumping trough a things, drulling on the flours, playing a balls, basketballs and others thing and she startet to learning about a competing. There were a lot of learning how to win or something and she was like that is easy. She somehow always just needed to pay atencion and focus and usually she won. She losted only when she was not focused and she was a resting and smilling or something. Competicion was a big and a girls were needet to compite with a boys and there were a biger and stronger, it was not a fair but anyway, Yoyo was thinking that she has to use her brain when she is a fizically weaker and they moved on.

After a gimnastic she trayed a playing a cheh. That was also interested and practised her patience and stamina and alertnes… Some how a Yoyo was a tired being always a good and the best, that sometimes she wanted to cry and to be like athers children, who were having just a fun with it and anjoing in it.

So for awhyle she was a very sad and when she neded to do something she always wanted to cry instide. It was so boring that she nededt to learn something, do something and do the best and she was not a happy anymore. Jumping around and calming down around a boys for awhyle usually went to sing and dance and was thinking about a growing up and sex. Penis and vagina. that was easy so she startet to watching a boys and people eies instide. She got a game a coled staring in a eies. She wanted to fall in love watching it someone in a someone eies.

And she was a eies all about it, but then that was a forbiden and somehow she stoped, putting it a eis down but then a that meant that she is in love and she looket back again. She got a problem with a eies and a lost a vision for awhile. Staring in one point was her favorite herself and being a quiet all the time.

Usually was thinking about a snow and rain in the town and was enjoing in it a night lite on the stritesw was a thinking how inside living a people and families and they are a happy. The lights at night were her favorite things for a long and the reason she went to sleep and weited for a night to fall down.

She was thinking that when she will grow up that she will have her own family and was thinking were in the big city or in a small city. Than how it is easy to ruin and destroy a city the same to build up. Startet to stady a architect and wanted to stady. It was like a people searching for something new. From putting it homes on a long legs and in a whater till living it so high in to the sky on a 30 meters. Knowing a lot of of a fizic and mat Yoyo was lafing and smiling how that can be. Still thinking were that she will live with her family was not able to decide. If she will have on a vilage were is a lot of anymals children will get injured if she will have in a city they would fall from the high. So she createt in her mind something like big place and big house and somevere away from others and they anymals without having it a neighbourd so close but bit away. Wanted to be ocupated with her self and her family couse a neighrboud are usually fighting decidet that she will not. Because of children couse they are not quilty for what grow ups doing it.

When I walk with you

Always by my side

higher than I

smilling and talking all the time

being my eies on my shoulders

and my ear for so far away

I don’t have to talk

just to leasten and watch

whatever you say I believe

when I walk with you

never holding a hands

Touching me gentelly by my heir

watching me so close that I freeze

making me to fall and never pick me back

changing a sides and making a circles

clining a dust were I walk

troving a flavors all the time

Picking a things I drop

waiting for my tears

and chscking my teats

being so quiet that I see a dark

and scrimming so picky

that you make me smile

Yoyo startet to stady big cities. Every country had a big city and a name. There were a lot of counties and cities. Than a continents. Were not able to found a sence by learning cause that things were sayed to changing and Yoyo was thinking to not a change a name of city especially a big one. She loved Africa first and exept that there live a anymals and people and kids, having a oasa and a thunders and a desert that was all. She hardelly moved on to others continents a Europe than a Australia then a America and Azia and India. In Europe she was a like a home but did not felt like. Always looking around and searching for someone or something. She feal in love in America and behaved like that a pearson who live there. Wanted to stay there forever but she cept a secret feeling in love and moved elsevere. Learned big citys from USA like a New York and Whaschingtown and a Chicago, San Francisco, Los Angeles and always fealt like she was there already. Thinking how that can be when she did not, and they sayed maybe when she was a smalle and she doesn’t remmember so she was like is that bmean that I will be there again and it was like well where else. That somehow became her new home. She was a fizically elsevere but pshihically in USA. Always feeling in love around USA she was never talking about it or mainsioning it. Tht love for USA was growing up with her all the years. She turn around and love others too because of that.

Foundet about a White house and was obeying them instide.

Watching it trough a tv thinking like it is just a city, but still jsomething always was pulling her there.

The streets were ful of lights at night that people can walk and see at night. They were never turning them of till next day sunlight.

Always loud and it was like everibody knows everybody yu did not have a privacy. people were touching each others by walking by, smilling to each others and talking and watching each others. Yoyo was gfrowing up and watching and behaving like them.

Practising music a lot of in a apartamnt trough a day and sometimes nights with her halfa bradher she was ocupate with a sounds and very loud one. She was growing up and neded stronger sounds. Then a lights too. The lights were so strong that you were able to stay blind from them but Yoyo demanded them anyway. At night she slept well and walking trough a day easylly then before. The loud cars and stromg sun did not bother her anymore the same like a talkiing people on the strits and scriming kids and bicikles and motorcikles. Yoyo was enjoing by walking and passing around always singing inside of her self. She felt biger and stronger than a big citys and sun when she did not have anything anymore to do she went into boys. Watching it a city boys. Discovered that everywere is the same and she too hardelly waitet to grow up. The only thing was a different was a language and she startet to learn them. There were a lot of of them and dialect and it was fun to understand them. Interesting thing with a language was how you will learn them when there is no people who talking them and she turned on a tv just leastenning and observing. She missed a things like someone say to you this is this and that is that and here is that and you say like this and so on, but then she was not a child anymore and startet to learn by itself. Just leastenning and watching a moves and gest from a people. And it was not hard at all. One day she was just able to understand. Than she did not have anyone to talk with and she startet to sing then a writing.

About a citiy who were buildet up around a rivers. After a cities Yoyo went watching it a big rivers. Was suprised that there were no so much a big rivers. There were a lot of a small rivers and a few big who were going trough all cities and countries. Athers a smale one went into them and maked them a big. After that they went into a ocean and see anyway.

Big cities were also suronded or maidet on a big mointeins. Just a few big mointeins and a lot of small. The a lot of big cities maket her to think who is a leading those cities and a coutries and a continents and she went stadijing a big people. There were a lot of big people but only a few were always mentioned, some Japanies, Russian and American and Indian. They were leading a word and taking care that is a piece on it.They all have a lot of anymals and Yoyo went to love a girafe and a african anymals. I big cities they were no so much a anymals but only a Zoos and a Yoyo went in to the Zoo thinking how you can domesticate a wild anymal and let her live with a people. They did not liked a daylight and loudnes around them, maybe they got ustued since pups.

Usually people came from small towns were everibody knows them and they went into the big cities thinking how noone knows them and will find out that they are having sex in big cities. And aftzer they came in big cities living they parenths in a small one they startet to behave and doing it what is that they want. And a saying a word is small which shall mean you may meat someone anyway did not helped them. They usually went into the school and jobs in big cities and were having a fun with a sex. like noone will ever found out about it. so big cities became a cities of sex. Yoyo coming from a small town decided to behave the same even if in a big city, She was having a fun watching it others in big cities and the way they behaved sayed to her that they are coming from a smal towns and behaving it like they are from the big cities. And a Yoyo who behaved like from a small town even if she did not weanted she looked like coming from the big, because they were misbihaving like on a small were is a lot of of anymals and a Yoyo learned how to behave around an anymals, so she was a quiet all of the time thinking about a anymals and those people who are obviously like one.

Tipical for them was that they are a lasy, eating and fucking a lot of they are a loud and altough a fighting a lot of the same like a anymals from a vilage. And a big city became like an anymal city. Cince a Yoyo loves a anymals cince a childhood and a anymals love her too couse she was a feading them alot of and a pating them and talking with them a lot of they are kind of a friend. Yoyo did not knowed how to breed with a so coled a people anymals and she was a searching for a man like her, quiet and nice even if it live in a Los Angelos…

When I want you

I ofer you my leaps

put my body close to you

hug you and kiss you

whisper to your ear

open your legs

and touch you, bring you inside

and love you

when I want you

do not loock a doors

open a windows

music you can always hear

that is the sign that I want you

I talk all the time

distractin your atencion

that you can not think about somethin else

I shaut your mouth with myine

and close your eies that you can not see me

and remember me

When I love you

Holding your hand gentely

to not a breck your fingers

taking care of your clotches

and a shoues

clinning your lips

and your mouth

always leastenning to every word you say

constantelly watching you

from the head till the feets

never talk to you about a things you do not want to hear

waiting for you all the time

sleep with you

and waiting you fall to sleep

wacking you up early in the morning

giving you a things you love

and showing you around

never want to let your hand

or a you from my eiseight

traying to make you smile

and never lie to you

Yoyo never was vearing a marela in big cities. Everrything was so close and a rain was not so hard that she is need a one. When it was a rainning she was going just with a heat on the head and with a head down to rain does not fall in to her eies or in to the mouth. Always stepping in to the water to see how deep is never cared for a shues. There were a lot of shues in the cities and a clotches and a food. So Yoyo was walking around in a city and always paing atencion on a lights on the car in the windows and on a streets. The light was a big so she was thinking how a big lights can be in a real big city like a American cities. They were turned on even on the day so that was a nice. Loving a candles, fire and sun and a strong light for reading and good eiseight she was thinking about a big lights when you can see everithing without traying it. Small towns did not had a big and strong lights and they were going to sleep when a dark falled down and wacking up when a sun goes up and when a clouds went over a sun they were not able to to see anything and the time that a lights caled electric was missing was a lot of of. Yoyo wanted to have a light everivere and all the time exept when she close the eies that it was a dark. So she never needed a dark just a lights couse she was able to create a dark but not a lights.

WAITING FOR YOU

waiting for you day and night

while a raining falling down

and sun going cros the sky

and a river flaving and a birds flying

I’m waiting for you

every step I do

counting them carefully

the day it’s gone

the month and a year

waiting for you to say hi

how are you

the sno falling and disapiring

circus coming and living

changing my shous and a clotches

may heir is groving

gotting a bigger and older

stronger and seriousnes than before

for a man like you

I’m waiting for

Music rolling and a movies with a ends

cars driving so speed

dogs barking loud

people faces changing like a pictures in a album

gras groving and being cutet again

while is growing I waiting for you

Birds nesting

cats scriming

stars shyning eirplains flaying so high

I am bathing with a new shampoon

and waiting for you

like a night waiting for a day to raise

YOU STARE

My stomack heard me so bad

wanna smile but should not

gotta be serious, whyle you are staring

a smilles in your stare that I can fall on the flor for lafing

I just can stop smilling when you staring

Can not runaway

can not hide or pratend

when you stare I just smile

not to you but for being happy to see you

gotta bit my toungu and my lips

and close my eies

and to breathe

You see so far away

and so clean

precise and strite

that any dust can hide

couse your eies are so clean

like a sky with a clean clouds

or a river with a slaps

while you stare

can hide anything

so I smile

usually people put a glasses to not to stare

I think I need a one from your stare

to stop to smile

The favorite a picture of a big city was a picture taket at night from a big city Amsterdam. It was a night and dark and only lights were on a picture. From that picture a Yoyo learned to watch cities at night and the lights. The lights at night were a sign for big cities. Trough a day a Yoyo loved a sun light and at night she loved a cities lights. That how she was not a scare of the darknes and to be alone. To not to see anything at night or in a darknes or to not to hear anything. the night life and a darknes and a night was for a anymals only a predators who did not needet to see or to hear that just usually were hunting something or someone. And Yoyo went after a lights living a darknes and quietnes for her friends anymals who need that space and time for they self.

Never she was a scared of it or anything like that spending a lot of time with them as a child she just respect them alot of and since she was not a one of them she went after a lights and somehow they are a friends being in a darknes or on a lights.

Big cities looked more clean than a small cities because the wind and a rain cleaned it better than in small cities. The ear was more fresh because of a mountains around it and because closnes from the biger river and a ocean and a see.

Car was bigger people was waiter and everithing was a fuster than in a small slippy towns.

Spended a years on a streets of a big cities felt somehow a safe on them. Soon forget on a loudnes and was not bothered with anyone and anything.

YOYO CRAYING

When Yoyo craying a buildings moving

the treas schacking

windows bloving

and a gras growing

The birds singing

moon moving

and a dogs barking

rain starting

and a sun hiding

she can bath in her tears

and a do a lake or a see

day disapire and night come

old one cray too

the mouses scrimming

and a clouds moving

cars stoping

and horses breading

and everything disapiring

mirrors broking

and a cats growling

children smilling

the train moving stars falling

the sky openning

and a God shoving

when Yoyo craying

Travelling so long from one to another meeting them and seeing them always the same just different lenguage.

The way you dance

Before a music start

you are dancing

watching everivere all the time

being fust like a sunlight

Heer more your foots

than the music

but have a better ritm

than a claping with a hands

Your arms are always open

while you dance

and your eies are closed

moving everivere spinning and circling

and sometimes a smile too

The way you dance

makes me wanna sing

come closer to you and dance with you

the way you dance

The way you walk

Your fingers are always up

while you walk

and strite

your knicec touching they self gentelly

making a brisky walk

Do not move a hands

and turning a head

having a goal already there

while clotches playing with a wind

Showing a hands rearelly

and playing with a fingers

without a sound

you may cros by my side

I would not hear you

Like you are already there

never watching a way the way you walk

kissing a leaps by itself

and touching your nous

with a hear around you all the time

The way you are sleaping

Peacefool like a lamb

never turning a side on which you are sleeping

waking late and watching around

talking loong at night

Before you get up

you stand for awhyle

watching it around

smiling and moving

Covered all the time

and soft pilow

sometimes driving you teears

and picking your smile

Your legs never touching each other

and hands are always crosset

and hear making you to breathe

covering your eies gentelly

Yoyo was a born in a small vilagge with a few houses than got adopted in a bigger city called before a town. Spended there a few years and than went into the bigger city. After that she came in a big city a capitall one. To live in a capittal one was a easy. The strrets were a big and parks were big, houses and cars and people were a big. It was a lot of room and space for Yoyo to moving around. In every big city and a capitel one is only one a big and capitall strite, than a river than a buildings and chirch and zoo and train and bus station and that was all. After a Yoyo getet to know that better she went to knowing a big restorans and getting to know a night life of a big cities. The cities also have a big and important a people she get to know better. Some were a writter, some politicians some someone and something. A lot of them were from a TV who was a very important for a big cities. Yoyo get to know everibody and went a back to writting. Didi not knowed to write yet in a English decidet to visiting a lot of cinema and places were is a English used alot of. Exept in a movies and a music sometimes in some proffesionals things like a medicine or vets a books were not athers sorces for a english. Thinking about to meat someone who talks that lenguage did not halped and all she neededt just to leastenning. Living in a citie with a one language and leastenning and learning another was a fun for Yoyo. Parallely she was talking a two language translating inside a things they were a talking in a other lenguage. That was a first step in a english. To translating.

MY LOVE

Having a 10 fingers on my hands and a 10 on my legs and a lot of hair on my head, that much I have a loves.The touch, the smile, the kiss is a love. The first love was a boy.

Jasna and Michael and a Thriller

A lot of things was happening at that time. Jasna was fascinated with a tv but tv was under a bigs control. She was alowed to watch a cartoon sometimes a news and sometimes something for a children some movie or something and for a New year to stay longer and watch a music show. So tv was a big no, no for a Yoyo. Usually when you sayed no to her she was stadying why and she did not but just tryed.

So she was stadying a tv and at that time a Michael showed and she decidet that she is a big already. Before of him she fealt smalle, but after him she fealt grow up.

Big city Yoyo get ustued easily but most of the time she went to visit a small town were she was growet up. In big city learned a big street to go up and down and around and soon get to know everibody and fealt safe. Big city meant to grow up and a small viligages meant for a children to grow up, so she was logging for the biggest cities like a Waschington or Chickago or New York to be very big and very grow up and very poverfool. more pover meant les fear and more happines. Yoyo hated to be scared. Traying with a smiles did not lasted long, reduced with a knowing a people and educations, still there were always someone or something a biger and better than she and she did fealt a scared of it. So she decidet to go and stady the bigest cities in the word. First needed to learn they language and a culture than to get to know them from a distance. They were a very big even if they did not was a stars or something important. The way a people from a big cities talking and walking was very different, very poverfool, but somehow a gentle like a from a dragon. So she adored they gentelenes and inteligance couse they are obviously were a noot scared and a that was what a she was searching for it. The piece and a place and pearsons without a fear and that a meant a pure a love, kindnes and a goodnes. Those who do not showing a fear are not agresive and they do not hate anyone so it was a nice to be around them and to learn from them. Yoyo did not have a choise with who to be and from who to learn, I mean she did and she chuesd that way. She did not like the hating inside of her and fighting spirit she had a big and strong that sometimes hearded her badelly. Searching for a love to calm down or sometimes she tought that she may explode like atomic bomb if you trow her somevere or with someone from her presence. She just changed a hate for love and a fear for happines. She was not thinking that she was a born like that she was more thinking that she got it from someone or from somevere and just needed to give a back all those things she did not liked to the places and pearsons she touth that she got from it. It was like hey, you have something mine that belong to me, please give me back i will give you yours. Sometimes fealt like wearing it someone clotches all those things and characteristic she got and it was a hard to wear anymore. When she sowed that someone wearing her clotches she was till the point of craying being happy that she meatet hers self was begging to give her clotches back. And those things usually were happening spontaniously. The bigest part of her was always in bigest cities in a USA and she was a scared of that till one day shedecidet to go and search for her self and was traying to put herself together. All she knowed that once upon a time she was nice child and a girl and than all of the saddent something startet to happening and she was just like a what is this, I can not change so much and so fust. Being quiet all of the time she kept standing around a big people and sometimes fealt that she being so small suporting them all with her small heart being so nice and good and somehow feitfool and with a kind of believe or something. She never lost a trust and belive in a positivity and goodnes and kindnest in happy andings and a love. That is how she thinks and feel and believe. Sometimes she was a on a bad way and big people puted her back sometimes they were anyway they were always halping to each other and that was a fun for her.

SONG TO UNBORN BABY

Waiting for your face

to see your smile

whitout a teets

to hold you and be carefool to not to squiz you

to touch you and to not to hurt you

whisper to you till you fall to sleep

clean your eies to wacke you up

leasten to you all day night long

and never let you from my eies

puting a things in your hands

and makking you to stand

never let you cray

gotta be so fust

dressing you in a brightest colors

to sun be happy to see you and feading you all the time

taking you everivere to you not be alone

and never let you in the dark

show you a rain and the sky

flawors and a birds

a lot of furrie things

thiching you to talk without a words

and a hear a sounds far away from you

never let you from my hands

and to someone to touch you

far from to kiss you and never hide you

from the crowd around you

till you grow up

my unborn baby

It is about that I have to be a friend with everibody if i do like or not. I can not avoid them so I think they are my friends and that how I do behave like they are my friend and always asking my self a question am i they friend or they are my friend and I say to myself well as long as i am they friend everithing is just fine do they wanna be my friend I usually care less about it. I am they friend couse i want and wisch for them a love and children who are a product of love and happines to stay away from the troubles and be happy and good and nice and the same i want for myself to if they do or not. Sometimes feel like having a milion friends who making my day brighter and while a wind blow and a trees shaking thinking about them all the time how happy they are smilling somewere on the distance.

So everi time I met a bad person I wish them all the best and that is the most I can do for them and my conces is clear that I am with them but not like them and being they friend.

MY FIRST LOVE

The way he was standing with a hands in his pocket

holding with a back on the wall

with his head down and smilling

his red leaps and a white teaths

wanted to kiss him

pull his heand from his pocket

and make him strite

to walk on the streets

and touching it a ground

to wach him from behinde

his hear was touching his shoulders

and his chin was a visibile

his eies was hiden and he was shacking

and dancing on the streets instide

singing so loud that I was able to hear him

Slept with him all day night long

were unseperatet till a sunrise

walk with him and talk with him

I thought will be always the same

and last forever and every time feel

like a first one

Waiting to grow up be big and old unof and strong unof to be a parenth the most beutifoul time in my life. Growing up coincidentally on a same planet so coled a space and time like the man who shall be a fater of my baby I became his friend instied, sister mother child and he became my friend brather father and son like. being always around me i never fealt like I need him or want him it is like well I always have him he just live somewere else, fealt like you never sepereted from him anyway and there is no space and time and distance for a love to be maidet and created. If I meat him it would be like I know him all the time and I was never anyway or with anyone else anyway, like a start again, but this time like a 50 40 as a grow up not like a 9 and 18 like a children. Nothing ever changed at all.

I thouth that I will change and be different and someone else and it is still me the same. love to walk and talk and smile write and swim jump and scrim.

So those the man of my life is still the same. When you manshin the fact that he is a man and that I am a woman I just go in his arms and behave quiet that a place for a girl and a place for a boy.

SONG TO ME

you shall smile a bitles

to buterflays does not jump

into your mouth

you shall walk more careful to not to

fall on the streat and cry

forever

you shall be quiet that others have to

say something

and you have to leasten

instide than a talk

and sometimes show a bit

respect and patiance

toward others around you

for a change

Walks with dogs became a Yoyo favorite activities cince she was a child. It was a lot of fun and her walking and leastenning and watching improved much more than a usually. Yoyo usually let a dog lead her around and she just falloving thinking how they do know where to go, somehow they just read a mind before a Yoyo think about it. So walks are usually just like a swimmings in a see, when you do not feel nothing. Not even that you walk. You just let a dog lead you and you are fallowing. When they have to stop it is like something will turn around or fall that why they do not like to stoping, usually just walking in some directions, making a circle and come back. The way the legs moving fust that you can not see them and a speadnes around makes you wanna not to stop them in that kind of speednes. She stoped walking with a dogs couse athers startet to stoping them and talking with them, something a Yoyo and dogs does not like otherways they can spend all day standing on one place and talking with a strangers.

She did not wanted to fight so she stoped walking out with a dog, just a bit on a distance noone have a time to stop them, close to home. So Yoyo jumpa out do a bit walk and came back and repite that a few times and it is the same like a big walk at once.

Yoyo simply anjojed in walks with a dogs and to be with them like a friends and some people were thinking like she can be there for some other reason the same like them. Of course you can use a dogs for a lot of reason but they were always a wrong one for a Yoyo. She just simply wanted to be with them and spend some time alone and others were thinking oposite so Yoyo findet her self in a trouble.

But being a Yoyo she did a fine at the and having a fun with it and smiling on those things and memories. She never maindet about it, saying to herself sometimes you are the same so.

Botom line we all love a dogs and children and each other and traying our best as much as we can.

Yoyo walket with a children with a people and with a anymals and always feel the same, she just walk with someone and faloving never feel anything while walking. The spednes stoping her to see and the loudnes stoping her to hear so she just walk, usually never paing atencion on anything, sometimes thinking how she menaged to go trough those things without a bruist. Nothing ever happen to her while she walk or talk or sing or dance or scrime watch tv and a movies flaying around a Word in a eirplain jumping from the balkony downing in a see and crossing abig streets she just never think about it and feels like a normal to her even in a big city.

Big city had a night life who lasted all night long. Usually there were a lot of night clubs and music and a lot of things was happening on the streets till down. People were wearing nice clotches and a lot of shiny jury to be seeied at night. Were a lot of smilling and scriming and being a loud and it was like trough a daytime exept it was trough night. Big cities had a good night life a biger than a small cities.

FOR THE LOOK IN YOUR EIES

Black as a darknes night

warm as a sun in a julie

short like a reinbow

the look in your eies

to put my teers into them

wash them that you can see only me

give all the word to them

just to see you smile