In My Gypsy Shoes

By Bobby Tremaine

In My Gypsy Shoes is a black man's personal account of his life's struggle with loneliness, poverty, drug addiction and sexuality while on the path to pursuing a career. Now in senior years, this is a look back in retrospect as to the how's and why's of what we do that make us who we are.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jun 9, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496916938

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DEDICATION

I dedicate this book to Ronald L. Hodges who has always been there for me, even in my most darkest moments. I will always treasure you. Neither time nor the opinions of any man will ever change that.

Love always,

Bobby

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Dedication

Journal One: Up For Grabs

Journal Two: Fast Paced

Journal Three: On My Last Leg

I need a song that tells about where I am today. I need a song that will express all the feelings of over five decades. I need a song that will review all the mistakes I’ve made, bad choices and wrong decisions. I need a song that will reveal pain and suffering, feelings of hopelessness and despair, regret. I need a song that holds no punches and reveals life round for round. A song that segues from weakness to strength, from defeat to victory, from repentance to salvation. A song of faith, of hope, of joy, of love, and yes, peace of mind. A song that is me in every sense of the word. A song that is what I was, what I am and what I know I will be. My song. All about me. I need a song. I’ve had a song about loneliness and somehow that void is filled with Godly companionship. I’ve had a song about poverty, yet somehow every need has been fulfilled. I’ve had a song about having no purpose in life, and yet my goals are so clearly defined. A new song. A song about a renewed spirit. A song about feeling God in me. A song about ascension in God’s spirit. A song about my rightful place in life and my power in unconditional love. Oh yes, yes, yes.

I need a song.

T here is nothing more devastating than living your entire life only to find that in the end you’ve been traveling in the wrong direction. Miles and miles away from your dreams which somehow you passed way back there down the road. How could I have missed it? When did my big opportunity pass me by? How did I end up like this? So many unanswered questions to puzzling and misguided results. Where did I go wrong and did I do anything right? You have to go back to the very beginning and dissect your experiences one by one in order to make any sense of where you are now. Circumstances, choices, curiosities and morals all come in to play when figuring this out. We need facts as ammunition: we didn’t choose our family. We are not responsible for our parents’ failures. We have a need to be accepted. No one owes us anything, a very hard lesson to learn. The opinions of others should not matter. We can only do our best. Procrastination leads to missed opportunities and being aggressive is not an option. We must face fears, admit to truth and be willing and attempt to change. We must know our limitations