Introducing the Truth

By Joslyn Shy

This books is about the truth behind lies told, hidden stories held inside...its about letting it all out in the open.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jan 26, 2011
• ISBN: 9781452083483

Joslyn Shy

Joslyn Shy has been writing since childhood. Specifically short stories and poetry.

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Introducing the Truth

Joslyn Shy

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© 2011 Joslyn Shy. All rights reserved.

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First published by AuthorHouse 01/24/2011

ISBN: 978-1-4520-8347-6 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4520-8348-3 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2010914590

Printed in the United States of America

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The truth is…the truth is hard to tell. Stories are hard to keep inside forever. Everybody lies…little white ones or whatever color you choose to call them, and everyone has things that they hold inside their entire lives. Whether it is to brighten up your own life or to make you seem better than the next guy, everyone lies and keeps things to themselves. Even though the saying is that sometimes it’s good to keep things to yourself, the fact that I have never had a best friend to tell anything to made me want to breakdown of all my lies or stories and let it all out, as random as they are all together. This is also about memories that I have and how those memories have affected me. This experience has proved to be liberating for my soul and I hope that by others reading this, it will show people that even if it means they need to write it all out, telling the truth will brighten your soul too. I have held a lot inside me without talking to anyone about it. So here it is; all out on the table for your discussion and hopefully your door to opening up to someone, even if just in writing.

The truth is…….telling the truth is very hard. I always say that I never lie but that, in and of itself, is a lie.

The truth is…..me and a family member used to experiment with each other…gross, I know. We were young and stupid…I wonder if he ever thinks about that? I truly believe that was the beginning of my crazy sex life. There was even a time that a neighbor, also a classmate, had said he saw it happen. I blew it off as if it were a joke.

The truth is….I didn’t wash my hair for a week on purpose because I knew my parents would let me get my ears pierced. Sassy at age 12. I made a card castle the morning of the piercing using every deck of cards I could find. My parents thought I was just being lazy, but no, I had intent on my hygienic purposes.

The truth is…I was never really in love with my ex-husband. It was a settling thing as I felt I would never find somebody that loved me and allow me to have children. If only I knew that my heart would be more broken now, through divorce, than ever before. But it isn’t him that I miss and desire, it’s the image of family that I desired.

The truth is…I admire someone that I only knew for 3 months. She had my dream job, she was beautiful, outgoing, had a lot of friends and was completely carefree. In fact, over 10 years later I still feel that way. I look at pictures of her every once in a while on the internet or in my photo album and am in sheer amazement of her life and who she is.

The truth is…I have had sex with about 50 people in my life. Most because in that 10 minutes, I felt wanted and loved. I didn’t care if they threw me away when they were done. I remember one person; it was in a closet from a playroom at our synagogue. My first time was in a park while our mothers were out for a walk. Another time it was during a crowded party. There was a time I used the line wanna see my bed? well, it worked. He saw the bed and then some. I also have had sex in elevators, staircases, porches, on a swing, in many cars as well as in the middle of a field at the college I attended when I was a freshman while about 1300 students were sleeping in dorms and fraternity/sorority houses surrounding us. None of these with my ex-husband either.

The truth is…my son is my favorite one of my three kids. I shouldn’t have favorites, but I do. Something about his energy and his loyalty to being a true momma’s boy is something that my girls don’t provide. I don’t care what anyone says about mothering him too much or treating him better than my girls. In fact, I don’t treat him any differently; it’s only that his father is hard on him. He uses the he’s gotta grow up to be a man attitude with him which I don’t agree with. They are only young once and need to know their parents love them as much as possible.

The truth is…I only worked in Mississippi for 6 months and with the animals for only 3. I worked at a bar as well as a cocktail waitress. The marine mammal part was so much fun as far as seeing the animals and being able to smile at the sight of them daily but the training of the staff was horrible. I had never worked with dolphins before so I didn’t know how to tell one apart from the other or how they were trained differently than sea lions, which were all I was familiar with. I was talked too many times about saying the wrong names or not having a script memorized. Keep in mind there was more than one script, three main areas where animals performed and about 40 animal’s total whose food was to be prepared, pilled and bucketed. All to be learned in less than a month. Previously, I had worked with sea lions and there were only 5 of them. Going into the Mississippi experience, I was hoping for more training. I understood that there are animals to be fed and things to be learned rather quickly but then there should have been a way to follow or shadow another trainer to learn the job. That would have worked out better rather than here is a script. Learn it by tomorrow. Then do a show and memorize all the dolphins’ names but the following day. Now here’s another script and memorize the dolphins names all by tomorrow to host another show. Then here is a third script to memorize by tomorrow and it changes depending on the animal in the show. Oh yeah, you also have to know how to read a food board, who eats what vitamins and medications and learn the staff by yesterday.

The truth is…The drugs were bad and I experimented with a lot…but part of me wished I would have continued. I wouldn’t have the pain I have now. There are even times today that I wish I knew someone that had some cocaine or acid for me. But luckily for all who care about me, whoever you are, I don’t know of anyone who has any of those drugs.

The truth is…..me and a few friends used to do cocaine in the bathroom of a local pool hall. Someone would put lines underneath an ashtray in one of the stalls and one at a time we would do some lines using rolled up dollar bills or napkins lying around. This went on for months and the bar and the other patrons had no idea.

The truth is….I should have just taken my ex-husband to court. Who cares that I don’t like to argue or that I was afraid of arguing for 16