The Little Things
By Ali S. Black
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Little things can have great impacts on peoples lives; a smile or compliment can warm the heart. But have you ever considered the impact little negative things may have on someone? Author Ali Black has been considering that for years, in an attempt to once and for all heal from her past and move forward as the new creation God wants her to be. For all of you with hurting hearts out there, you are not alone and you are loved!
Ali S. Black
The process of creating this book required Ali to reflect back over her life’s experiences and the effect they had on her. Along this path she discovered God’s love, forgiveness, and grace. A life that was shrouded in darkness and pain has now burst forth in the beautiful glow of God’s light, leaving her with an intense desire to share the gift of God’s grace with others. Ali is blessed to live in a land that many refer to as “God’s Country”—Lancaster County, Pennsylvania. It is “God’s Country” to her because it is where she came to have a personal relationship with her Lord and Savior. She describes her life as blessed, with a God-fearing, patient, and faithful husband and an incredible, inspiring son. Every day she thanks her Lord for the privilege of being her son’s mom; he gives her inspiration and joy. The Lord’s creation often leaves her mesmerized by its sheer beauty and wonder. She enjoys partaking in His creation by hiking, running, and biking.
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The Little Things - Ali S. Black
Contents
Preface
Background
CHAPTER ONE Negative In, Negative Out
CHAPTER TWO The Big Move
CHAPTER THREE Hurt-Filled Memories
CHAPTER FOUR Boy Crazy
CHAPTER FIVE A New Start
CHAPTER SIX Longing for Love
CHAPTER SEVEN Broken Beyond Repair
CHAPTER EIGHT Downward Spiral
CHAPTER NINE A Long Road to Healing
EPILOGUE
NOTES
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
2 Cor.12:9
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
First and foremost, all my praise and thanksgiving goes to my heavenly Father and Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. His grace, forgiveness, and love that has been lavished upon me leaves me in amazement and wonder. His faithfulness to me has never wavered, even though times I have been unfaithful in my living and serving Him. Praise be to my Redeemer for his steadfast love!
The Lord has also blessed me with a godly, faithful, patient, and loving husband. God knew I would need a very strong man to stick with me through the ups and downs. Thank you to my hubby for never giving up on me.
No words can fully express my gratitude to my Lord for the precious gift of my son. I love my amazing son with all my being—don’t know how else to put it. It is an absolute privilege and honor to be his mom.
To my husband and son, I am writing this to put an end finally to the pain and stop its cycle so it doesn’t continue. This book is my way of allowing God, through my brutal honesty, to bring good out of what the Devil meant for death and destruction and shed light on the darkness. I pray that God will bless you with the ability to understand and forgive.
Thank you, Mom, for being understanding and encouraging me to do whatever I needed to heal. For your selflessness, I am eternally grateful. Your support of me through this process has been a tremendous gift to me. I love you.
Far too many others have touched my life to thank individually. The Lord has richly blessed me with loving and caring people who pray for me, guide me, and lift me up. The Lord has shown His love to me by surrounding me with those who have helped me through my journey, gently encouraging me along the way.
Lastly, thank you to my family. Even though my path in life has taken me through some dark places, it has made me the person I am today. I believe that if I hadn’t traveled those roads, I would not have the empathy for others I have now. It’s that empathetic quality I’ve come to appreciate and value the most about myself.
Preface
For the past several years, a constant prayer of mine has been that what the Devil meant for death and destruction, God would use for good and his glory. Often I am awed and amazed at how God has blessed and honored that prayer. By no means am I a finished work, but still very much in progress. The Lord has been faithful to me even when I have turned my back on Him. Every time I fell, God in his love picked me up, dusted me off, dried my tears, and set my feet upon the rock once again.
Many years of soul searching, appointments with psychologists and counselors, and much needed time with God have provided a greater understanding of myself and how my mind works. However, I know there is much more God has yet to reveal to me about who I am and His love for me. The one thing I have come to know is that my need and desire for love and acceptance is still a stumbling block for me, even as a Christian. Even now, the Devil, the master of lies, can make me doubt God’s love for me, especially when I know I have fallen short of living a godly life. But then the Bible reminds me in Romans 3:23, For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.
One thing I am sure of is that I am grateful for grace
and for all the dear people who have expressed God’s unfailing love to me along my life’s journey. May I be faithful in passing that love along to other hurting souls who need to know God loves them.
My prayer for this book is that the eyes of parents will be open to the pain they may cause their children through simple words or actions. There may also be people searching for the reason for their inner turmoil and pain who may find comfort in knowing they are not alone and there is light at the end of this tunnel
called life.
Background
We’ve probably all heard the saying that it’s the little things in life that make a difference. Usually upon hearing this, we think of positive things like a sunrise, a fragrant flower, a smile, or a kind word—little things that bring joy to our lives. In this book, I hope to show you also how profoundly the little negative things can send us spiraling down into a world of darkness and despair.
If my memory serves me, nothing extremely traumatic happened to me as a child, although I have lots of gray areas in my memory. To my knowledge, I was not physically abused. For years, however, I have questioned the possibility of sexual abuse, which would explain the nebulous gaps of my memory and some other difficulties I’ve experienced in my life. However, I have no concrete memories of anything like this happening.
I was raised in a two-parent household with all my physical needs met. Even so, I grew into a deeply sad and troubled person, although most people would have never known the pain I concealed within my heart. I became a master at hiding my true feelings and emotions. My parents tried their best to do right by their four children. We never wanted for food, shelter, or clothing and were generally cared for. Still, a deep sadness and profound darkness permeated my heart and soul. It took me years to break down the walls, or should I say towers, that I built around my heart enough that I was able to come to terms with the pain. Even still, God is revealing truths to me to help me understand my