From Darkness to Light

By Xhey Connor and Connor Parsons

This book is a reflective account of two people who meet and then discover that they are connected to each other in an unconventional way. Their connection is at an ethereal level. They discover they are both empaths on a journey of self-discovery. Their connection brings them face to face with some of their darkest fears and most rewarding moments of personal growth. Their respective empath natures afford them an opportunity to embark on a journey of discovery of a realm of reality which they suspected existed but didn’t know how to access until their own respective personal self-destruction caused them to save each other. They each recount the journey that brought them to near self-destruction and how they saved each other’s life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xhey Connor
• Release date: May 2, 2018
• ISBN: 9780463896747

Xhey Connor

I have discovered that as a person we all wear many hats and depending on what is required of each of us at any given time we each step into the role we are called to fill at that time. I am a mother, a career development coach, a self defense instructor a speaker, an empath, an author and so,so much more. I live life for a living, striving daily to always honour my highest purpose. I have raised my three children in an unconventional way and encourage them to listen to their own rhythm and dance to the tune of their own soul. I love deeply and unconditionally, I am extremely patient and give many second chances but I do declare I am not a saint. I have mastered the art of being both soft and strong. I am a woman of strength my spirit is unbreakable. I am a warrior of light with a purpose that I will fulfill with such intensity and passion - it has become a spiritual calling.

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From Darkness to Light

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contents

Acknowledgements

Synopsis

Foreword

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

About the Authors

Acknowledgements

To all those who come behind us…

May they find us faithful to who we are and the fulfilment of our highest purpose.

To those who have gone before us…

May we be found worthy of the mantle bestowed on us.

To all who find themselves here…

May you travel your journey always …

…In Gratitude …to learn

…In Obedience …to Accept

…In Truth… to Become

To always Honour and Serve your Highest Purpose in Love and in Light!

Synopsis

This book is a reflective account of two people who meet and then discover that they are connected to each other in an unconventional way. Their connection is at an ethereal level. They discover they are both empaths on a journey of self-discovery. Their connection brings them face to face with some of their darkest fears and most rewarding moments of personal growth. Their respective empath natures afford them an opportunity to embark on a journey of discovery of a realm of reality which they suspected existed but didn’t know how to access until their own respective personal self-destruction caused them to save each other. They each recount the journey that brought them to near self-destruction and how they saved each other’s life.

Coincidence or Divine orchestration – you decide

Foreword

When the world you are born into and raised in feels like it no longer fits, you wonder if you are losing your mind. There are many questions that rumble through your brain and often these go unanswered because truthfully who do you ask… what do you ask? The questions seem perfectly normal while they’re in your head. However, as soon as they fall from your lips and hit your ears there is un-realness about them; and so eventually you stop asking. These questions swirl around your head until eventually the narrative you create is one of self-recriminating madness. You travel through your life; such as it is, and try to fit into this world of ordinary – but there is always a sense that somehow you just don’t belong…

About the Authors

Xhey and Connor are both empaths which means they are both highly sensitive to the energy and the emotions of the people, animals, and sometimes even the spiritual imprints that exist around them. This extreme sensitivity applies to the familiar as well as the unfamiliar; people they are intimately close with as well as total strangers. They experience the world around them and feel what other people are feeling through their extraordinarily heightened senses and keen intuitions. Empaths often internalize the feelings of others without being aware they are doing it and often interpret those feelings as being their own.

This book is an account of how Xhey and Connor came to find and know each other in this life. It also reflects on the incidences throughout each of their lives that gave them little indicators throughout their lives as to who they are and who they would ultimately become. Their relationship has had many deviations and while they both adamantly refuse to define the nature of their relationship with each other they have both accepted that the connection they share with each other is both unusual and unconventional. They have also both learnt and continue to learn what it means to be an awakened empath and how to navigate through this new and very different life they now find themselves living.

Empaths are usually non-violent and non-aggressive people who love peaceful and harmonious environments. Disharmony makes empaths uncomfortable and they will do everything they can to avoid it. Empaths are free spirits who must have their freedom of movement and expression.

Xhey and Connor believe that their gift allows them to tap into the spiritual realm and tune into its energies. They frequently experience synchronicities, phenomena that occur in everyone’s life, but because we are more connected than most people to the supernatural world we more easily recognize these coincidences as signposts of guidance.

Xhey and Connor admit that they live their lives in duality. We physically exist in the dense, dark world filled with negativity and lower energy called Earth, but we mentally exist in the light, pure, high energy, optimistic world of spirit. It is hard for us to stay grounded because we understand the freedom of the alternative world, but we must stay grounded because that is the way we all complete our Earthly missions.

We hope you enjoy reading this book as much as we enjoyed writing it.

Love and Light

Xhey and Connor

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Chapter One

When the sky falls down

When the Wolf walks beside you…

You will never forget it

When the Wolf looks into your eyes…

Your heart shall skip a beat and your soul shall be calmed

When you hear the wolf howl in the forest…

Your spirit will long for the true call of the wild.

For some of us; this life is more unreal than for others – we fulfil societal norms and expectations of marriage, of children, of careers, of jobs – all in a feeble attempt to fit into this normal world. The sense that everyone around you is judging you, picking your life apart and every social situation exhausts you, however, the desperate need to connect keeps you from staying away from these engagements. You seem to absorb the energy and the emotions of those around you and there is no way to stop this perpetual spongification which is the hallmark of your life. There are those who drain your energy and the sense of heaviness surrounds you irrespective of where you are or who you are with. In these desperate moments you wear the mask of compliance for the world to see; in truth however you yearn to be alone, to step into nature and surround yourself with its unconditional peace and silence, to cleanse your mind, body and soul. Life feels painful, heavy and ever imposing.

Some of us learn skills that help us along the way, but the ever unanswered questions hover like a sword; ready to fall and sever our heads from our bodies. Indeed, there are days when we welcome the fall of the sword but it never actually happens and we ask why … why can’t it just happen and put me out of my misery? We cry out in anguish, lashing out at those around us, at the universe and at God, often for years, but still the answers seem elusive and the questions seem unending. We find ourselves seeking alternative forms of comfort, satisfaction, distraction – these all provide temporary relief until the next wave of something happens. We never quite know what this something is – never really able to define it, categorize it or explain it. In truth, we don’t have the language to do so and so our quest continues.

For some of us, we fight against it because our rite of passage happens so early in our life that we have no idea of what this feeling of openness is, or of this rhythm that feels so different to those around us. In fact for those of us who experience this early in our lives we quite literally feel like we are stumbling through a life that belongs to someone else. For some of us a catastrophic personal event triggers an emotional avalanche of world-shattering proportions and we have no way of knowing what to do.

Irrespective of how you find yourself on a new and different path you know a few things intuitively. One - your life is about to change. Two – you resign yourself to the possibility that maybe you do belong in a padded room medicated into blissful oblivion and for a short while that option actually seems and feels like a feasible option. Three – as desperately as you know that you should fight against this vortex that is sucking you in, you just don’t feel any desperate urge to stop it and so you surrender to this – whatever this is.

In an almost parallel sensation you feel this incontrollable urge to look into a bottomless abyss – it pulls you and you know you should resist but somehow you almost feel powerless to do so and yet you find yourself not surrendering but just standing there waiting – desperately wanting a decision to be made for you. You wonder if you should step over or should you turn your back on the pull of abysmal oblivion. Some of us spend a while at the top of the abyss, others’ visit is much shorter but the result I opine is the same – something is different and it needs to be dealt with.

The how part of dealing with it becomes a testimony of resilience, strength, fortitude and determination. For some of us our first encounter with this different world is one of denial and so we fight against its existence in self-destructive ways because none of it makes sense and the rest of the world we are exposed to seems to not have a problem, so why do we. Therefore, we conclude that we are the ones that must be wrong. Some of us go through repeated cycles of stepping-in-and-out trying to fit in and when we don’t, we isolate ourselves until we feel ready to try again; all the while knowing intuitively that it’s a futile exercise but honestly what is the alternative?

As the months and years progress, we slowly become more convinced that perhaps our view is not as misguided as we initially thought. However, in the absence of even knowing that an alternative exists we simultaneously convince ourselves that we need to just get-it-together. Some of us medicate ourselves in all manner of ways just so we can get through the day without falling apart but most of all in a desperate attempt to not feel any of it anymore. The confusion, the uncertainty, the loneliness, the fear just needs to disappear because let’s face it; life still needs to carry on despite our private little pity-party. We know something is not right – we can’t be this wrong about what we are feeling –somehow though we still doubt because that’s what we have been taught to do all our lives. We have after all been sanitized into conformity.

Therefore, we conclude that we are definitely wrong and the world as we know it is right, and so we surrender to that and accept that we don’t fit in – but so what, we will just make-it-work somehow…until… the inevitable happens and we crash mentally and emotionally. We allow our self to be decimated by self-loathing, guilt and doubt because how could we have been so stupid and so wrong and how do we trust ourselves to make sound character judgments when we have gotten things so horribly wrong. How could we be so stupid, why did we not see the warning signs, are we that blind… and so the questions continue unabated…?

Some of us call out for help and are ignored. Some of us who hear the call for help question its authenticity because let’s face