Toxic Side Effects

By Samantha Joyner

Toxic Side Effects captivates the reality of just how the past can interrupt our minds for our future. Even at what we feel is the peak of life, we can have all kinds of skeletons fall from our closet. A lot of times our issues stem from how we grew up. What we also fail to understand is that generational curses can cause so many dangerous side effects in our lives. What was done to actually make us feel like we deserved all the pain that surpasses all understanding?

This book will take you into the saga of the Robinson family. You will see how a single mothers lifestyle has taken her children around the pain and disappointments that caused some of her toxic behavior. What she endured caused many problems for all of her children, especially Faith, Mimi and Seth.

Toxic Side Effects will take generational curses to another level with this family and have you looking in your heart for forgiveness, breaking chains of hurt and pain.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jan 17, 2017
• ISBN: 9781524660048

Samantha Joyner

Samantha Joyner is originally from the Low Country of South Carolina, partly raised in Early Branch, South Carolina and then later in Brooklyn, New York. Samantha has traveled the country and lived in several areas that have contributed to her creativity and vast knowledge of a myriad of experiences that support her writing. Given her territorial residences that spread from the city lights of New York to the deep woods of Carolina, she’s a little bit country and a little bit rock-n-roll. She now resides in Columbia, South Carolina. She is a divorcee and has one adult son. Samantha attended the University of South Carolina for Criminal Justice and worked in the Law enforcement field for over thirteen years. She went on to pursue her education at Kenneth Shuler’s School of Cosmetology, and became a licensed cosmetologist and a beauty consultant. Samantha has been in the beauty field for over twenty years and now continues in her field as a make-up artist with her own company “Southern Gurl’s.” Samantha has continued her education at American InterContinental University, where she received a degree in Business Management. She has also been working with a major with telecommunications service provider for nine years. She also writes a weekly article in Millennium Magazine ( www.millmag.org ) , called ‘Samantha’s Juice’. The article focuses on topics about Love and Relationships. Samantha enjoys people and wants to continue in the healing process of women. She believes in “living life and loving it.” Samantha’s books are entertaining and meant to provide lessons to those in love, looking for love and loving life! Samantha is available for speaking engagements, retreats, seminars, book signings, book club appearances and many other focus group events. Please use the ‘Contact Us’ Form at The A List Inc.’s website by visiting http://thealistinc.com/Contact_Us.html to request Author Samantha Joyner at your next event. The ultimate Girlfriend Guide to a perfect Gathering is awaiting you! Book her today!

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TOXIC

SIDE EFFECTS

Samantha Joyner

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Table of Contents

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Round 1 Toxic Behavior

Chapter 1 The Day I was born

Chapter 2 My World

Chapter 3 Beginnings

Chapter 4 Second chance to life

Chapter 5 Sacrifice

Chapter 6 State of confusion

Chapter 7 Poisonous family

Chapter 8 Audacity

Chapter 9 Conscience battle

Chapter 10 The blame game

Round 2 The Side Effects

Chapter 11 Real courage

Chapter 12 Ups and downs

Chapter 13 Rented space

Chapter 14 Contamination

Chapter 15 Psychopath

Chapter 16 Selfie

Chapter 17 Acceptance

Chapter 18 Therapy

Chapter 19 Healing

Chapter 20 Offspring’s

About the Author

Dedication

I dedicate this book to my best friend, and my world, My Lord and savior Jesus Christ. Your spirit has been there from day one and has never let go. I thank you God, my lord and savior for being my protector and allowing me to live life and understand no matter what you are always there to pick me up. Amen

Acknowledgements

First I would like to thank God for allowing me to make this my fourth project. I thank him for allowing me opportunities I would not have without him.

To my Husband, my ride or die whose always down like 4 flat tires. I love you babes and thank you for six years of growth. I thank God for putting you in my life when he did. You are my knight and shining armor.

To my Mother Apostle Ruby Martin, thanks for teaching me and allowing me to understand who God is and what my purpose in life was really about.

To my father Morris Orrs, even though we are getting to know each other it’s been a blast and I thank God for bringing you in my life. God timing is always on time.

To my son Sterling Joyner, know I love you and that God is the answer for all of your questions, let him lead you.

To my family members that I love so much and have been so supportive, Shanta, Sholanda and Annette, with cousins like these, what more can a girl ask for. Thank you all for your continuous support. To my cousin but like my sister Cynthia Copland you have been there when I always needed you the most. Thank you for being my big sister and most of all my backbone. You have never let me down and always had my back. I love you.

To Evette Elder, Bernice Mitchell, Rasheba Major, Tabitha Jeffcoat and Kisha Mayshack, and Dawn White you are my ride or die chicks and the sisters I never had. You have given me so much encouragement, when I wanted to stop and did not want to move forward you ladies have always been on my side and I love you for it.

To all my readers, thanks for all you do and I will continue to bring more to you!

Smooches and I love you all!

Samantha T. Joyner- Jackson

Introduction

Toxic, is a real story about a lot of women and men who go through so much from birth. When you sit back and think that every trial and tribulation that you have overcome has been so trying at times you wanted to give up. This book will take you through the generational curses of a family. We all have had problems in our families and often told that we were just like someone in our family.

Toxic Side effects captivates the reality of just how our past can definitely interrupt our minds for our future. We realize that our past can truly fall in to place of our future when even at our peak of life we have had all kind of skeletons fall from our closet. A lot of times our issues stemmed from growing up and how we grew up. It’s generational curses can cause so many side effects in our lives.

This book is about Faith, Mimi and Seth Robinson. These siblings have truly lived, toxic relationships from their childhood through most of their lives. Faith caught hell from the day she was born, she came from a hell raising foot stomping momma who main concern was making money off her children. Faiths whose father were a street pimp and ran women as a living, on top of being a drug addict most of his life. Her name was a given she new she was born of the name Faith meaning a firm belief in which you have no proof of it. This was always the case in her life she never had proof of anything turning around in her life she just believed it would change. Life had become Toxic, but she realizes through all the side effects in her life that had been toxic she had to make that choice to change or continue having side effects without a cure.

Mimi was running the same life of her mother, with the baby daddies and follow the footsteps of a mother she despised was not what she wanted. She wanted to change for her children and make sure they were getting what she did not receive which was love. She had to make sure that her toxic relationship with her mother did not spill over into her children.

Seth had raised all of his siblings and he and Mimi lost all hope when their father died. Raped at the age of nine by one of his mothers men had truly changed his life because of his pass with his mothers men, it made him question his manhood and allow him to be in toxic relationships. What would change for him? He has to make some choices in life and the wrong choices can make life real toxic for him.

I hope you enjoy Toxic Side effects

It is wise to direct your anger towards problems-not people: to focus your energies on answers –not excuses. Samantha Jackson

Round 1

Toxic Behavior

When you decide to let go of people that are toxic in your life, you realize that it’s not an act of meanness, but an act of caring about yourself enough to let them go so you don’t carry resentment in your life. Samantha Jackson

Chapter 1

The Day I was born

FAITH

I knew the day I came into this world Monique Robinson was going to have to be a strong woman to push me out. It was a dark night, July 4, 1970. My mother was in labor for 18 hours. She couldn’t find anyone to take her to the hospital, because it was a holiday. All the people who she could call were enjoying the 4th of July block party in Brooklyn New York. She did not have many friends, hell maybe none at all because she was a single black woman with eight children. People knew that she was not taking care of anybody but herself. All of my mother’s children were a paycheck from the state and people in the Brownsville projects knew it. She was living in a three bedroom apartment, which was not fit for a dog to live in. She had so many baby daddies she was losing count of who they were. So Monique did what she knew best and had a self birth. With the struggle and pushing of me I knew I was trying hard as hell not to come out on that day. I wanted to avoid all the hell to come in my life, and she had the nerve to name me Faith.

She said she named me Faith, because it was nobody she could depend on but her faith to give birth that day by herself. Well as the story goes, I was born. From what I understand, my mother delivered me alone, cleaned up her mess and my older sister, who was sixteen and pregnant, would take care of me for the night to let her rest. My older sister was born when my mother was thirteen years of age. You would think after helping with seven other children she would stay away from making a baby herself, but the apple did not fall far from the tree. Mimi was sixteen and was pregnant for the third time. She had lost the last two and God knows here she was again pregnant. One thing I must admit she was more a mother to me than my own mother. I guess I should be grateful, because she had actually showed me the love she wished her mother would show her.

For the first few years, Mimi was my real mother and took care of me. I started walking at 9 months and feeding myself by two years of age. I had to move fast, because yes my mother was pregnant again. I never really had time to be a baby because there were so many of us. I was baby number eight and nine was on the way. I look back now and wonder why didn’t someone step in and make my mother stop having all of these children? It’s crazy because my father was just my father; he had no more children with my mother, but my other siblings shared fathers. Out of nine of us I was the only one